BoRiNg...

This muz be the most boring blog ever.. And to think tt it's more than 2 yrs old.. Maybe they should terminate those blogs which dun get enuff hits.. Hehe juz kidding..

Haha guess i'm juz not tt interesting a person, or tt i'm juz plain lazy.. Den why try so hard to maintain, some may ask.. Well dun everyone like to look back in life and smile upon the exp? Well i know i do..

Anyway met up with quite a few jc faces during the last few days, really makes me think back of the good old schooling days.. It's really a pity tt we all have to grow up and move on.. Eventually there'll be lesser n lesser gathering times, more n more awkward silences, den poof, u dun get to see them anymore.. Sigh.. Depressing eh? Though the size of our island country does make it possible for u to bump into long lost frens along the roads, which will result in another awkward conversation n so..

Guess i'll start setting a date to refurbish e blog, so at least i'll come more often.. Will need a more permanent com though..

Oh the drive, the drive!!

Anyway been wanting to write a bio of sorts, but guess tt'll have to wait.. Again.. Hehe i'm quite a procrastinator eh?

BeLoVeD..

Oh well, life's like tt eh?

Another round of depression sets in rite before the weekend.. another mishap to my beloved.. Keep having doubts as to whether i should share when there's this nagging feeling tt ppl are taking advantage of my generosity.. Guess i do tt too sometimes, but i dun cut off a piece of flesh or anything like tt rite?

Sigh.. Why? Why muz this be happening to me? I mean, i dun really feel tt i've been a bad person, maybe juz a bit of naughty things now n den, but do i deserve this? Seriously, being good doesn't leave u with anything.. Ppl may take u for granted, or take advantage of u, but u can't do anything abt it, coz u're born tt way..

I guess there's really nth else to do but juz try to be optimistic, or stay ard the right company..

UpDaTeS..

Well, it's really kinda weird to be using dad's laptop to update here, coz it's interface is totally in traditional chinese n so alot of functions within the blog can't be understood.. Anyway juz here for a bit of update..

Had a week long break from camp juz recently, so went KL with the guys from camp.. Guess the only thing worth mentioning during the trip was the exp at KL Zouk, which was refreshing nonetheless.. Maybe more planning should be put in during the next overseas trip i guess.. Anyway had food poisoning from the last meal there, which wasn't very pleasant to say the very least..

UC was rite after that.. One week of hand-to-hand combat and break falls. and more to come during the coming week.. One wonders if we'll really be able to apply the techniques taught in real life, as in being able to pull it off against real-life opponents.. In any case, it'll be fun juz playing a fool with the guys ard i guess..

Was act thinking of writing a bio of sorts in here, but once u come down to it, u get kinda lazy.. Hmm.. I guess tt'll juz have to wait.. Hehe..

OpTiOnS..

Oh well, it's been nearly a mth.. As always i guess.. As in coming on here, ya? Kinda like an own personnal space for me to type down stuff and maybe do a little bit of reflection i guess.. hopefully.. Think i act mentioned it b4, but who really cares abt previous entries except for days when there's really nothing to do, which doesn't come much often nowadays..

Had quite a hectic mth i guess.. End to end weekends burnt, first from live-firing, den 2ntm den duties to serve.. Well at least it's all over now, and a week's break is wat all are looking forward to at the end of the mth.. A really well deserved break i muz say, and also one required for us to carry on with the next phase, and most prob the last phase of our ns lives.. hopefully anyway..

Anyway recently purchased a few dvds from across the borders, resulting in movie marathons back to back.. Finished up with a few shows tt i kinda missed during its airing times, n kinda satisfied with the progress.. Done with "Hikaru no Go" as well, which is a fantastic anime, save maybe for the ending.. Hoping for it's sequel soon i guess.. Think the only thing left untouched on the list would be games, which's quite a prob from the situation i'm in now.. oh well, things dun usually go the way u plan, but there's bound to be a way out of it..

Boredom's setting in.. And time spent staring into empty spaces is becoming longer and longer with each second.. hmmm guess i'tll have to end here.. another short update again..

really wish life will start changing for the better.. wonder if tt's really up to oneself..

tOtS..

it's prob time..

maybe.. juz maybe..

twenty.. such a magical number..

age isn't really a big thing since u are wat u think u are.. but den again..

we're living in a world tt's pretty much unforgiving..

if u're slow, u're gone..
if u're unreceptive to new ideas, u're gone..
if u dun constantly upgrade urself, u're gone too..
the list goes on and on..

those tt adapt well gets to the top; those who dun, well u see them ard in various degrees act..

so wat can we do? it ain't as easy as slaying monsters in RPGs, or shooting down bots in FPSs..

the world is out there, it's juz up to ppl, whether they wanna take the well-trodden route, or paved their own way out..

it's prob time..

maybe.. juz maybe..

ReBiRth..

Well, in a few ways, yes.. But u can prob view it as a new beginning as well, since a new lease of life was given, of sorts.. Haha..

Been starting to relive the good old days of magic back in camp, and it's quite amusing to see so many players of the same era, starting and stopping the game at ard the same time period, and den suddenly picking it up again.. It's act kinda like u rewatching all the cartoons that u used to watch when u were young, or rummaging through the toys that u once played.. Well, we don't live forever, and memories die hard ya? Esp the good old childhood days when there ain't any of the worries that adults face..

Finally got my PSP, after so many months of pondering and waiting and saving.. So many functions, so many games, but juz so little time, space and money.. It's really kinda amazing that wat our technology can produce nowadays, with all the smart phones, PDAs and other small small gadgets that pack quite a punch.. Really hard to imagine ten years back, when handphones were the size of bricks, and handheld gaming platforms were restricted to Tetris games..

Watched 2 movies for the past 2 weeks, and they ain't ur normal kind of entertainment movies.. One was on 3 kinds of love on 3 diff stages of life, the other, well the old old story abt the battle between good and evil.. Not exactly wat i had in mind to watch when i went to the theatres, but den again, it's a welcomed break from all the blood and gore, or the hugs and kisses, or the guns and swords.. Well u get the picture..

A simple quote from the last movie..

"It's easy to banish the light from within, but it's difficult to destroy the darkness surrounding.."

oNe MoNtH..

Hehe nth much to put in here.. Really.. But ain't gonna juz end e entry this way, haha so gonna be crapping a bit..

Anyway juz a bit of update.. Juz booked out not long ago, at ard 11.. Guess this's e first time tt e coy booked out so late, not forgetting the fact tt there weren't any fresh air for the past week.. Y? u might wonder.. Well, i'm act wondering abt tt as well.. Guess it's juz e way some ppl work.. Or maybe as ppl sometimes put it, "some black sheeps in the crowd".. Oh well..

Well, if it's gonna be like this, and u ain't gonna have any power to change it, y not juz live with it? No point getting frustrated over it when in the end, u can juz look back and laugh at it? Haha.. Hopefully tt is..

Com's down btw.. The usual one i mean.. Now using dad's all chinese com, which i'm surprise tt i'm act using quite well.. Den again, guess it's high time to invest in a new com hehe..

Hmm.. No pt in trying to puke when u haven't eaten anything, so guess i'll prob juz end off here.. Unless there're ppl out there who's so keen on knowing my daily routine and all tt, well in tt case.. Hehe i've only 3 words..

Juz too bad.. Haha.. Catch me another time, and u'll prob be lucky haha..

BaCk FoR mOrE???

Oh well, i know it's really a long long break this time, but u know, as they always say, good things are worth the wait.. haha.. guess u can consider the absence a dry spell of sort, but now.. we're ready to rumble!! Sort of .. Hehe..

Ok there hasn't really been anything much happenings during these few mths, prob juz some air flights here and there, in and out of the country worth mentioning hehe.. Maybe tat's where i'll touch on.. first trip was to taiwan, and i guess there's really nothing to complain abt the place at all.. Good food, great shopping paradises, easy communication and accessibility to places.. Taiwan has almost everything that i hold precious in life, namely comics, food and games.. Was act thinking of emigrating there, but then again there's this nagging height issue, the only "low point" for me i think.. Why are all the taiwanese girls so tall?!? Not that it really matters to the sight but den, yup, eh.. All those in my state should know wat i'm talking abt.. Hopefully..

Next trip was down under to Indonesia.. Though there was a 3 week buffer in b/w, but considering the flurry of activities during those weeks, think u can say that i went on back to back trips.. Not that i'm complaining, no.. Who will if he's asked to slack? Haha.. Well Indonesia's not as bad as a certain someone was describing prior to the trip.. Their currency may not have much power as compared to us, but their way and style of living ain't inferior to us.. Where we lived, there was a an air of innocence felt throughout the place.. Ppl were friendly and hospitable, and were genuinely sincere in wanting to make friends with us.. There isn't much tussle or power struggle as u can see back here, or maybe we were juz too sheltered during the trip, but nevertheless we saw true, unbreakable bonds b/w the soldiers there, forged during the years of real fighting side by side with each other.. That'll be sth that we can never, and will never hope to emulate..

Anyway squeezing 2 mths of events into one entry is juz like having a summary for a 400 page novel.. Will prob add in the itty gritty details during the next few entries.. That is, if my memory still serves me well.. Hehe..

bUsY bUsY..

Hehe my long awaited entry.. Sorry, but been really busy these few weeks, so really can't find time for anything else other than work.. n i mean work in camp.. haven't had much time with outside life, n haven't been meeting up with frens outside to.. sorry sorry, betcha u all miss me rite? haha..

anyway juz a bit of update.. oh well, tt's wat blogs are for rite, so tt was quite redundant.. heck tt.. so, been performing e dreaded 2ntm duties for e past week, ain't exactly wat i call enjoyable as compared to e previous few done.. have to thanked e impending msd check for tt.. sheesh.. well at least it's over, so can finally heave a sigh of relieve..

n i've found another interest to pursue.. oh well, act it's juz a rekindle of passion i guess.. immersed in worlds of fantasy, of myths n legends, of heros n maidens, of demons n dragons n so on n so forth.. addiction would be pretty close to e state i'm in now.. n it's really kinda funny to know tt ppl who were close to me are act doing e same thing rite now, or recently.. maybe i'm juz thinking too much..

btw i'll be leaving for taiwan soon.. 29 of may in fact.. finally get to travel once more, n it's e best of e saf trips.. hope to be able to make the trip a real fruitful one..

n to all my frens out there, i'll be missing u..

PrOgReSs...

Hehe first time using blogspot to update my entries, so guess i'm still a rookie in here.. Lots of function tt i'm unsure of, so it's gonna be as plain as.. well, a blank piece of paper, or a glass of water, which ever sounds more dull n uninteresting.. Well act, things ain't as boring as they seem act, depending on e feeling of e person looking at it.. Plain water may juz taste as great as a few hundred yr old wine, if e person drinking it thinks tt way.. Juz a penny for ur tots ya?

Well, guess i'm making some progress in my life.. Little, but no doubt progress.. Act finished certain things tt i set out to do, n more has been planned.. Juz kinda lacking in time now.. Now tt everything's back to normal in camp, n with e impending msd check, all is not well in camp.. Everything's law by law now, n any illegal stuffs are strictly prohibited .. Oh well, tt means alot of things can't be accomplished, such as watching my vcds n dvds in camp.. Sheesh..

Need time.. money.. organisation..

TwEnTy..

Yup, i'm no longer a teenager, as wat my age may reflect.. But looking at me, ppl may not think so.. Act even if ppl looked deeper, they'll still find an inner child lurking inside me, shielding me from certain harsh realities in this world.. hmm maybe tt sounds a bit too serious, but i guess everyone should be in touch with their inner child, juz like a gentle reminder tt all isn't lost when it may seem to be.. rather, hope is always ard, juz like wat is presented in a child's smile..

Well 2ntm's finally over for now.. E guys are also coming back from ROC soon, so i guess e sleygay days in camp are kinda over le.. Hmm at least we'll finally be able to book out on weekends n finally enjoy some fresh air outside camp.. Oh well, good things dun really last long ya? If they did, den no one will appreciate dem..

Haha was juz looking thru e past entries randomly, n it's really kinda astonishing as to how army can change one's life.. Oh maybe, how growing up can be so..different.. Guess changes are part n parcel of life.. It's almost like a necessity, a norm in which we dun even notice it till we look back n start comparing.. Tots, feelings, relationships, frens, environment.. Sometimes it's really kinda sad, n maybe juz a bit regretful.. Hmm maybe it's thru all these tt ppl start to mature n become more sensible..

Well, tt's abt my two pence worth.. For now..

Happy birthday..

I'm BaCk..

Haha kinda took a long break eh? But dun think there's anyone who's really gonna miss this since it's sort of like an update thingy only, not sth tt u can read again n again ya? But kinda surprised by e sudden change in layout, which does makes it look kinda cool n funkier dan before..

Hmmm guess i won't be updating as often as i used to, prob juz add things when i really wan to.. Sort of like an avenue for me to release my tots.. Den again, some tots should nvr be seen by others too, so.. Hehe..

Anyway, for those who really missed me, haha juz a bit on wat i've been doing these few mths.. Basically it's been 2ntm all e way.. 2ntm stands for 2 hrs notice to move, it's a kind of standby only for certain units, confined in camp from tue to e following tue, juz getting ready to be activated in times of danger to e country.. Tt's why i've been quite lazy to update here.. it's a boring affair, n times outside camp's more precious den ever.. well as some of my frens should know, i've already missed quite a few major hols, including new year n valentine's day.. sigh..

well next week's prob gonna be e last 2ntm for quite some time, so hopefully i'll have more interesting things to write here.. if not, hmm, juz suck thumb ya?

nEw YeAr...

i guess tt's it... it's a whole new yr...

ain't feeling it's significance this yr, guess it's partly due to army.. or e lack of attitude.. haiz.. i'm spouting rubbish... kinda missing some guys whom i haven't seen for quite some time.. it's hard to organise outings nowadays too, guess tt's y it's so..

argh..

gonna be stuck in camp for e whole next week.. guess tt sums up e frustration of these few weeks? oh man..

isn't there somebody out ther who'll come n save me???

not if i'm gonna remain so.. plastic..

oh well.. truth hurts, life sucks.. there, u have it...

MeRrY xMaS...?

hmm.. merry x'mas to all i guess? oh well.. didn't really had a good day juz now till ard e afternoon.. maybe it's e place, maybe it's miscommunication, or maybe it's juz me.. haha i guess it's most prob a combination of 3.. oh well, let e past settle, tmr's another brand new day..

been quite lazy to type these 2 weeks, haha have to admit tt.. hols season wat, plus all e slp in camp.. oh well, i'm like wasting my life away..

time passes by.. ppl grow up.. ppl come n go.. new frens made with every change of phase in life.. tt's life for u.. sometimes everything juz seems to happen so fast tt u suddenly realise, hey, it's been a long time since i've last talked to so n so, let alone see him..

ppl do move on u know.. we life in e present, n look forward to e future.. e past is but a memory..

anyway kungfu hustle's a pretty good show.. ih well, tt's like so out of point..

wish i've a better life management system.. well, for now, guess i'll be as shallow as e society is today?

oLd TiMeS

hehe feeling of deja vu.. rushing home for dinner, den spending ten min on e com to type this out.. juz like old days.. old army days tt is..

finally finished my clean fatigue jumps.. e most comical jump this time though, e whole canopy covering me after landing.. hehe talking abt stealth..

anyway ops life's really slack.. for now.. everything's quite grey now with e splitting of company, we're act kinda like lost childs, neither here nor there.. not tt i'm complaining, but prob a bit more entertainment in e bunk ya? haha..

had platoon dinner at marina bay.. felt lonely for tt slight moment when e gals came along.. haha it's like e transaction from sec to jc, where u suddenly juz can't seem to adjust to girls' company.. oh dear..

and can't believe we act did sth healthy for once, watching a midnight movie instead of clubbing.. haha saving up some money at least.. yeah..

bReAk..

was wondering, who act visits this journal.. haha.. think he or she visits it more den me haha..

anyway, it's been a long week, juz like all others.. travelling ard sg most of e time, meeting frenz, going back n forth camp.. sigh now down with cough n flu.. n a slimmer wallet.. wat a price to pay..

watched a few movies this week act, at home tt is..e hannibal trilogy's really great, though now i'm only halway thru hannibal, juz got it.. watched sch for seduction too, though i muz say it's really a show for gals, not for a bunch of ns kids like us.. oh well..

i guess certains events in e week really makes ur day, or week for tt matter, n mambo nite wud be one of those.. so happens to be e last day of exams of nus, so saw quite a few female frenz there, n thruout e day too.. didn't get as high as e other time, n even if i did, e place was too crowded to even move ard, let alone dance properly.. hehe got lucky act, but fren was involved in an ugly incident, so decided not to pursue.. besides, i'm quite shallow when it comes to clubbing i guess.. gatsby girl was there too!!! haha, but e same fren mention's chasing her i guess.. sigh.. better luck next time..

had this cdo anniversary dinner on fri, which was kinda like e last time my platoon's gonna be together, formally anyway.. our "lao da" sang on stage for e cdo idol event, n boy was he good..e judges really had no sense of hearing man, but tt's fine, it's his efforts tt were e toast of e nite.. emotions ran quite high tt nite act, n i muz apologise for e lack of planning on my part..i'll make up to u guys some other time ya? anyway won quite a bit of money thru e mahjong session, which is a first haha..

sentosa's next on e itinery, n i've to agree it was a mistake not to slp e nite b4.. was quite muddle-headed thruout e whole day to properly enjoy myself, n to think tt gatsby girl's there too.. oh well, so's my fren.. had dinner with zj,ly n candice after tt, really stuffed myself man.. a welcoming change though, as i was telling my fren, 1yr of gal free life.. haha..

"though our platoon's gonna be splitting, we're still e best.."

always..

rEsOlUtIoNs..

guess it ain't exactly wat u call an exciting week in camp.. doing all e shit jobs while other platoons are "busy" preparing for 2ntm.. sheesh.. making n breaking beds, carrying cupboards up n down, marshalling for parades.. n ppl still think we're slack..

nobody likes us, everybody hates us, i'm gonna eat some worms.. hehe a song heard from someone..

got hooked on to nfs underground after e gang came oveer to play.. man i'm really missing out on lots of gaming time.. went out in e evening for e "fhm girl next door com", n mine did things get hot in there.. woah.. but one kinda wonders why do some girls act get thru e preliminary rounds, when it's so easy to pick a much more prettier gal from e streets? maybe it's e willingness to flaunt.. haha.. someone should bring dem down to earth man.. haha still can't get e image of "Gatsby Girl" out of my mind.. hmmm..

celebrated brendan's bdae today, which was kinda like nic's bdae celebration act.. e usual gang were not all present, but e not so usual gang were persuaded to come along this time round.. haha.. maybe it's really high time to get everybody out for a little get-together.. times are tough, n a little bit of friendship won't hurt at all..

anyway e yr's gonna end soon.. lots of ups n downs as usual, but one thing's for sure, tt we're all gonna grow older by one yr.. sigh.. guess a bit of planning's required for e road ahead.. a little organisation won't hurt, judging by e way my life is lived now hehe.. more of tt later i guess..

BrEaK..

It's over.. It's all over.. Sheesh..

My one week long break.. there, gone with e wind.. sigh..

Haha maybe i should juz be glad tt i act have this break rite? Zhi1 zu2 chang2 le4.. e thing is, u can nvr have enuff of slacking.. haha..

Anyway didn't really slack this week away la.. let's see.. finished 2 gundam model kit, which i muz say i'm really proud of.. played a bit of ps2 as well with some of my platoon mates who came over to camp for a while.. watched a real hilarious korean romantic comedy called "Everybody has secrets.." i won't spoil e story here, or should i say, i'm too lazy to type out a synopsis.. haha.. anyway it's quite i nice show, considering e fact tt i didn't really wan to watch it in e first place..

hmm.. went clubbing on wed with e bunch of ppl who came over to my place.. was suppose to be mambo nite out at zouk, n e crowd there was unbelieveable.. think saf was out to overrun e objective there n then.. anyway it became too crowded so we went over to a tiny little club called rush.. didn't take long to get in, n there was no question as to why act after we went in.. had to make do though.. haha dun really feel like talking abt it now..

fri's clubbing, now tt's sth to talk abt.. a fren's party at rouge, turned out to be quite a gay nite as e ndu ppl didn't really attract e hoards of girls as expected.. anyway those tt came were attached n all so ya.. e music was good though, so started drinking quite a bit to get high.. mission accomplished, n e end result was a 2 hr non-stop stint on e dance floor hehe.. had a bit of a hangover e next morning, but think it was really worth e fun n excitement exp tt nite.. oh boy..

farewell dinner yesterday to a budding pilot, coupled with a mahjong session.. den it was a soccer session with e usual gang, n dinner at newton circus.. may sound simple, but e companionship exp's priceless.. haha think i'm beginning to sound high.. c'mon, i'm cramping a week's activities into one entry, give me a break man..

oh ya, finally got to finished all 7 young n dangerous movies.. tt's really sth man.. no kidding.. e kind of movie for hot-blooded teenages like me.. haha..

72 kM..

back home.. safe n sound..

finally, e last obstacle has been cleared.. after 9 mths of training.. e long awaited beret's finally firmly in grasp..

hehe..

welcome to e ops world, soldier!

e final test, one tt not only tests e body but also e mind n spirit.. one tt requires an individual's full concentration, to draw upon his inner strength, determination n all to overcome.. a route march tt stretches from camp till east coast road.. a journey tt takes 22 hrs.. a once in a lifetime exp tt, i'm sure, no one will ever forget, judging by e tears tt were welling up when we finally reached back camp..

abrasions, blisters everywhere.. soreness, numbness, n fatigue sets in rapidly.. it is quite a wonder tt we're able to get up after every rest pt coz it's like repeating e toture all over again.. but we made it, all 124 of us..

n now, all of us can stand proud at e parade square, as everybody, frens n loved ones, witness our donning of e coveted red beret..

from boys to men..

wat a journey.. =)

PoSt - BrUnEi...

in case u guys didn't know, i'm back from brunei!!!

as if tt isn't obvious enuff.. haha..

touched down this morning at ard 8am, hovered ard e duty-free shops for a while coz dad mistook e timing of e flight to be in e evening.. got some vodka n wine to share with frens n family alike, burnt quite a hole in my pocket act, but well, wat's money for exept to spend? haha maybe tt's not quite true, there's two other purposes to money, precautionary n speculative.. haha e A for econs was not for nth ya?

anyway e trip wasn't as bad as expected, well at least not so compared to previous coy outings.. e weather wasn't tt bad to us, though it did threatened to rain heavily at certain periods of time.. it did rain of course, but tt was when we were in e "comfort" of our base camp at lakiun, which is at some obsure island in brunei.. we didn't had swamp topoing too, which was, i guess, e main course of foot rots for e previous coys.. hehe a foot rot free brunei for us, true, but not a scar free one.. insects were rampant, even in camp, esp cicadas which go mad at light.. they're kinda like e dive-bombers of e insect world, as can be seen when one flew straight into my fren's head with a resounding clash.. tt was quite a sight i imagine.. sandflies were a big problem too, crowding out e torch beams once they're used.. accidentally walked into a sea of them n almost got choked by them when some went up my nostrils.. scary haha..

anyway brunei was mostly abt knolls, trees, vines, insects, streams n e occasional river.. sunrise n sunsets were ard an hr earlier den back home here, n when it gets dark, it gets really dark, prob due to e canopy hanging overhead n e clouds masking out e light from e moon n stars.. exercise had to be ceased b4 nightfall as a result, n we got lots of rest from tt, which was pretty essential coz of all e climbing, bashing n navigation of e difficult terrain in e jungles.. unlike in tekong, one can really get lost here in brunei, coz everywhere looks e same, even after walking thru it.. remember a particular event when we spent ard n hr walking round n round e same area looking for e area where we left our field packs after completing a mission, in e end had to bash in e general direction b4 we finally found them.. got to scale another mountain also.. biang was abt e same as belumut in my opinion, only tt more load had to be carried up biang.. n e descent was harder than imagined.. come to think of it, e only problem we had in brunei was water problem.. 3.5l wasn't enuff for us hungry hippos, n e fact tt we were always on high ground n t it didn't rain it outfield worsened e problem.. had to break open an iv pack n water our mouths with e hartman solution in it at one pt of time.. oh well.. at least we all made it back safe n sound.. with no bones broken or anything.. enjoyed a nite of fun n excitement at e theme park on e last day, which was definitely worth e suffering we went thru, though not quite adequete enuff, methinks.. haha maybe i expect too much..

lessons.. learnt thruout e trip, but how many are act remembered having went thru them.. it's human nature to appreciate things only when they need it but dun have it.. how many of us will act learn to appreciate e things ard us now? not many i guess.. life's a fragile thing though.. a fren almost tumbled into a 3m deep hole filled with water, saved only by e vines supporting him at e edge of e rock.. sheesh..

there's only a thin line b/w life n death, so do be appreciative with e things ard ya? haha..