EnDiNg..

Finally.. It's gonna come to an end soon..

Though seriously speaking, it ain't really wat i've expected b4 coming in.. But it stll has an impact though..Esp during ex all-out..e amt of fatigue felt was indescribable.. haha nah, it wasn't tt bad, but everything was really exciting, to fight missions and all, raiding of objectives n ambushing vehicles on e way.. n did i mention it was field-packs on almost all e way? hehe we even had some uninvited guests.. a whole family of wild boars came to, eh, dig out our combat rations tt we buried.. haha..

tower rappeling e next week was pretty fun too..with e highlight being one of e instructors doing an inverted rappel, aka mission impossible style.. totally cool..

survival village was also filled with excitement n, well, blood n gore.. let's see.. 12 frogs, 4 eels, 2 iguanas were skinned n cooked right b4 e whole company.. some were even done on our own.. right from e killing to e cooking part.. n an innocent mouse was killed in e making too.. but tt's another story altogether hehe..

"e one being killed muz not suffer.."

n i guess e only thing left's e 35km route march.. our final test, n prob our final journey together with some of our platoon mates..

i guess it's bye.. for now..

InNeR sEnSeS..

Emotions.. Thoughts.. Feelings.. Sentiments..

Full of dem? Or fading away?

Things tt happen.. events tt occur.. situations tt follow.. headaches all ard.. worries galore.. hell of a time.. or maybe it ain't tt serious, but u get e point..

Not at small scale.. no, it doesn't happen to me..

Apathy? Maybe.. Or it's juz sticking to beliefs.. Why worry so much? Smile, laugh n enjoy life..

Or so i tot..

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Right n wrong.. Who can act judge? is there even a right n wrong? Maybe there is, but it varies from e perspectives of every individual n e situation..

Mine's clouded though.. Justified to judge? I guess not..

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Reasons? Or excuses? I guess it's up to all to intepret..

It's ok if nobody understands.. Or tt everyone misinteprets.. Ain't gonna be correcting dem.. Ain't e omnipotent being who's gonna be brainwashing e rest..

Think wat u think, believe wat u believe, do wat u do..

It's ur life.. Dun try to live others..

CoMe ClEaN..

"Come Clean"

Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned

'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no life
I defy

[Chorus:]
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin

'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind

[Chorus]

I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming...

[Chorus x2]

Let's go back
Back to the beginning

我的心太乱..

ain't such a great day.. so much to shop, so little time.. no one to accompany too, or maybe is tt i chose not to have..

history has a funny way of repeating.. but e feeling.. sux no less..

wat does my destiny beckon?

no one understands.. not even myself..

~!@#$%^&*()_|~!@#$%^&*()_~!@#$%^&*()_+

<<我的心太乱>>

夜里难以入睡 用什么可以麻醉 情绪太多怎堪面对
不是不要你陪 有些事你无法体会 卸下了防备 孤独跟随

我想要一个 自己的空间 能够好好想想我们之间的明天
如果爱情不如我们想象的甜美 那么所有的罪让我来背

我的心太乱 要一些空白 你若是明白 让我暂时的离开
我的心太乱 不敢再贪更多爱 想哭的我
却怎么哭也哭不出来
我的心太乱 要一些空白 老天在不在 忘了为我来安排
我的心太乱 害怕爱情的背叛 想哭的我
像是一个迷路小孩
迷路的小孩

ExTrA...

Hehe doing guard duty now.. weekend gonna be burnt le.. sian.. at least there're 7 other unfortunate souls like me here.. let's see.. ard 14 more hrs til bookout? tt's like 6 more duties for me.. sigh..

msd came into camp last nite, or so i heard.. couldn't bathe as a result coz came back late from training at emph.. sheesh.. all e sweat.. on my pants i mean..

nvm getting a bit boring here.. think e weather's getting to me le.. all hot n bothered here.. somemore got to stay in smart 4 for e whole day.. hopefully there's no turnout tonight.. but highly doubt so..

anyway i finally passed 5k soc le.. not a great timing, but a pass is still a pass rite? combat swim was a pretty enjpyable affair too.. shagged but fun la.. at least i'm beginning to swim better than some other ppl in e platoon le.. haha.. to think tt i'm still wearing e "red beret"..

nothing much to mention le.. really, think army's beginning to make me a boring person..or maybe it's juz e lack of hair.. or sleep.. or time out in e civilian world..

sigh.. life's boring..

"Try" ---Nelly Furtado

LoSt..

Anything but this... Again..

Why do I always end up on e same road.. Sheesh..

I'm... Juz human...

<<我不够爱你>>

我想我不够爱你 我不曾忘了自己
没那么全心投入 所以会一败涂地

我想我不够爱你 我忘了你的用情
没办法重来一次 也只好听天由命

不能在没有月亮的夜里
也不能轻易地闭上眼睛
因为你会出现 在天空或心里

不能在一望无尽的地方
也不能钻进那拥挤人群
因为寂不寂寞 都会惊醒我
我失去了我不够爱的你