cAmP..

Juz back from a 5 day biz camp in ntu.. Pretty shagged out after the events but boy was it an exhilarating experience.. Didn't really think it'll be so diff from all the other camps i've been thru b4.. though there were alot of similarities such as the lack of sleep, bad food n plenty of games, but the atmosphere is juz so diff.. Everyone tries to be high themselves n encourages each other along, which is something quite unexpected.. One thing to regret is tt i did not really gave it my all this time.. Been holding back a bit since the start which didn't really do me any good.. lack of sleep didn't really help much either.. well at least e team remains strongly bonded, n everyone had lots of fun, n tt's all tt really matters..

Well i guess i'll leave the details of the camp till another time.. quite tired now act.. In the meantime..

Sirius rox!!

LoNg WaIt..

Hehe been sometime since the last post, did anyone miss me??

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Guess not, judging from the silence.. Haha doens't matter, i'm juz here to entertain myself anyway..

Celebrated jasper's birthday at east coast a few weeks ago, been quite some time since i've been to east coast act.. Lots of memories there, esp the route march days hehe.. Anyway the bbq was quite a bang, since it has been a period of time since the class has met up.. Went down to the riverside restaurant near indoor stadium after tt, n did some extremely "un-21" stuffs.. Hehe don't really know how to describe it here, hope to get the pics soon den post dem i guess..

Came back from genting 2-3 days ago.. Virgin visit to the casino ended up in major losses to all except 2 hehe.. Well maybe it's not too bad a loss, ard a few hundred each, but it was a really good experience.. and the oxygen tat's pumped in n circulated in the casino really does perk one up.. Felt lethargic only after leaving the place, which makes one wan to stay in there forever.. Hoho quite some thought act..

Anyway finally got my driver's license!!! Hooray!!! Cost ard 850 bucks, which is like quite a kill hehe.. Can't wait to start driving without supervison haha..

pAsSaGe Of LiFe..

Well this post's a bit overdue.. intended for last week act but it slipped my mind.. was at dad's company juz now and the notion popped up again..

Attended a funeral a week ago.. Was my dad's cousin.. Ain't really close to tt side of the family, so didn't really recognise him.. Not tt i've ever met him.. But it goes to show how extensive one's family can be, till the point tt the younger generation may nvr get to see the older generation at all during their lifespan, maybe except at their deathbeds.. it's kinda sad act, to know tt u have so many relatives act, but u'll prob spill ur blood for the guy next door, coz u happen to see him everyday, n not ur relative who is as unfamiliar to u as any other guy on the streets..

Wat's overwhelming is the fact tt everyone got to see each other finally during someone's funeral, after prob 10 to 20 years of living their own lives.. To think tt they used to live beside each other when they were still young.. Played together, studied together, and prob had dreamt of growing up and staying together.. But the reality of the world kicks in, one by one they leave the neighbourhood for greener pastures, to gather again on such occasion.. Which leads me to this thought..

At every point of life we'll gather for significant occasions.. Now's prob the birthday celebration of us entering adulthood.. Another ten years or so we'll be seeing each other during weddings.. And a few more years the celebration of a baby's first month.. But after tt? Will be straight to the funerals when we'll once again meet, n relive the good old days? I definitely hope not..

So, my frens, do cherish the friendships u have now, no matter how deep of shallow it is, coz there's juz so many years in one's lifespan..

rEvAmPeD..

Finally took sometime out to properly refurbish the blog.. Ain't too flashy or cool, some unsatisfied areas here n there, but nonetheless it's an effort made.. hope u guys like the new look.. If not.. Well i can't really do anything abt it ya? Do pardon the shabby work though, as i mentioned i ain't a html god..

Anyway hopefully can start work on the little bio i was talking abt ages ago.. Hehe..

aDuLtHoOd..

Haha finalised how noob i am in using all these html stuff.. yet lacking in the drive to learn it properly.. hope it's still not too late act, otherwise..


Anyway juz celebrated my birthday with a bang.. to all those who didn't know, it's on the 24th of this month.. Quite a common birthday as well, when some of the ppl i've invited couldn't make it due to other ppl holding their birthday parties as well.. oh well, no one's to be blamed of course.. but though it was pretty much enjoyable, the whole gathering was quite taxing really, n burnt quite a huge hole i think.. hehe good luck to the rest celebrating their birthdays similiarly.. u get wat u give haha..

another round of thanx to those who made it down i guess.. really, really appreciate ur efforts n gifts.. to those who couldn't make it, or i didn't invite coz of capacity reasons, dun worry, u're included in my thanx as well.. gonna treasure our lifelong friendships ya?

aDuLtS...

The year tt everyone's waiting for.. or maybe most ppl are waiting for.. The age in which in the eyes of law, we're no longer brainless kids tt cannot think for themselves.. We're all full fledged adults at this age, able to make our own decisions, pursue what we think is best for us, blah blah blah..

Juz attended Jinky's bdae bash, n KM's n YY's last sat.. And many others b4 them.. Have to say tt it's really becoming a trend, or is it juz tt i'm ignorant? Haha wateva, juz join in the fun i guess.. Though it's really becoming quite an expensive thing, getting a present for almost everyone ard my age..

Anyway, life's becoming more n more.. mundane? Guess it's kinda like a withdrawal sympton of having ur life planned out for u.. For once, there's loads of time at hand to do wateva u wan, save from those out of budget.. Had alot of things which i started out with, but sad to say, it may juz be a moment of passion.. I mean, there's only so many things tt one can do with limited funds..

Excuses.. Nvm, juz needed some motivation.. Was looking thru the earlier posts e other day, n realised tt at one time, i was act debating against myself.. Hmmm..

Till next time i guess..

CiViLiAn LiFe..

Hmm... haven't really been doing much the past few weeks, which i'm getting quite guilty abt.. some driving lessons, capoeira classes n lots n lots of mj.. not tt i'm really complaining, but i'm not really making full use of my youth.. oh well, u're kinda restricted when a steady flow of income is cut all of a sudden.. maybe it's high time tt i find a job.. not juz any, but one which i'll benefit in the future.. haha easier said den done.. it's takes an effort to even update this blog regularly, at the comfort of my home, let alone going out and working.. sometimes i do wonder whether signing on is a good deal at all.. hmm maybe..

ah put tt scary tot aside!!!

getting kinda broke with all the bdae celebrations coming up.. sigh need to monitor my finances more carefully from now on.. oh man, wat happened to e days when money wasn't even part of my worries..

juz strife to get out of the rat race soon ya? haha..

anyway a 5 yr monopoly has finally been broken.. of course, tt'll juz mean a much stronger team in years to come.. competition begets competition, n it's thru these struggles tt maturity occurs.. failure's not the end of the world, it's a test for achieving greater heights..

FrEeDoM...

Yup, my 1st pic in e blog.. n it's my ORD parade.. How time flies..

Once childish n innocent, these 2 yrs have indeed molded me into wat i am today.. More mature, more dependable.. or so i hope to believe.. ultimately it's up to the ones ard me to judge me.. but do know tt the child in me will forever be there, keeping the flames of youth burning brightly..

Kinda nostalgic to be looking back at these 2 years, possibly e 2 most memorable years.. toil n hardship does really leave a lasting impression, n the mark's made even deeper when u have a bunch of true frens who lasted through the pain with u.. nvr giving up, nvr saying nvr, n always charging forward with renewed strength n courage.. really glad to have made the decision 2 yrs ago, coz i can't really imagine how dull life would be in any other units..

to all those who're still serving or going to.. really wish u all will make full use of these 2 yrs.. it's definitely not a waste of time.. there's so much tt can be done, so much to accomplish.. so do enjoy it while it last.. n when e day finally comes, n u can look back n smile, den e exp would have been a fruitful one.. i know mine was a "bountiful harvest"..

VaLeNtInE..

Hey guys, i'm back!!!

Haha sounds like i've been away on holiday or sth.. Well it's act my com tt's went on a break.. It ain't easy to be stuck at home without a com ya? The wonders of internet and all.. Think not many can say tt they never touched the com even once at any time of the day, anyday..

Yup, it's the time of the year again.. Valentine's day.. Another lonely year for me again, and this would be the 3rd year running if i'm not wrong.. To think tt i'm gonna be 21 soon.. Tt ain't very right eh? It's always the norm for the heros in rpgs to meet their destined one at this age, or even younger.. but for me, there's juz this big empty space waiting to be filled.. haha guess i'm sounding a bit desperate, but hey, it's nvr to early to plan..

Well there's juz so many things to be done once u've grown up.. Though u do get adult privelleges, but i still feel tt it's always better to remain as a kid.. Oh well it's not sth tt we can control.. But still, there can always be a child within us..

Anyway, here's wishing all a happy valentine's day!!!

BoRiNg...

This muz be the most boring blog ever.. And to think tt it's more than 2 yrs old.. Maybe they should terminate those blogs which dun get enuff hits.. Hehe juz kidding..

Haha guess i'm juz not tt interesting a person, or tt i'm juz plain lazy.. Den why try so hard to maintain, some may ask.. Well dun everyone like to look back in life and smile upon the exp? Well i know i do..

Anyway met up with quite a few jc faces during the last few days, really makes me think back of the good old schooling days.. It's really a pity tt we all have to grow up and move on.. Eventually there'll be lesser n lesser gathering times, more n more awkward silences, den poof, u dun get to see them anymore.. Sigh.. Depressing eh? Though the size of our island country does make it possible for u to bump into long lost frens along the roads, which will result in another awkward conversation n so..

Guess i'll start setting a date to refurbish e blog, so at least i'll come more often.. Will need a more permanent com though..

Oh the drive, the drive!!

Anyway been wanting to write a bio of sorts, but guess tt'll have to wait.. Again.. Hehe i'm quite a procrastinator eh?

BeLoVeD..

Oh well, life's like tt eh?

Another round of depression sets in rite before the weekend.. another mishap to my beloved.. Keep having doubts as to whether i should share when there's this nagging feeling tt ppl are taking advantage of my generosity.. Guess i do tt too sometimes, but i dun cut off a piece of flesh or anything like tt rite?

Sigh.. Why? Why muz this be happening to me? I mean, i dun really feel tt i've been a bad person, maybe juz a bit of naughty things now n den, but do i deserve this? Seriously, being good doesn't leave u with anything.. Ppl may take u for granted, or take advantage of u, but u can't do anything abt it, coz u're born tt way..

I guess there's really nth else to do but juz try to be optimistic, or stay ard the right company..

UpDaTeS..

Well, it's really kinda weird to be using dad's laptop to update here, coz it's interface is totally in traditional chinese n so alot of functions within the blog can't be understood.. Anyway juz here for a bit of update..

Had a week long break from camp juz recently, so went KL with the guys from camp.. Guess the only thing worth mentioning during the trip was the exp at KL Zouk, which was refreshing nonetheless.. Maybe more planning should be put in during the next overseas trip i guess.. Anyway had food poisoning from the last meal there, which wasn't very pleasant to say the very least..

UC was rite after that.. One week of hand-to-hand combat and break falls. and more to come during the coming week.. One wonders if we'll really be able to apply the techniques taught in real life, as in being able to pull it off against real-life opponents.. In any case, it'll be fun juz playing a fool with the guys ard i guess..

Was act thinking of writing a bio of sorts in here, but once u come down to it, u get kinda lazy.. Hmm.. I guess tt'll juz have to wait.. Hehe..

OpTiOnS..

Oh well, it's been nearly a mth.. As always i guess.. As in coming on here, ya? Kinda like an own personnal space for me to type down stuff and maybe do a little bit of reflection i guess.. hopefully.. Think i act mentioned it b4, but who really cares abt previous entries except for days when there's really nothing to do, which doesn't come much often nowadays..

Had quite a hectic mth i guess.. End to end weekends burnt, first from live-firing, den 2ntm den duties to serve.. Well at least it's all over now, and a week's break is wat all are looking forward to at the end of the mth.. A really well deserved break i muz say, and also one required for us to carry on with the next phase, and most prob the last phase of our ns lives.. hopefully anyway..

Anyway recently purchased a few dvds from across the borders, resulting in movie marathons back to back.. Finished up with a few shows tt i kinda missed during its airing times, n kinda satisfied with the progress.. Done with "Hikaru no Go" as well, which is a fantastic anime, save maybe for the ending.. Hoping for it's sequel soon i guess.. Think the only thing left untouched on the list would be games, which's quite a prob from the situation i'm in now.. oh well, things dun usually go the way u plan, but there's bound to be a way out of it..

Boredom's setting in.. And time spent staring into empty spaces is becoming longer and longer with each second.. hmmm guess i'tll have to end here.. another short update again..

really wish life will start changing for the better.. wonder if tt's really up to oneself..

tOtS..

it's prob time..

maybe.. juz maybe..

twenty.. such a magical number..

age isn't really a big thing since u are wat u think u are.. but den again..

we're living in a world tt's pretty much unforgiving..

if u're slow, u're gone..
if u're unreceptive to new ideas, u're gone..
if u dun constantly upgrade urself, u're gone too..
the list goes on and on..

those tt adapt well gets to the top; those who dun, well u see them ard in various degrees act..

so wat can we do? it ain't as easy as slaying monsters in RPGs, or shooting down bots in FPSs..

the world is out there, it's juz up to ppl, whether they wanna take the well-trodden route, or paved their own way out..

it's prob time..

maybe.. juz maybe..

ReBiRth..

Well, in a few ways, yes.. But u can prob view it as a new beginning as well, since a new lease of life was given, of sorts.. Haha..

Been starting to relive the good old days of magic back in camp, and it's quite amusing to see so many players of the same era, starting and stopping the game at ard the same time period, and den suddenly picking it up again.. It's act kinda like u rewatching all the cartoons that u used to watch when u were young, or rummaging through the toys that u once played.. Well, we don't live forever, and memories die hard ya? Esp the good old childhood days when there ain't any of the worries that adults face..

Finally got my PSP, after so many months of pondering and waiting and saving.. So many functions, so many games, but juz so little time, space and money.. It's really kinda amazing that wat our technology can produce nowadays, with all the smart phones, PDAs and other small small gadgets that pack quite a punch.. Really hard to imagine ten years back, when handphones were the size of bricks, and handheld gaming platforms were restricted to Tetris games..

Watched 2 movies for the past 2 weeks, and they ain't ur normal kind of entertainment movies.. One was on 3 kinds of love on 3 diff stages of life, the other, well the old old story abt the battle between good and evil.. Not exactly wat i had in mind to watch when i went to the theatres, but den again, it's a welcomed break from all the blood and gore, or the hugs and kisses, or the guns and swords.. Well u get the picture..

A simple quote from the last movie..

"It's easy to banish the light from within, but it's difficult to destroy the darkness surrounding.."

oNe MoNtH..

Hehe nth much to put in here.. Really.. But ain't gonna juz end e entry this way, haha so gonna be crapping a bit..

Anyway juz a bit of update.. Juz booked out not long ago, at ard 11.. Guess this's e first time tt e coy booked out so late, not forgetting the fact tt there weren't any fresh air for the past week.. Y? u might wonder.. Well, i'm act wondering abt tt as well.. Guess it's juz e way some ppl work.. Or maybe as ppl sometimes put it, "some black sheeps in the crowd".. Oh well..

Well, if it's gonna be like this, and u ain't gonna have any power to change it, y not juz live with it? No point getting frustrated over it when in the end, u can juz look back and laugh at it? Haha.. Hopefully tt is..

Com's down btw.. The usual one i mean.. Now using dad's all chinese com, which i'm surprise tt i'm act using quite well.. Den again, guess it's high time to invest in a new com hehe..

Hmm.. No pt in trying to puke when u haven't eaten anything, so guess i'll prob juz end off here.. Unless there're ppl out there who's so keen on knowing my daily routine and all tt, well in tt case.. Hehe i've only 3 words..

Juz too bad.. Haha.. Catch me another time, and u'll prob be lucky haha..

BaCk FoR mOrE???

Oh well, i know it's really a long long break this time, but u know, as they always say, good things are worth the wait.. haha.. guess u can consider the absence a dry spell of sort, but now.. we're ready to rumble!! Sort of .. Hehe..

Ok there hasn't really been anything much happenings during these few mths, prob juz some air flights here and there, in and out of the country worth mentioning hehe.. Maybe tat's where i'll touch on.. first trip was to taiwan, and i guess there's really nothing to complain abt the place at all.. Good food, great shopping paradises, easy communication and accessibility to places.. Taiwan has almost everything that i hold precious in life, namely comics, food and games.. Was act thinking of emigrating there, but then again there's this nagging height issue, the only "low point" for me i think.. Why are all the taiwanese girls so tall?!? Not that it really matters to the sight but den, yup, eh.. All those in my state should know wat i'm talking abt.. Hopefully..

Next trip was down under to Indonesia.. Though there was a 3 week buffer in b/w, but considering the flurry of activities during those weeks, think u can say that i went on back to back trips.. Not that i'm complaining, no.. Who will if he's asked to slack? Haha.. Well Indonesia's not as bad as a certain someone was describing prior to the trip.. Their currency may not have much power as compared to us, but their way and style of living ain't inferior to us.. Where we lived, there was a an air of innocence felt throughout the place.. Ppl were friendly and hospitable, and were genuinely sincere in wanting to make friends with us.. There isn't much tussle or power struggle as u can see back here, or maybe we were juz too sheltered during the trip, but nevertheless we saw true, unbreakable bonds b/w the soldiers there, forged during the years of real fighting side by side with each other.. That'll be sth that we can never, and will never hope to emulate..

Anyway squeezing 2 mths of events into one entry is juz like having a summary for a 400 page novel.. Will prob add in the itty gritty details during the next few entries.. That is, if my memory still serves me well.. Hehe..

bUsY bUsY..

Hehe my long awaited entry.. Sorry, but been really busy these few weeks, so really can't find time for anything else other than work.. n i mean work in camp.. haven't had much time with outside life, n haven't been meeting up with frens outside to.. sorry sorry, betcha u all miss me rite? haha..

anyway juz a bit of update.. oh well, tt's wat blogs are for rite, so tt was quite redundant.. heck tt.. so, been performing e dreaded 2ntm duties for e past week, ain't exactly wat i call enjoyable as compared to e previous few done.. have to thanked e impending msd check for tt.. sheesh.. well at least it's over, so can finally heave a sigh of relieve..

n i've found another interest to pursue.. oh well, act it's juz a rekindle of passion i guess.. immersed in worlds of fantasy, of myths n legends, of heros n maidens, of demons n dragons n so on n so forth.. addiction would be pretty close to e state i'm in now.. n it's really kinda funny to know tt ppl who were close to me are act doing e same thing rite now, or recently.. maybe i'm juz thinking too much..

btw i'll be leaving for taiwan soon.. 29 of may in fact.. finally get to travel once more, n it's e best of e saf trips.. hope to be able to make the trip a real fruitful one..

n to all my frens out there, i'll be missing u..

PrOgReSs...

Hehe first time using blogspot to update my entries, so guess i'm still a rookie in here.. Lots of function tt i'm unsure of, so it's gonna be as plain as.. well, a blank piece of paper, or a glass of water, which ever sounds more dull n uninteresting.. Well act, things ain't as boring as they seem act, depending on e feeling of e person looking at it.. Plain water may juz taste as great as a few hundred yr old wine, if e person drinking it thinks tt way.. Juz a penny for ur tots ya?

Well, guess i'm making some progress in my life.. Little, but no doubt progress.. Act finished certain things tt i set out to do, n more has been planned.. Juz kinda lacking in time now.. Now tt everything's back to normal in camp, n with e impending msd check, all is not well in camp.. Everything's law by law now, n any illegal stuffs are strictly prohibited .. Oh well, tt means alot of things can't be accomplished, such as watching my vcds n dvds in camp.. Sheesh..

Need time.. money.. organisation..

TwEnTy..

Yup, i'm no longer a teenager, as wat my age may reflect.. But looking at me, ppl may not think so.. Act even if ppl looked deeper, they'll still find an inner child lurking inside me, shielding me from certain harsh realities in this world.. hmm maybe tt sounds a bit too serious, but i guess everyone should be in touch with their inner child, juz like a gentle reminder tt all isn't lost when it may seem to be.. rather, hope is always ard, juz like wat is presented in a child's smile..

Well 2ntm's finally over for now.. E guys are also coming back from ROC soon, so i guess e sleygay days in camp are kinda over le.. Hmm at least we'll finally be able to book out on weekends n finally enjoy some fresh air outside camp.. Oh well, good things dun really last long ya? If they did, den no one will appreciate dem..

Haha was juz looking thru e past entries randomly, n it's really kinda astonishing as to how army can change one's life.. Oh maybe, how growing up can be so..different.. Guess changes are part n parcel of life.. It's almost like a necessity, a norm in which we dun even notice it till we look back n start comparing.. Tots, feelings, relationships, frens, environment.. Sometimes it's really kinda sad, n maybe juz a bit regretful.. Hmm maybe it's thru all these tt ppl start to mature n become more sensible..

Well, tt's abt my two pence worth.. For now..

Happy birthday..