MeRrY xMaS...?

hmm.. merry x'mas to all i guess? oh well.. didn't really had a good day juz now till ard e afternoon.. maybe it's e place, maybe it's miscommunication, or maybe it's juz me.. haha i guess it's most prob a combination of 3.. oh well, let e past settle, tmr's another brand new day..

been quite lazy to type these 2 weeks, haha have to admit tt.. hols season wat, plus all e slp in camp.. oh well, i'm like wasting my life away..

time passes by.. ppl grow up.. ppl come n go.. new frens made with every change of phase in life.. tt's life for u.. sometimes everything juz seems to happen so fast tt u suddenly realise, hey, it's been a long time since i've last talked to so n so, let alone see him..

ppl do move on u know.. we life in e present, n look forward to e future.. e past is but a memory..

anyway kungfu hustle's a pretty good show.. ih well, tt's like so out of point..

wish i've a better life management system.. well, for now, guess i'll be as shallow as e society is today?

oLd TiMeS

hehe feeling of deja vu.. rushing home for dinner, den spending ten min on e com to type this out.. juz like old days.. old army days tt is..

finally finished my clean fatigue jumps.. e most comical jump this time though, e whole canopy covering me after landing.. hehe talking abt stealth..

anyway ops life's really slack.. for now.. everything's quite grey now with e splitting of company, we're act kinda like lost childs, neither here nor there.. not tt i'm complaining, but prob a bit more entertainment in e bunk ya? haha..

had platoon dinner at marina bay.. felt lonely for tt slight moment when e gals came along.. haha it's like e transaction from sec to jc, where u suddenly juz can't seem to adjust to girls' company.. oh dear..

and can't believe we act did sth healthy for once, watching a midnight movie instead of clubbing.. haha saving up some money at least.. yeah..

bReAk..

was wondering, who act visits this journal.. haha.. think he or she visits it more den me haha..

anyway, it's been a long week, juz like all others.. travelling ard sg most of e time, meeting frenz, going back n forth camp.. sigh now down with cough n flu.. n a slimmer wallet.. wat a price to pay..

watched a few movies this week act, at home tt is..e hannibal trilogy's really great, though now i'm only halway thru hannibal, juz got it.. watched sch for seduction too, though i muz say it's really a show for gals, not for a bunch of ns kids like us.. oh well..

i guess certains events in e week really makes ur day, or week for tt matter, n mambo nite wud be one of those.. so happens to be e last day of exams of nus, so saw quite a few female frenz there, n thruout e day too.. didn't get as high as e other time, n even if i did, e place was too crowded to even move ard, let alone dance properly.. hehe got lucky act, but fren was involved in an ugly incident, so decided not to pursue.. besides, i'm quite shallow when it comes to clubbing i guess.. gatsby girl was there too!!! haha, but e same fren mention's chasing her i guess.. sigh.. better luck next time..

had this cdo anniversary dinner on fri, which was kinda like e last time my platoon's gonna be together, formally anyway.. our "lao da" sang on stage for e cdo idol event, n boy was he good..e judges really had no sense of hearing man, but tt's fine, it's his efforts tt were e toast of e nite.. emotions ran quite high tt nite act, n i muz apologise for e lack of planning on my part..i'll make up to u guys some other time ya? anyway won quite a bit of money thru e mahjong session, which is a first haha..

sentosa's next on e itinery, n i've to agree it was a mistake not to slp e nite b4.. was quite muddle-headed thruout e whole day to properly enjoy myself, n to think tt gatsby girl's there too.. oh well, so's my fren.. had dinner with zj,ly n candice after tt, really stuffed myself man.. a welcoming change though, as i was telling my fren, 1yr of gal free life.. haha..

"though our platoon's gonna be splitting, we're still e best.."

always..

rEsOlUtIoNs..

guess it ain't exactly wat u call an exciting week in camp.. doing all e shit jobs while other platoons are "busy" preparing for 2ntm.. sheesh.. making n breaking beds, carrying cupboards up n down, marshalling for parades.. n ppl still think we're slack..

nobody likes us, everybody hates us, i'm gonna eat some worms.. hehe a song heard from someone..

got hooked on to nfs underground after e gang came oveer to play.. man i'm really missing out on lots of gaming time.. went out in e evening for e "fhm girl next door com", n mine did things get hot in there.. woah.. but one kinda wonders why do some girls act get thru e preliminary rounds, when it's so easy to pick a much more prettier gal from e streets? maybe it's e willingness to flaunt.. haha.. someone should bring dem down to earth man.. haha still can't get e image of "Gatsby Girl" out of my mind.. hmmm..

celebrated brendan's bdae today, which was kinda like nic's bdae celebration act.. e usual gang were not all present, but e not so usual gang were persuaded to come along this time round.. haha.. maybe it's really high time to get everybody out for a little get-together.. times are tough, n a little bit of friendship won't hurt at all..

anyway e yr's gonna end soon.. lots of ups n downs as usual, but one thing's for sure, tt we're all gonna grow older by one yr.. sigh.. guess a bit of planning's required for e road ahead.. a little organisation won't hurt, judging by e way my life is lived now hehe.. more of tt later i guess..

BrEaK..

It's over.. It's all over.. Sheesh..

My one week long break.. there, gone with e wind.. sigh..

Haha maybe i should juz be glad tt i act have this break rite? Zhi1 zu2 chang2 le4.. e thing is, u can nvr have enuff of slacking.. haha..

Anyway didn't really slack this week away la.. let's see.. finished 2 gundam model kit, which i muz say i'm really proud of.. played a bit of ps2 as well with some of my platoon mates who came over to camp for a while.. watched a real hilarious korean romantic comedy called "Everybody has secrets.." i won't spoil e story here, or should i say, i'm too lazy to type out a synopsis.. haha.. anyway it's quite i nice show, considering e fact tt i didn't really wan to watch it in e first place..

hmm.. went clubbing on wed with e bunch of ppl who came over to my place.. was suppose to be mambo nite out at zouk, n e crowd there was unbelieveable.. think saf was out to overrun e objective there n then.. anyway it became too crowded so we went over to a tiny little club called rush.. didn't take long to get in, n there was no question as to why act after we went in.. had to make do though.. haha dun really feel like talking abt it now..

fri's clubbing, now tt's sth to talk abt.. a fren's party at rouge, turned out to be quite a gay nite as e ndu ppl didn't really attract e hoards of girls as expected.. anyway those tt came were attached n all so ya.. e music was good though, so started drinking quite a bit to get high.. mission accomplished, n e end result was a 2 hr non-stop stint on e dance floor hehe.. had a bit of a hangover e next morning, but think it was really worth e fun n excitement exp tt nite.. oh boy..

farewell dinner yesterday to a budding pilot, coupled with a mahjong session.. den it was a soccer session with e usual gang, n dinner at newton circus.. may sound simple, but e companionship exp's priceless.. haha think i'm beginning to sound high.. c'mon, i'm cramping a week's activities into one entry, give me a break man..

oh ya, finally got to finished all 7 young n dangerous movies.. tt's really sth man.. no kidding.. e kind of movie for hot-blooded teenages like me.. haha..

72 kM..

back home.. safe n sound..

finally, e last obstacle has been cleared.. after 9 mths of training.. e long awaited beret's finally firmly in grasp..

hehe..

welcome to e ops world, soldier!

e final test, one tt not only tests e body but also e mind n spirit.. one tt requires an individual's full concentration, to draw upon his inner strength, determination n all to overcome.. a route march tt stretches from camp till east coast road.. a journey tt takes 22 hrs.. a once in a lifetime exp tt, i'm sure, no one will ever forget, judging by e tears tt were welling up when we finally reached back camp..

abrasions, blisters everywhere.. soreness, numbness, n fatigue sets in rapidly.. it is quite a wonder tt we're able to get up after every rest pt coz it's like repeating e toture all over again.. but we made it, all 124 of us..

n now, all of us can stand proud at e parade square, as everybody, frens n loved ones, witness our donning of e coveted red beret..

from boys to men..

wat a journey.. =)

PoSt - BrUnEi...

in case u guys didn't know, i'm back from brunei!!!

as if tt isn't obvious enuff.. haha..

touched down this morning at ard 8am, hovered ard e duty-free shops for a while coz dad mistook e timing of e flight to be in e evening.. got some vodka n wine to share with frens n family alike, burnt quite a hole in my pocket act, but well, wat's money for exept to spend? haha maybe tt's not quite true, there's two other purposes to money, precautionary n speculative.. haha e A for econs was not for nth ya?

anyway e trip wasn't as bad as expected, well at least not so compared to previous coy outings.. e weather wasn't tt bad to us, though it did threatened to rain heavily at certain periods of time.. it did rain of course, but tt was when we were in e "comfort" of our base camp at lakiun, which is at some obsure island in brunei.. we didn't had swamp topoing too, which was, i guess, e main course of foot rots for e previous coys.. hehe a foot rot free brunei for us, true, but not a scar free one.. insects were rampant, even in camp, esp cicadas which go mad at light.. they're kinda like e dive-bombers of e insect world, as can be seen when one flew straight into my fren's head with a resounding clash.. tt was quite a sight i imagine.. sandflies were a big problem too, crowding out e torch beams once they're used.. accidentally walked into a sea of them n almost got choked by them when some went up my nostrils.. scary haha..

anyway brunei was mostly abt knolls, trees, vines, insects, streams n e occasional river.. sunrise n sunsets were ard an hr earlier den back home here, n when it gets dark, it gets really dark, prob due to e canopy hanging overhead n e clouds masking out e light from e moon n stars.. exercise had to be ceased b4 nightfall as a result, n we got lots of rest from tt, which was pretty essential coz of all e climbing, bashing n navigation of e difficult terrain in e jungles.. unlike in tekong, one can really get lost here in brunei, coz everywhere looks e same, even after walking thru it.. remember a particular event when we spent ard n hr walking round n round e same area looking for e area where we left our field packs after completing a mission, in e end had to bash in e general direction b4 we finally found them.. got to scale another mountain also.. biang was abt e same as belumut in my opinion, only tt more load had to be carried up biang.. n e descent was harder than imagined.. come to think of it, e only problem we had in brunei was water problem.. 3.5l wasn't enuff for us hungry hippos, n e fact tt we were always on high ground n t it didn't rain it outfield worsened e problem.. had to break open an iv pack n water our mouths with e hartman solution in it at one pt of time.. oh well.. at least we all made it back safe n sound.. with no bones broken or anything.. enjoyed a nite of fun n excitement at e theme park on e last day, which was definitely worth e suffering we went thru, though not quite adequete enuff, methinks.. haha maybe i expect too much..

lessons.. learnt thruout e trip, but how many are act remembered having went thru them.. it's human nature to appreciate things only when they need it but dun have it.. how many of us will act learn to appreciate e things ard us now? not many i guess.. life's a fragile thing though.. a fren almost tumbled into a 3m deep hole filled with water, saved only by e vines supporting him at e edge of e rock.. sheesh..

there's only a thin line b/w life n death, so do be appreciative with e things ard ya? haha..

PrE-bRuNeI

E night has come.. e time is high.. e flight shall not be missed.. n e jungles.. shall be awaiting.. haha..

welcome to brunei..

had 2 days of b4 e trip to stock up n to refresh our bodies all in prep, though in act fact tt shud have been more days off act.. oh well, looking forward to e end of e trip act, coz all e leave tt's been stalled will come to us at one shot, sort of like a sch hol haha.. though tt's like, a mth from now? haha..

talking abt sch, was walking down orchard this afternoon, n boy did e walk make me feel like a student again.. almost all e schs were well represented in an amazing display of uniforms along e shops at orchard.. haha act it's juz me who hasn't been out of army on a fri afternoon since enlisting.. oh man all e things i've been missing.. haha.. saw a few familiar faces too when i was at sakae, both juniors n fellow sch mates alike, though it was quite hard for dem to recognise me i guess.. haha..

well at least i'm leaving on a happy note, tt's all tt matters to me now.. juz wish ,yself all e best, juz like wat e auntie said at beach road.. n here's wishing all e best to e rest of my buddies who're either going to taiwan or australia.. enjoy urselves guys, i'll certainly try.. haha..

see u guys a mth later!!!

AiRbOuRnE..

an eventful week.. full of ups n downs.. haha n when i mean up, i mean really high up..

ex monsoon on e first few days of e week was act quite a joke, or tt we managed to make a joke out of it.. suppose to be a platoon mission raiding an enemy stronghold, ended up getting really lost during e mission as to wat to do, firing at each other on occasions, n all in all lacking in coordination.. though expending e rounds at e end was indeed cool, finally got to fire a machine gun, yeah!

n airbourne's really sth man.. jumping off at a thousand feet, feeling e slipstream draggin u along for e first threee seconds, den enjoying e breath-taking view from way up there.. hehe though e prep n post admin was tiring, having to walk ard 2km with e recovered parachute, but it was well worth it man.. somemore got paid to do it, wat more can u ask? though e novelty does wear off, but hey, how many ppl can say tt they've parachuted b4? or tt e first time they took a plane, they jumped out of it? haha i'm not joking btw haha..

and e dreaded day's coming closer n closer.. brunei in less den a week's time.. already spent over hundred bucks for e trip, n tt's not includin e comfort items yet.. sigh no wonder we got our pay in advance..my oh my.. wish me luck ya? whoever can hear it tt is.. haha..

"Vindicated" ---Dashboard Confessional

oUtFiEld..

ants.. mosquitoes.. dirt.. soil.. weeds.. leaves..

tons of dem..

welcome to outfield..

haha it's been a long break act, so alot of us are kinda frustrated by e three days of exercise last week.. count ourselves lucky tt there wasn't much topoing involved this time round, purely mission based.. now tt it's over, there's another two more days to look forward to next week as well.. sigh.. not forgetting to mention e brunei trip's only two more weeks from now.. hehe..

was suppose to run e ahm this morning act, but ended up doing guard duty instead coz of some mismanagement on e battalion side, tasking my whole platoon to be doing guard this weekend.. sheesh.. den wat for make us go thru all tt training man.. well at least having e whole guardroom to ourselves was quite an experience, of course tt's not taking into consideration e four turnouts tt we got.. haha..

latest news has it tt today's guards are suppose to book in today, den act as enemies for e ranger course.. kaoz we already had e whole day burnt, n we still have to go for more shit? whereas e rest who ran e marathon get to book in tmr morning? tt's alot of fairness man..

enough of tt.. elder bro's bdae today act, but his still not home yet.. come to think of it, i haven't been home on my bdae during e last two years as well act.. hehe..

"我们的爱" ---F.I.R.

bDaE..

Not mine.. of course.. everyone who knows me knows tt.. or should know tt.. i'm e tame ram named aries who's mild-mannered n is always happy.. well almost always.. haha..

anyway it's been a long time since so many of us gathered.. n wat a place it was too, with e lights by e banks of e river illuminating e serene night, ppl strolling down e streets, chilling out at e bars.. ate quite a sumptous meal at brewerks, had a cake tt's quite on par with death by choc, though not very sure wat u call e cake by.. had this grp of ppl celebrating another gal's bdae too, hehe.. their looks made it easy to deduce tt they were from acjc.. hehe one even looked like our former form teacher.. quite glad to have this outing act, haven't really caught up properly with some of e guys, though e only thing we talked abt was army stuff.. but tt's to be expected yeah?

probably blasted e ears of those who went to kbox after tt.. sorry out of touch for quite some time le.. haha.. will strive to improve ya? didn't really expect to reach home so late, other den nights of clubbing act..

tried using e vouchers my dear mum gave me at taka, ended up having to pay for my purchases cause kino's not part of e offer.. sigh..

ya i know i'm rambling rubbish, n it's boring.. but i'm bored now, can't u see? sheesh.. hope to get e MuVo slim soon though.. prob have to wait till my next pay..

"江南" --- 林俊杰..

藉口..

<<藉口>>

翻着我们的照片 想念若隐若现
去年的冬天 我们笑得很甜
看着你哭泣的脸 对着我说再见
来不及听见 你已走得很远
也许你已经放弃我 也许已经很难回头
我知道自己错过 请再给我一个理由
说你不爱我 就算是我不懂 能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口
请你回头 我会陪你一直走到最后
就算没有结果 我也能够随
我知道你的痛 是我给的承诺
你说给过我纵容 沉默是因为包容
如果要走 请你记得我 如果难过 请你忘了我

lAzY..

hehe basically lazed ard e whole day.. did nth spectacular at home, except finishing e get backers dvd which was purchased weeks ago.. wondering whether e lethargy's from e drink yesterday.. margarita if i'm not wrong.. haha..

had steamboat for dinner with e guys yesterday.. hehe quite a surprise act when i juz pushed a steamboat dinner away juz earlier on.. had a good talk as well act, to think e e usual outings were more of e fun n excitement kind.. seems like army's causing changes in lots of us, n some are beginning to feel despair in their army lives.. well maybe juz a bit.. can't do anything much abt it coz we're not in control.. sigh.. hey guys, look on e bright side.. it's only another yr plus or so till we get out of all this shit ya? haha..

"Life short.. So live it to e fullest.." Been a long time since i've heard this phrase.. saw it printed on a t-shirt not long ago, n it kinda gave me renewed strength.. maybe wat others said was right.. army kinda deteriotes one's mind, causing a bit of retardness in thinking.. feel as if there's much less to think abt n all to follow.. hehe so much for thinking soldier.. yux man..

survival will be crucial for e next week.. n it's gonna be another week nearer to brunei.. haha to think someone act volunteered to stay there.. told u army's causes retardness in e mind.. haha..

"止战之殇" ---周杰伦..

sNaKeS..

hmmm time really flies man.. it's time to book in soon, in juz another few hrs in fact.. sigh.. time outside nvr seem to last, n to think tt it's one week lesser till e dreaded brunei trip.. shivers down e spine.. haha..

watched anaconda yesterday.. hehe not bad for a b-grade show act, though quite cliched at times n e computer graphics ain't tt great, but tt's to be expected anyway.. n to think e climax of e show was e orgy scene of e anacondas.. haha.. get e pun.. wat happened next was even funnier.. been so long since i had a stomach-cramping laugh..

Me: How do snakes reproduce?

Glenn: Well, their skin splits apart n their reproduction organ comes out, sort of like a gland..

n e laughter didn't cease till e ground floor of lido.. well well.. don't get e joke? juz too bad..

realised tt orchard's quite dead on sun act.. to think tt today's act e start of e sch hols.. maybe everyone's getting in e mood to study? haha.. failed to taste any proper ice-cream, except for e one at hello!, which wasn't any good either act, after a second look today.. guess bugis's still one of e best places.. though far east's promising as well.. haha wat am i talking abt..

"She Will Be Loved" --- Maroon 5...

cHiNa BlAcK...

hehe super-duper long weekend this week.. booked out on fri n only booking in on mon nite.. haha.. a well-deserved break from the physically n mentally demanding airbourne course, not to mention oc's pt hehe..

china black was e first stop, n an obvious choice since so many opportunities were missed.. think of all e late bookouts n burnt weekends.. hehe.. really had fun tt nite, though felt like a little boy there with e crowd being in their mid-twenties n all.. rejected a few advances too hehe, not really sure wat to do after tt act, n i'm not all tt great a dancer anyway.. oh well.. downed half a jug later on, causing a hangover after tt.. haha e price of having fun..

was going to meet a pal which i haven't seen for quite some time, ended up seeing another whom i've known for a longer time.. quite a pleasant surprise act.. went back to k-lounge again, though this time round there's no good singer ard, n everyone else in e hse were like so powerful.. haha take it tt we went there for a drink lor..

kinda feeling tt things i've been doing are getting more n more materialistic.. or is tt suppose to be e lifestyle of grownups? to escape from e stressful day life.. seeing all e wild "kids" being unleashed in clubs makes me wonder wat they'll be doing in e day act.. or do they live juz to party thru e nite? hmmm..

anyway sorry to hear abt ur lost love.. i've been thru e pain b4, n it took quite some time to get over it.. well, at least u have a valid reason to get tt E600C ya? cheer up man..

"藉口" ---周杰伦...

MoViE tReAt..

Haha it's e time of e week again when everything u wish to know tt happened to me is typed down here.. eh, well, maybe not everything, n maybe u dun really wan to know wat i've went thru for e past week.. hmm den why e hell are u in this page..?

Airbourne course started this week.. n by day 2 everyone's getting sore necks, bruises n bumps everywhere.. no thanx to e heavy-duty helmet n dozens of break falls to be done everyday.. hehe kinda like judo lessons act, to say e very least.. lots of drills to be remembered n performed as well.. really can't wait for e jumps to come haha.. at least tt's e feeling now.. shan't think of wat happens when e canopy doesn't open.. together with e reserves.. haha tt won't happen..

watched 2 movies this week, hence e title.. though i can't really say they've been great blockbusters.. kinda lacking in action. plot ain't very thick as well.. but tt's to be expected of thrillers i guess.. all story, little intense action.. played a bit of soccer as well, n as usual, only had six players.. sigh.. as brendan said, we really should get another major gathering going..

"七里香" ---周杰伦...

GoOd N bAd..

Haha finally.. An eventful weekend!! Well not exactly, but at least it was something diff.. hmm in a way it's not too, but u get e pt later..

Was stuck in camp doing guard duty on fri while e whole battalion was enjoying e battalion outing + company outings after tt.. sigh.. wonder who's e one who picked e slot but failed to admit.. not tt i'm gonna hammer him or anything, but it kinda irks some of my nerves act.. haha.. had to don e red beret while on sentry, as well as stand in e rain for 2 hrs.. how down can u get man.. at least i finally realised sth.. e world's act very small to think abt it.. or at least singapore is.. haha..

tried getting e guys to watch moive n play soccer act, but ended up accomplishing none.. haha.. it's really tough to keep in contact these days with everybody having a large variety of commitments.. ended having dinner with chap, nic n a long-time-no-see weiqi.. still e same as always, juz lacking in e hair haha.. ate at spaggedies, which was pretty nice, but tt's to be expected with e heavy price tag.. give me food court anytime man.. walked ard a bit after tt, undecided on wat to do, den finally went down to k lounge at cine level 8.. hehe it's kinda like a palce where we can do all e things we usually do.. drink, watch soccer, play pool, sing ktv, smoke.. eh ok e latter's not in e things we usually do.. haha.. quite cheap too to think of it, juz a drink to get us in, though listening to others sing is quite a minus point sometimes..

watched avp this afternoon with hx n alex.. hehe didn't manage to get e rest, all bz.. sigh.. it ain't tt bad a movie wat, though it could have been much much betta.. did my shopping for daily stuffs, n now resting for a while, waiting to book in le..

there, my weekend, consolidated into one entry.. hehe..

"蓝天" ---黄义达...
(Finally starting to get back to e mandarin pop scene!!)

SiGhZ..

Haizz..it's juz like all other weekends.. nothing special.. nothing fun.. missed e movie as well due to e crowd, so ended up wandering ard in town.. well at least desserts at marche served to lift up some spirits.. felt lethargic today, so slept like mad as well.. sigh..

remembered e conversation at changi village juz after booked out.. kinda disturbed a little, juz like when e topic came up during boatman course.. well i guess it's natural to feel tt way, knowing tt u were juz this close to getting e boot, and also tt u've act made other think bad of u.. who wans to look bad anyway? but it's a good thing tt i've righted all tt.. or have i?

so i guess e initial impression may or may not be correct act.. it's thru events n getting together tt act determines wat u know n think of e person.. hmmm maybe tt didn't come out rite..but u get e point.. i hope.. haha..

NaTiOnAl DaY...

First of all, a happy national day to all ya? haha..

Ain't a very eventful day today.. came home really tired from nic's house, finished e 3 naruto comics, den fell asleep on e couch till ard 5pm.. wat a waste of a wonderful afternoon, though it's bound to happen on any visit to nic's.. watched e first dvd of get backers as well after tt, n would have continued if not for e need to book in later.. sigh..

hehe shall relate back to yesterday's events.. played soccer in e morning at e astro turf, which wasn't as exciting as a game on e bball courts.. met alot of e old boys though, some coming back for e bball tournament held at e courts, others coming back with e same purpose as us.. haha kinda funny to see all of dem act, it's like a "u know dem yet dunno dem" kinda feeling.. guess my PR ain't good enuff la..

was intending to get a new pair of sandals at queensway after tt, but ended up buying e get backers dvd.. sigh.. wat a spendthrift.. good news is tt i finally got my back pay for 3 mths, though i ended up spending dem in one afternoon.. haha.. as someone was telling me, u'll only be happy when u spend e money n not when u hoard it.. haha words of wisdom..

dinner was great at nic's, though it's kinda wasted on me coz food taste good as long as it's easy on e tastebuds on me.. haha so stop asking me if e food's good ya? watched e man u vs arsenal match, den played ps2 after tt.. man rtk has really evolved since my pri sch days.. can't even defend a city properly.. haha guess i'm not making sense to anyone other den myself..

oh ya, failed to mention all e eye candies at bugis.. was there to "pick up" chappy on e way, but eyes were straying most of e time.. wonder wat's e attraction there, dun even see many things of interest.. nvm..

gonna be a hectic week next if i remembered correctly.. sigh..

LoNg WeEkEnD...

As e title suggest, it's a long weekend for e battalion at changi.. not so sure abt e rest, guess it's roughly e same.. afterr all, we're all gonna celebrate e nation's birthday together yeah?

guess it juz gives me a legitimate reason e slack ard at home.. no money to go walking down orchard, or anywhere for tt matter, lest i fall prey to my shopping instincts again.. well, at least till payday, which is coming soon.. hehe, sandals are starting to talk big, n i can really do with new phone.. hmm, not to mention a few more comics, maybe another shirt, n, well, prob a few other things as well..

went marina bay for dinner with e cl guys juz a few hrs ago.. caught up on old times, updated each other on our current situations.. most are doing fine in their respective camps, making life sound heavenly anywhere other dan hendon.. got news of ntu from ding as well.. seems like there's a mini nj there, with alot of my batch ppl studying accountancy n business.. e gals joined e mighty aces as well, which ain't really a surprise la.. sounds fun at e campus in boon lay, sounds really fun.. prob have to built up on physique n flexibility though, heard tt they've employed hulks in e squad.. n e gals are muscular as well, unlike e feathers we have back in maelstrom.. haha..

oh ya, forgot to mention e menacing crab tt pinced my hand while i was tearing it into half.. well doesn't really matter now, e offending pincer got wat it deserved.. went down into my digestive system not long later.. haha..

finally, playing soccer again tmr!! can hardly wait!!!

NeW mTh..

Hey it's e first day of a new mth!!!

Haha as if it's really a big thing.. prob is to some ppl out there, maybe it's an anniversary of sorts, or a new beginning to others.. well it's juz marks another mth to me.. n did i mention i used to have this fren called august in pri sch? well lost contact with him le, but still, it's an unforgettable name..

watched daggers flying ard yesterday.. n arrows n bamboos as well.. it was almost like infernal affairs in ancient china haha.. nice cinematography n backgrounds.. accomplished actors n actresses, but i guess it didn't really save e show from being too dramatic.. oh well..

juz as predicted, i'm left with less den 50 till e next pay day.. sigh.. got to resist some of my daily urges i guess.. e red tea longans n prob some comics.. hmm..

OvEr..

It's over..

Back to camp.. back to reality.. back to where all e good n e bad have happened.. it's finally back to red gates of hell.. hmmm it's only ten days act..

haha vt's almost over.. save from e leaders who're still "having fun" in taiwan.. all e best to their training there, heard tt e weather's pretty unbearable hehe.. company line's e same as always, though one of e toilet's finally done n functioning properly, after months of waiting..

boatmen are finally apart, as everyone returned to their original bunks for e time being.. kinda strange to not be able to see e usual faces in e same bunk, but at e same time it's welcoming to see familiar faces of those who went for other courses.. well i guess time will make everybody get settled down.. it's juz a matter of how long..

getting back to reading mood again.. was re-reading Belgariad a few weeks ago, den got caught up with e fantasy fever.. currently reading Dragonlance, a series which is well-recommended n have pretty much hype on it.. costs a bomb though..

speaking of money.. only left with ard 100 to spend for e next few weeks.. well it'll soon be 50 after going out today i guess.. so many other things tt i wanna get too.. including a new pair of sandals, a new phone, n many other miscallenous stuff.. talking abt a materialistic lifestyle..

it's a few more hrs to e mth of august.. my oh my..

HoLiDaY...

It's juz like a holiday week.. Well, i guess going anywhere other den our dear hendon camp will be a holiday.. haha.. we're pathetic..

yup it's been one week at nee soon.. sad to say, course's gonna end in a few days' time.. much has been learnt though, of e charges n circuits n mines.. schedule has been hectic, but tt's course of e limited time we have to work in.. live firing yesterday kinda summed up e week's lessons in one day, as all e improvised charges n circuits were tested out.. hehe got to fire off an improvised bangalore torpedo too.. devastating..

another few days, n it'll be back to camp for us.. juz hope dey call off e recall thingy, so tt we can act enjoy life a bit more..

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anyway today's off in lieu for e burnt sun, but everyone else's back in camp le.. hehe so went out with two other army frens to ice skate.. hmm to think e last time i went there was.. ar forgettable, yet unforgettable at e same time.. got betta at it though, e lack of ppl makes it easier to practice.. hehe though i did have close contact with e icy floor a few times..

slept most part of e day after tt.. act wanted to go shopping, but realised tt i'm running low on budget.. with so many things to buy n so little cash, it's juz a matter of choosing e necessity.. hehe chose to sleep lor..

hope e proper nite's out this week will be fruitful.. hehe..

NeW eNvIrOnMeNt..

Another week's passed.. and another's abt to commence..

sigh.. life's boring for me eh?

Haha.. it's almost like a routine for me.. Book out, spend some time at home, den go down town for some shopping, meet up with frens, play a bit of soccer, den it's back to camp.. sigh..

as alot of ppl have been suggesting, maybe it's time to think thru, n decide on doing sth more fulfilling, like learning a new skill or sth.. haha when will i ever get down to even think abt it man..

anyway, gonna be embarking on another course soon, at nee soon camp.. heard tt it's heaven over tt, hope e rumours ain't false.. but tt'll really "weaken" my resolve to stay fit.. sigh.. life's full of decisions eh?

haha.. problems, we face everyday.. decisions, we make every min.. hey, it ain't tt easy being human yeah?

surprising huh? i am act kinda growing up.. haha.. not tt i really wan to.. juz laugh it off i guess..

tmr's always a better day.. yeah!

BiGgIeS..

It's been a long week.. But wat a week it was.. Full of surprises, n unexpected events.. Though some ain't as enjoyable as e others..

1st day pt, had CO to accompany us for e 4km run.. den did some meditation thingy with us too.. felt awkward at first, with all e biggies following along, but his greatness' easy going attitude broke e ice easily.. anyway e new OC also let us have a taste of his pt.. which was, to say e very least, mind n body shagging..

OC's pt continues.. well it carries on everyday btw.. but this time we have an unexpected guest.. vincent ng came along for a shoot, n we got to showcase our "washboard abs" while doing e pt with him.. anyway there was no airs abt him, juz plain friendliness n carefree attitude.. but man, his bod's e limit..

e rest of e days were basically e same.. pt pt n more pt.. guard duty on sat too, so basically there's no rest for me for e week.. sigh..

met up with e cl guys juz now.. sheesh really missed dem n all e fun we had.. though talking abt e future makes me excited, with most of dem entering ntu as well.. a comeback in e making? hmmm we'll see..

ain't gonna mention much abt e big hooha happening in e company line now.. well juz a bit la.. all coz of a simple guard duty, (plus a few guys), we have to endure enmity from e signallers n weaponmen.. hope everythings fine once we get back..

"dun think of e past.. wat's over is over.. look forward to e future.. coz tat's where u live in.."

EnD..

End of course.. graduation.. sigh..

e slack days are almost over le..

passed out from course on fri.. with a small ceremony at a small lecture hall.. had a video presentation n short speech (by me!), n ended off with some photo taking n refreshments.. well, i guess e highlight of e day was tt we get to book out early, once again.. hehe.. but now it's back to company line.. well, at least for 2 weeks..

graduation.. stirs up memories.. e familiar lines, so close to heart.. nostalagia sets in..

ya met up with jc class last evening for bbq.. turnout was pretty good, considering all our busy schedule n stuff.. had a good "get together" with e guys, as usual.. still shy with e girls, as usual.. haha some may act disagree, but hey, been thru 4 years w/o much interaction with dem.. one of e most relaxing times i've enjoyed le..

it's back to normal life again, in any case.. spiderman, here i come! well, hopefully la.. haha..

AnniVeRsArY..

Haha juz realised tt this od's one year old!! Or shud i say, more than tt le..

Time really doesn't wait eh?

e last teen yr already.. after tt it's uni, den it's off to work.. no more of e gallavanting n stuff.. well, technically speaking..

hehe as if tt will hinder me.. na..

as i always say, live life to e fullest!!!

MoHaMeD sUlTaN..

Nvr knew i wud have this chance.. at least, during army life.. it may be a bit chaotic, but heck, it was really an eye-opener in e end..

went down to ms for course outing, courtesy of our dear course warrant.. got a bit tipsy, talked a bit, danced a bit, enuff said.. e usual stuff tt u do in e pub ya? hmm maybe add a bit of oogling, though seriously, they were all beyond our league.. i mean old..

hehe it was e events tt happened after tt made e day man.. a tiff b/w frens due to some, eh, activities in e toilet.. den it was a catfight rite outside 7-eleven, which trapped me inside e place.. man e pandemonium..

tt's night life for u..

"Breaking the Habit" --- Linkin Park..

WaIt.. oK dOnE..

Ex SeAhOrSe..

Been quite a week ya? or shud i say, it's been quite an interesting course throughout these two weeks.. all e outsea n stuff, sailing ard e southern parts of singapore.. hmm..

maybe it ain't tt fun rushing for time every morning, loading up e boats with all e necessary items, den doing lifejacket tests (grrr..), but after tt, it's fun n excitement all e way.. feeling e cool sea breeze blowing on our faces, not to mention having e occasional splashes of water.. well, maybe it's not juz occasion, coz during seahorse we were totally drenched by e playful sea.. hehe navigating in e sea is seriously no joke, n juz as my instructor puts it, it ain't like driving a car where u can go straight..e traffic is pretty assorted though, with e trailers n bumbooats n sometimes even windsurfers come into our way..

almost forgot to meniton e wondrous sights of e southern islands.. kusu, sisters, hantu, juz to name a few.. they may not sound exciting, but these places are really pretty cool to visit, juz like escapes from e hectic life on mainland.. heck, even sentosa looks diff from outsea..

anyway it's all coming to an end le, with e handling test on mon being e finale of our exp on sea.. it's been a wonderful journey, ya..

"Everytime" --- Britney Spears..

dEjA vU...

Happening all over again.. yup tt's wat i'm suggesting..

Do u call tt a special sense? a talent, or a mystifying inborn gift?

hmm.. foreseeing into e future does have it's mysterious aura surrounding it..

haha i'm blabbering rubbish again.. nvm no one's gonna be reading this anyway.. no, corrections, not many will be reading this..

anyway stayed over again.. same things happening, juz tt i got to sleep this time round.. n didn't feel all tt poor after all e spending.. booking out's getting more n more routinized.. oh ya, collected my cert n saw some of e peeps back in sch.. mine think i'm really beginning to miss jc once again.. seeing all my fellow sch mates, even though i may not have even talked to some b4, n will prob nvr will.. still.. shud really have went out w dem, but.. haiz nvm.. there's gonna be other opportunities..

sth to travel, or sth more? commitments commitments.. one sure way of getting headaches..

Vt..

Juz came back from sec sch class outing.. Shag ar.. Didn't sleep at all coz stayed up e whole nite playing ps2, den watched a movie juz now in e afternoon.. platoon dinner at plaza hotel e previous nite as well.. so guess i've been awake for more den a day? hehe..

35km was completed last fri.. walked all e way from camp to east coast and back again.. finally, sth up e sleeves le.. a rooftop to cover us, as some may say.. vocation training's next, hopefully can perform well in it.. anyway dun really have much expectations le, juz hope it's gonna be a breeze.. hehe who doesn't like to slack?

Need some organisation.. Some time as well.. n not to forget some money as well.. life's abit haywire now, with all e events coming n going.. need some distraction..

no idea wat songs are cool n nice now, so shan't be placing dem down in e meanwhile.. sigh..

EnDiNg..

Finally.. It's gonna come to an end soon..

Though seriously speaking, it ain't really wat i've expected b4 coming in.. But it stll has an impact though..Esp during ex all-out..e amt of fatigue felt was indescribable.. haha nah, it wasn't tt bad, but everything was really exciting, to fight missions and all, raiding of objectives n ambushing vehicles on e way.. n did i mention it was field-packs on almost all e way? hehe we even had some uninvited guests.. a whole family of wild boars came to, eh, dig out our combat rations tt we buried.. haha..

tower rappeling e next week was pretty fun too..with e highlight being one of e instructors doing an inverted rappel, aka mission impossible style.. totally cool..

survival village was also filled with excitement n, well, blood n gore.. let's see.. 12 frogs, 4 eels, 2 iguanas were skinned n cooked right b4 e whole company.. some were even done on our own.. right from e killing to e cooking part.. n an innocent mouse was killed in e making too.. but tt's another story altogether hehe..

"e one being killed muz not suffer.."

n i guess e only thing left's e 35km route march.. our final test, n prob our final journey together with some of our platoon mates..

i guess it's bye.. for now..

InNeR sEnSeS..

Emotions.. Thoughts.. Feelings.. Sentiments..

Full of dem? Or fading away?

Things tt happen.. events tt occur.. situations tt follow.. headaches all ard.. worries galore.. hell of a time.. or maybe it ain't tt serious, but u get e point..

Not at small scale.. no, it doesn't happen to me..

Apathy? Maybe.. Or it's juz sticking to beliefs.. Why worry so much? Smile, laugh n enjoy life..

Or so i tot..

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Right n wrong.. Who can act judge? is there even a right n wrong? Maybe there is, but it varies from e perspectives of every individual n e situation..

Mine's clouded though.. Justified to judge? I guess not..

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Reasons? Or excuses? I guess it's up to all to intepret..

It's ok if nobody understands.. Or tt everyone misinteprets.. Ain't gonna be correcting dem.. Ain't e omnipotent being who's gonna be brainwashing e rest..

Think wat u think, believe wat u believe, do wat u do..

It's ur life.. Dun try to live others..

CoMe ClEaN..

"Come Clean"

Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned

'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no life
I defy

[Chorus:]
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin

'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind

[Chorus]

I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming...

[Chorus x2]

Let's go back
Back to the beginning

我的心太乱..

ain't such a great day.. so much to shop, so little time.. no one to accompany too, or maybe is tt i chose not to have..

history has a funny way of repeating.. but e feeling.. sux no less..

wat does my destiny beckon?

no one understands.. not even myself..

~!@#$%^&*()_|~!@#$%^&*()_~!@#$%^&*()_+

<<我的心太乱>>

夜里难以入睡 用什么可以麻醉 情绪太多怎堪面对
不是不要你陪 有些事你无法体会 卸下了防备 孤独跟随

我想要一个 自己的空间 能够好好想想我们之间的明天
如果爱情不如我们想象的甜美 那么所有的罪让我来背

我的心太乱 要一些空白 你若是明白 让我暂时的离开
我的心太乱 不敢再贪更多爱 想哭的我
却怎么哭也哭不出来
我的心太乱 要一些空白 老天在不在 忘了为我来安排
我的心太乱 害怕爱情的背叛 想哭的我
像是一个迷路小孩
迷路的小孩

ExTrA...

Hehe doing guard duty now.. weekend gonna be burnt le.. sian.. at least there're 7 other unfortunate souls like me here.. let's see.. ard 14 more hrs til bookout? tt's like 6 more duties for me.. sigh..

msd came into camp last nite, or so i heard.. couldn't bathe as a result coz came back late from training at emph.. sheesh.. all e sweat.. on my pants i mean..

nvm getting a bit boring here.. think e weather's getting to me le.. all hot n bothered here.. somemore got to stay in smart 4 for e whole day.. hopefully there's no turnout tonight.. but highly doubt so..

anyway i finally passed 5k soc le.. not a great timing, but a pass is still a pass rite? combat swim was a pretty enjpyable affair too.. shagged but fun la.. at least i'm beginning to swim better than some other ppl in e platoon le.. haha.. to think tt i'm still wearing e "red beret"..

nothing much to mention le.. really, think army's beginning to make me a boring person..or maybe it's juz e lack of hair.. or sleep.. or time out in e civilian world..

sigh.. life's boring..

"Try" ---Nelly Furtado

LoSt..

Anything but this... Again..

Why do I always end up on e same road.. Sheesh..

I'm... Juz human...

<<我不够爱你>>

我想我不够爱你 我不曾忘了自己
没那么全心投入 所以会一败涂地

我想我不够爱你 我忘了你的用情
没办法重来一次 也只好听天由命

不能在没有月亮的夜里
也不能轻易地闭上眼睛
因为你会出现 在天空或心里

不能在一望无尽的地方
也不能钻进那拥挤人群
因为寂不寂寞 都会惊醒我
我失去了我不够爱的你

5 kM..

Siao ar.. everyday 5 km.. think we're running machines? even e sgts tot it was a bit mad.. wat to do? so many ppl can't meet e passing criteria wat.. hehe can see more n moer ppl sitting at e stands during pt le.. genging nonetheless.. haha..

anyway combat swim ain't tt bad.. yet.. at least can swim a little in green fatigue during e tower jump hehe.. but got sick after tt.. sheesh.. feeling a bit of constraint within e lungs n bronchus.. hope can recover soon..

fren read a bit of my notepad e other day, e pages tt i was going to upload here.. hehe was saying tt it's gonna be quite boring here if i keep updating wat i do in camp only.. but there's really nth better to write here other den army stuff ya? dun think much inside too, everyday juz looking for times to slack n rest.. sigh.. boring life ya?
haha tt's army for u..

haven't really slept much these few days.. kana tekan e day b4, den did guard duty yeaterday.. betta go rest now, otherwise gonna be a bad day man..

on a happier note, at least i got to eat really good desserts yesterday.. do try out e "death by chocolate" at marche ya? one small mouth n u'll really feel like dying.. dying for more man.. haha..

"第一次" ---光良

InItIaTiOn..

A fulfilling week.. N a fitting way to end e week..

Demolition's e word for e week man.. Theory n practical lessons all packed in three days.. n tt's only e basic.. Nvr imagined act having notes n sitting in e auditorium listening to my CSM, juz like in JC lecture hall.. (Dozing off was another common thing too haha..)

Field training at e soccer field turened into a disaster due to our lack of seriousness.. Crawled up n down e field, plus all e static pts.. Sheesh.. E sandcans in our SBOs did little to help too..

5 km soc in green fatigue yesterday morning.. Damn shagged man.. Wonder how i'm gonna pass it in skeleton battle oreder.. Not to mention e possibility of carrying e much heavier SAR21..

N e finale today.. "Initiation" as e instructors call it.. But another term would be major turnout i guessed.. Rude awakening at 3am, den had to change to FBO in 5 min.. With e bunk already turned upside down, inside out.. Had to layout all e equipment in e parade square, n at anytime we were moving slow, static pt came.. Lot's of teamwork n sweat came into play though, which was quite encouraging..

Tt was only stage one.. Stage 2 required us to fire lift our buddies ard e soccer field, den it was leopard crawling up n down e field again.. Luckily time constrains did not allow e instructors to play with us more, n we proceeded to e 3rd stage.. Taken to some unfamiliar place, given casualities,(in e form of jerry cans), n we were required to fast march back to camp.. this wasn't so bad, as everyone were basically fighting to carry e stretchers act..

N e ending point? Commando jetty.. N e reward for our efforts? our jungle hats, finally.. Though i can't really say tt we went thru alot to earn it, judging from wat our instructors went thru during their turnout, but well, no one's complaining rite? Haha..

"Ai4" ---Karen Mok..

11.4.2004

Back in camp after long weekedn.. Wel, on paper it's long, but when's a break ever long for us? Live range tmr again, SAR21 familiarisation shoot..Some sg manufactured rifle, heavy n bulky, but pretty accurate.. Think will be carrying it for soc.. Sheesh..

$14.40..n everyone juz "pao3 lu4".. sheesh.. haha not tt i mind la, it's e gameplay tt's more impt, not e cash involve ya? though it does inject more excitement in e game..n hey, we're banning mums from e game le, it's like a cheat code of sorts..

Didn't do anything much for e past week, save for e 1st day.. Live firing of LAW n M203.. their firepower ain't all tt spectacular like those saw in movies, thoug they still pack quite a punch.. Turnout came next, to set e tone for BCT.. Change parade n PT, all in full battle order.. Not to mention leopard crawling ard e company line.. "shiok man".. Didn't even had appetitie for night snack after tt..

Think i act accomplished quite a few things during e weekend.. Watched 2 movies, swam, shopped n.. Eh.. Juz enjoyed myself la.. Been so long since i've act enjoyed myself with frens, or relaxed so much.. Hehe..

Can't remember much le.. Army makes ur memory short-termed man..

*updated on 17/04/04..*

"Shen2 Hai3" ---Zhao Chuan..

PoP lOh..

Private!!

Yes, tt's wat i am gonna be in another 2 hrs' time.. Passed out juz a few hrs ago, now sitting in e comfort of my house, finally after 2 whole days of rehearsal for e parade.. At last it's all over.. Not juz e parade but e whole bmt period.. Though private isn't really a rank, it's still an achievement ya? But being one means more responsibilities.. N more training as well.. Sheesh..

It's been a slack week though.. Save for e physical tests like soc n ippt in e mornings.. After tt it's juz idling e ime away in e bunk.. So bored we got tt my section act made a chinese chess set to play with.. Another section got another idea n made a ball out of masking tapes n paper.. Thus starting e 2-on-2 tournament.. Ppl took turn doing "sentry duties" too, to allow e other to sleep in peace.. Haha..

Company's nite out on thurs at Igor's.. Boy was it exciting man.. Think some tv show covered it in its program b4.. It's a spook-themed restaurant near indoor stadium where e dinners are first led thru a trail filled with horrors, den to e dining hall where performances are held at e stage in front.. practically everything can be done there.. dance on e bench, squeeze each other's butt, whistle at e waitresses, throw up.. u get e pic? e show's very professional too.. Haha sounds like i'm advertising for dem ya? Though e food can be much better, but i guess it was a nite of fun n relaxation for all of us.. After all, u dun get to party so much in camp rite? Haha..

Getting sleepy after e hectic day.. Gotta get some rest now.. Zzzz...

"深海" ---赵传..

OnE mOrE wEeK..

Yeah finally back home le.. After one hectic week filled with tests n route march.. Guess i'll have a easier time updating den.. Hehe coz i passed everything!!! Not spectacularly, but it'll do for now.. Ok tat's abt everything tt happened during e week le.. Haha..

Next week gonna pop le.. So it's gonna be prep work all e way till sat.. N after tt's bct.. No rest in b/w.. Sigh.. When everyone's out there enjoying life, i'll be in camp getting turnouts.. Haha wat a life man.. Not to forget e 5km soc.. Woohoo..

Class juz set up a new website.. Or shud i say chap did another one for us, for old times' sake.. So more n more ppl will be reading this le.. Hi to everyone out there visiting this od for e first time ya? haha..

Shall continue this tmr.. If i can tt is.. Brain's not functioning properly.. Hehe..

"Too Lost In You" ---Sugarbabes..

RuShInG fOr TiMe..

Juz like always.. rushing for time again.. So pardon me if everything's kinda jumbled ya?

1st day: Went woodlands for, eh, a bit of tuition first b4 heading to marina square to meet up with e brothers.. Had dinner at kenny rogers, which was pretty worth e money.. Poulet became breathless after e dinner though, maybe eatin chicken didn't agree with him too well.. Next stop was at chijmes, where we saw man u defeating tottenham 3-0.. didn't really had e mood to enjoy it though, lost sth precious along e way, sobs..

2nd day: Woke up all sore n tired, slept late e nite b4 ya? Still went ahead with soccer in ri, been so long since i last sweat it out on e court le.. Down on luck again though, deflecting e last shot in.. Sheesh.. Had karaoke session with chap n pung too.. Memories of e times started flooding in.. Those days.. Sigh.. Saw a sectionmate in e next room too, such a pleasnt surprise..
Had some catching up with chap after tt too.. Realise tt it's been a pretty long time since i entered army le.. Haiz getting older day by day..

3rd day: Caught up with sleep, den went down to jec.. Was preached for almost an hr b4 finally able to settle down for a proper meal.. Den it was movie at westmal.. "Butterfly effect" it's called.. Some weird show abt twisted mind n memories n changing of lifes.. Pretty good storyline though..

N now it's time to book in again.. Too serious too soon i guess, juz like e song.. Sheesh.. Guess it'll be next week(i hope) tt i can update on last week's events..

Once again sorry for e ramblings.. Time's precious ya? Haha.. As long as i can get my points across..

"轨迹" ---周杰伦

GrAdUaTiOn...

Sometimes some songs juz kinda capture everything tt u've exp at a point of time in life, n here's one good example.. To all those who're still schooling, remember, time waits for no man.. So treasure all e moments, no matter how insignificant it may be..

Graduation (Friends Forever)

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And we got so blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

FaMiLy..

An email from a fren.. Guess many wud have seen it, but juz to spread e msg ard.. To all those who're mad, or have been mad with their family members for one thing or another, do remember tt no matter wat, they're still ur closest kins ard..

FAMILY
Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company
that we are working for could easily replace us in
a matter of days.
But the family we left behind will feel the loss
for the rest of their lives.

And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more
into work than into our own family,
an unwise investment indeed,
don't you think?
So what is behind the story?

Do you know what the word FAMILY means?
FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU

OvErDuE..

Hehe typing this after like 2 weeks passed by? Told ya army's restrictive le..

15/3 - First day of live firing.. First day w/o rain in tekong too.. Haha finish firing already den slack ard, waiting for e sky to turn dark to commence night firing.. Hopefully everything goes smoothly, breaking e "outfield curse" of mine..

Rudely awakened in e middle of e nite coz someone forgot to do sentry duty.. Not blaming him though, everyone makes mistakes ya?

16/3 - 2nd day.. Same as always.. Slight drizzle in e morning, thnk we're really raingods man.. CSM act provided us with can drinks? Wat luxuries during outfield.. Though we had to pay for dem, but tt's juz a small price to pay for a whole lot of morale boosting..

18/3 - Unforseen circumstances forced us back into camp.. Armed robbers in tekong, terminating all activities on e island..

Another bdae bash.. Sheesh.. Dreading e day when it comes.. 6 more days? haha..

19/3 - Soreness all over e body.. All impromptu activities today coz no one expected to come back to camp anyway.. Area clean, pt n peer appraisal will fill up e time i guess..

Guess tt's abt it.. Basic skeleton of e things done in camp? Haha..

OuTfIeLd..

At long last i'm finally out of tekong.. for 2 plus days at least haha.. going back soon for live firing there.. Sheesh..

Been quite an eventful outfield exp for me.. Though trying hard not to remember e forgettable incidents.. it'd really have been an enjoyable exp if not for those silly mistakes which i'll rather not mention..

Let's see.. Rain rain n rain.. Combat rations everyday, though i dun really mind dem.. Cold cold nite with sentry duties.. Sleeping on e cold hard cement floor.. 16 km route march with full battle order, plus lots of civilian songs along e way.. Haha doesn't sound really fun ya? it's act all e little things done durin free time tt made things more bearable la..

Well, kinda hard to recall back on all e exp.. all shud i say, i rather not try.. Sigh..

Life's getting boring.. Watch e days pass by w/o doing anything meaningful.. Book outs are such blessings..

Went nus open hse yesterday, saw lots of familiar faces.. Guess it was more of a social trip den a scouting for course trip.. Still dunno whether to register for nus or ntu, or for which course in any case.. Prob gonna ask ard for opinions lor..

Time passes by.. so quickly..

When will happy days be here to stay?

"Someday we'll know" ---Mandy Moore, Jonathan Foreman

GrOwInG uP..

The first day of school, our professor introduced himself and challenged us to get to know someone we didn't already know. I stood up to look around when a gentle hand touched my shoulder. I turned around to find wrinkled, little old lady beaming up at me with a smile that lit up her entire being.

She said, "Hi handsome. My name is Rose. I'm eighty-seven years old. Can I give you a hug?"

I laughed and enthusiastically responded, "Of course you may!" and she gave me a giant squeeze. "Why are you in college at such a young, innocent age?" I asked.

She jokingly replied, "I'm here to meet a rich husband, get
married, have a couple of kids..."

"No seriously," I asked. I was curious what may have motivated her to be taking on this challenge at her age.

"I always dreamed of having a college education and now I'm
getting one!" she told me.

After class, we walked to the student union building and shared a chocolate milkshake. We became instant friends. Every day for the next three months we would leave, class together and talk nonstop. I was always mesmerized listening to this "time machine" as she shared her wisdom and experience with me.

Over the course of the year, Rose became a campus icon and she easily made friends wherever she went. She loved to dress up and she reveled in the attention bestowed upon her from the other students. She was living it up.

At the end of the semester, we invited Rose to speak at our
football banquet. I'll never forget what she taught us. She was introduced and stepped up to the podium. As she began to deliver her prepared speech, she dropped her three by five cards on the floor.

Frustrated and a little embarrassed she leaned into the
microphone and simply said, "I'm sorry. I'm so jittery. I gave up beer for lent and this whiskey is killing me! I'll never get my speech back in order so let me just tell you what I know."

As we laughed, she cleared her throat and began, "We do not stop playing because we are old; we grow old because we stop playing. There are only four secrets to staying young, being happy, and achieving success."

"You have to laugh and find humor every day." "You've got to have a dream. When you lose your dreams, you die. We have so many people walking around who are dead and don't even know it!"

"There is a huge difference between growing older and growing up. If you are nineteen years old, lie in bed for one full year, and don't do one productive thing, you will turn twenty years old."

"If I am eighty-seven years old and stay in bed for a year and never do anything I will turn eighty-eight. Anybody can grow older. That doesn't take any talent or ability. The idea is to grow up by always finding the opportunity in change."

"Have no regrets. The elderly usually don't have regrets for what we did, but rather for things we did not do. The only people who fear death are those with regrets."

She concluded her speech by courageously singing "The Rose."

She challenged each of us to study the lyrics and live them out in our daily lives.

At the year's end Rose finished the college degree she had begun all those years ago.

One week after graduation, Rose died peacefully in her sleep. Over two thousand college students attended her funeral in tribute to the wonderful woman who taught by example that it's never too late to be all you can possibly be.

UpDaTe..

Been a mth or so?

Haha.. Od's so empty.. Not many ppl coming to read anyway.. Muz be feeling neglected ya? Nvm shall let u feel useful once again..

Wat am i saying? Oh well..

Gonna cramp everything into one day, otherwise a bit troublesome to flip thru everyday haha..

Let's see..

16/02/04 - Book in day.. Had bee trouble though.. Lots of honey bees visited our bunk at nite, forcing us to vacate e place n gather at e parade square for e pest busters to do their job.. Starry nite though, everyone was admiring e stars n relaxing..

17/02/04 - No morning pt coz of yesterday's episode resulting in us sleepin late.. Haha this is army welfare for u.. Impromptu baths for ppl who lost to e Z monster during lecture haha..

"anyone make it on V-day?"

"Piezo - electricity induced due to mechanical action.. haha.."

"not urgent dun go, urgent use rubber band.."

18/02/04 - No pt again.. Fats beginning to exert their presence though haha.. Hehe weird dream, collages of images.. U're in it though.. haha.. Swimming lesson again, free bath to all..

"u got a cute face.. next time i shall call u 可爱.."

19/02/04 - Parade square became a battlefield for e bees which they all died valiantly, their attacks against our bunks in vain.. Should hold a grand funeral for them man.. ROD parade for dunno which company, meaning they finished their reservice n al.. to think we're stil at recruit stage.. Quite touching though..

"can hear me, then show me e middle finger.."

"tattoo e meaning of life..no matter e inside or outside.."

Trainers were pissed off after "complain session" with CO though.. Sheesh..

20/02/04 - Days of hell..Or so we tot.. Everyone took extra precaution to do things well.. Haha not enuff time to have lesson so resulted in chatting with PC in bunk plus some impromptu pt.. Got "zhao2 xia1" water parade after tt.. But i guess e whole thing made us too lax le, pissed e Pc off in e end..=(

Nice clouds in e evening though.. Plus this solitary star tt seem to stand out everytime i looked.. 守护星?

Repaid e pt debt today.. Haha training shed living up to its name..

21/02/04 - Think i updated this already haha..

22/02/04 - Live grenade throw was really fun!! Could feel e tremors from as far as a few hundred metres away.. Brought something illegal though, got screwed badly..

23/02/04 - Feeling quite shit.. Thinking of confinement e whole day.. Maybe it's e depres state tt made me think tt army's becoming less meaningful everyday.. 过一天,算一天..

24/02/04 - Haha sang duets with bunkmates while waiting for e rest to finish test.. So fun.. But imagine tt, a room full of guys singing love song to each other.. haha.. another singing session at nite too.. but it's some army song again.. sheesh..

25/02/04 - umpteenth time w/o morning pt le.. no one's complaining though.. 今天的心情特别好..睡眠也特别熟..可能是昨晚的那通电话罢..哈哈..

"我已剪短我的发，剪短了长..eh..短发..haha"

SOC with 4 sandcans on..Really good workout man.. But got screwed by PC again at nite though.. Sigh..

26/02/04 - Use to recite e commando's vision for water parade.. But this sgt wanted us to be more learned i guess, or juz wanted to have fun la.. Wan us all to recite poems.. Here goes today's..

<<怨情>>
美人卷珠帘
深坐蹙蛾眉
但见泪痕湿
不知心恨谁

suppose to be games day today where all will have fun either playing basketball or soccer.. but only 2 balls n 200 plus ppl.. So no soccer for me lor.. sheesh..

Canteen break.. n after tt.. eh.. in e other pieces of paper le haha.. =)

Hehe if this was on a daily basis den wud probably have written more, but i guess this wil have to do for now.. Army training's not as tough as a lot of ppl imagine ya? Well, at least not for now.. Haha..

Till next time i guess.. Tata!!

"定做一个天堂” ---群星..

UpDaTe..

Been a mth or so?

Haha.. Od's so empty.. Not many ppl coming to read anyway.. Muz be feeling neglected ya? Nvm shall let u feel useful once again..

Wat am i saying? Oh well..

Gonna cramp everything into one day, otherwise a bit troublesome to flip thru everyday haha..

Let's see..

16/02/04 - Book in day.. Had bee trouble though.. Lots of honey bees visited our bunk at nite, forcing us to vacate e place n gather at e parade square for e pest busters to do their job.. Starry nite though, everyone was admiring e stars n relaxing..

17/02/04 - No morning pt coz of yesterday's episode resulting in us sleepin late.. Haha this is army welfare for u.. Impromptu baths for ppl who lost to e Z monster during lecture haha..

"anyone make it on V-day?"

"Piezo - electricity induced due to mechanical action.. haha.."

"not urgent dun go, urgent use rubber band.."

18/02/04 - No pt again.. Fats beginning to exert their presence though haha.. Hehe weird dream, collages of images.. U're in it though.. haha.. Swimming lesson again, free bath to all..

"u got a cute face.. next time i shall call u 可爱.."

19/02/04 - Parade square became a battlefield for e bees which they all died valiantly, their attacks against our bunks in vain.. Should hold a grand funeral for them man.. ROD parade for dunno which company, meaning they finished their reservice n al.. to think we're stil at recruit stage.. Quite touching though..

"can hear me, then show me e middle finger.."

"tattoo e meaning of life..no matter e inside or outside.."

Trainers were pissed off after "complain session" with CO though.. Sheesh..

20/02/04 - Days of hell..Or so we tot.. Everyone took extra precaution to do things well.. Haha not enuff time to have lesson so resulted in chatting with PC in bunk plus some impromptu pt.. Got "zhao2 xia1" water parade after tt.. But i guess e whole thing made us too lax le, pissed e Pc off in e end..=(

Nice clouds in e evening though.. Plus this solitary star tt seem to stand out everytime i looked.. 守护星?

Repaid e pt debt today.. Haha training shed living up to its name..

21/02/04 - Think i updated this already haha..

22/02/04 - Live grenade throw was really fun!! Could feel e tremors from as far as a few hundred metres away.. Brought something illegal though, got screwed badly..

23/02/04 - Feeling quite shit.. Thinking of confinement e whole day.. Maybe it's e depres state tt made me think tt army's becoming less meaningful everyday.. 过一天,算一天..

24/02/04 - Haha sang duets with bunkmates while waiting for e rest to finish test.. So fun.. But imagine tt, a room full of guys singing love song to each other.. haha.. another singing session at nite too.. but it's some army song again.. sheesh..

25/02/04 - umpteenth time w/o morning pt le.. no one's complaining though.. 今天的心情特别好..睡眠也特别熟..可能是昨晚的那通电话罢..哈哈..

"我已剪短我的发，剪短了长..eh..短发..haha"

SOC with 4 sandcans on..Really good workout man.. But got screwed by PC again at nite though.. Sigh..

26/02/04 - Use to recite e commando's vision for water parade.. But this sgt wanted us to be more learned i guess, or juz wanted to have fun la.. Wan us all to recite poems.. Here goes today's..

<<怨情>>
美人卷珠帘
深坐蹙蛾眉
但见泪痕湿
不知心恨谁

suppose to be games day today where all will have fun either playing basketball or soccer.. but only 2 balls n 200 plus ppl.. So no soccer for me lor.. sheesh..

Canteen break.. n after tt.. eh.. in e other pieces of paper le haha.. =)

Hehe if this was on a daily basis den wud probably have written more, but i guess this wil have to do for now.. Army training's not as tough as a lot of ppl imagine ya? Well, at least not for now.. Haha..

Till next time i guess.. Tata!!

"定做一个天堂” ---群星..

BoOk OuT..aNd In..

Live hand greneade throw tmr, so gotta book out and in on e same day.. so dumb, burnt off a beautiful sun.. Well at least they returned it last week le.. Oh well..

Let's see.. Slept at home for a while today after coming back ard 830 or so, den went to sch to pass e shoes as well as collect sand.. Track's finally operational le, shall be running on it one of these days.. i hope.. so cushiony haha..

Yr ones were playing at e linkway when i came.. No one took notice, or saw me.. so sad.. haha.. anyway they reminded me of e good old days at e gym, when we play like nobody's business.. Time really flies eh? Beginning to feel old le.. Sheesh..

Suppose to be updating for e last week but no time le.. Guess i'll juz have to do it next week i guess.. Gotta go now, work hard everyone!!!

CaMp..

Woah.. look at how fast time flies..

Will be back in camp on abt, another 8 hrs' time?

Sheesh.. Haven't enjoyed myself enuff outside yet leh.. Sigh..

Met only a few ppl these weekend, guess all e rest of dem are prob busy sleeping at home ya? All shud have booked in le, now left me..

Feel kinda lost.. Lost touch with outside world.. Lost touch with frens.. Brain's now filled with army songs instead.. Haha.. Some of e lyrics quite mean act haha..

Well, at least 2 weeks' gone by in a flash.. left 8 weeks till passing out parade? Haha.. After tt it's another 10 weeks of bct though.. Tt is if i make e cut haha..

To everyone out there, all e best in army ya? Tough time dun last, tough men do..

The more u sweat in peace, the less u bleed in war..

"Johnny" ---eh, army boys? Haha..

ArMy..

舍么都不说，免得他人闲言闲语 ..

哈哈..

Back from camp finally.. After 2 whole weeks.. haha.. Well, at least for 2 days la.. No water parades, no standing on both lates, no rushing ard from point to point, no knock-it-downs for at least 48 hrs ya? haha..

Juz to put e record straight.. Hendon's not exactly hell la.. Well, at least not for now.. Life there's pretty exciting for e first few days act, though it's beginning to turn pretty dull, but trainings still comparable to tt of gym's, if not slightly easier.. Of course, tt's not including e mental stress involved, though i dun really feel it haha..

Army stories galore.. Now i begin to fully comprehend tt.. Hilarious moments splashed all over e place, even when being tekaned.. Haha.. Still remember vividly e first few days, when someone was forced to scold vulgarities when his name was being called, or during one of e night water parades, when e trainer commented, " !@#$% 2 weeks already leh, why are u all still so chubby!!"

Haha..

去年的誓言，终于实现了..

哈哈..

"Tearing up my Heart" ---Nsync..

等...

Back from fren's place.. Haha watched soccer n played this game called "in between" till ard 5 in e morning.. Sheesh lost ard 9 bucks for tt.. Hehe as i put it, 情场得意，赌场失意.. Nvm la, book in le also dun need to use much money.. Juz feel bad to have lost my mum's hard-earned money.. Will strive hard to earn it back in commandos ya? Haha..

Less den 5 hrs b4 i book in le.. Haiya.. Guess this 2 plus yrs gonna be like e countdown years? Juz waiting for my ORD date.. Act as long as life gets more interesting inside den it won't be tt bad la..

Need to know my platoon better first i guess.. Hehe..

回来了..却盼不到天天思念的脸蛋..何时，要等到何时?

等待..原来是那么痛苦的..

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<<爱情证书>>

寂寞当然有一点 你不在我身边 总是特别想念你的脸
距离是一份考卷 测量相爱的誓言 最后会不会实现
我们为爱还在学 学沟通的语言 学着谅解 学着不流泪
等到我们学会飞 飞越黑夜 和考验 日子就要从孤单里毕业
我们用多一点点的辛苦 来交换多一点点的幸福 就算
幸福 还有一段路 等我们学会忍耐和付出
这爱情一定会有张证书 证明 从此 不孤独

BaCk..

不要哭了吗 该哭的人是我吧...

Back..For a while..

A surprise act..So rare tt recruits get to go home after only 3 days in camp..hehe no one's complaining though..for e first time dinner was finished in record time n we "fell in" much earlier than e allocated time hehe..guess everyone can't wait to get home eh?

No hidden meaning behind tt act..Training's pretty slack for now, sort of like an orientation for us newbies, plus all e admin stuff..think once we settled down den e real deal starts..maybe it's not such a good idea to ask how e ppl at tekong are doing haha..coz judging from their exp our few days in camp is already tougher den theirs le..hehe..i'm not complaining though..我是强的!!

本以为可给她一个惊喜..

真是谟事在人，成是在天..

至少还有一通电话..??一通??哈哈..

不知道你现在好不好..一颗渴望见到你的心，深深地想念着你..

好想，好想..让你感到温暖..让你不受伤害..

胸口一震疼痛..好久没这种感觉了..

肋骨..找到了吗?

要用功读书..要勇敢..要坚强..

想哭就到我怀里哭..

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<<想哭就到我怀里哭>>

一个人逃避寂寞 两个人渴望自由
到底该不该奔向你 怀里的温柔
还是就让你失望的走 我没有太多承诺
能让你一夜好梦 担心从今后你心痛
会不知所措 太多的惶恐 又让我们无法承受
想哭就到我怀里哭 喔 就像一切都不会结束
那彼此感觉 不那么孤独 想哭就到我怀里哭
喔 别把未来想的太清楚 那只会让我越来越无助
想哭就到我怀里哭

SaY bYe..

2nd last day out in e society..

At least..till 3 weeks of bmt is over?

*Sobs*

Say bye..

Bye to freedom..to society..to town..to sch..to home..

To my frens, my buddies..My hair, my looks..?? Wat looks?? haha..

Well if training's gona be tough..Bye to my wit n sanity too hehe..

Act it's possible to be out of course for me la..But will prob try to stay in i guess..

Planned to write alot act..But kinda at a lost of words now..hmmm.. indescribable feelings? i guess tt's it..Anyway e gist's been captured..Quality, not quantity ya?

等待? 还需等待吗?

"镇守爱情" ---动力火车..

累了...

"雨一直下..气氛不算融洽.."

那就没球踢了..

guess will be meeting u ppl earlier le den? hehe..

yesterday was e most packed day this mth le.. SAT in e morning, tay's hse in e afternoon, den kbox all e way from 3 to 9?? haha ended with a bit of pool till 11 plus? sheesh.. was pretty shagged already after e karaoke session.. well at least my voice was gone la.. now it's pretty husky hehe.. cool..

getting a bit sick le.. maybe it's coz of e weather.. or maybe it's coz of e ppl ard me.. or maybe it's juz me.. hehe juz hope i'm back to tiptop condition by wed lo.. hmmm..

不告诉你..到底是舍么天大的密秘呢?

哈哈..等待,等待..

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<<广岛之恋>>

(张洪量)你早就该拒绝我 不该放任我的追求
给我渴望的故事 留下丢不掉的名字
(莫文蔚)时间难倒回 空间易破碎
二十四小时的爱情 是我一生难忘的美丽回忆
* (张洪量)越过道德的边境我们走过爱的禁区
享受幸福的错觉 误解了快乐的意义
(莫文蔚)是谁太勇敢 说喜欢离别
只要今天不要明天
眼睁睁看着爱从指缝中溜走 还说再见
(张洪量)不够时间好好来爱你
(莫文蔚)早该停止风流的游戏
(合唱)愿被你拋弃 就算了解而分离
不愿爱的没有答案结局
(张洪量)不够时间好好来恨你
(莫文蔚)终于明白恨人不容易
(合唱)爱恨消失前 用手温暖我的脸
为我证明我曾真心爱过你
(合唱)爱过你 爱过你 爱过你 爱过你 *
Repeat *

ArMy MeN..

Back home..

From one full nite of..eh, "illegal" activities?

Haha..

Tay's spot on abt e army talk thingy.. Really, a large part of e conversation last nite was abt army.. How was it, wat's it like...u get the gist..haha guess tt's juz guys n their army talk..sort of like "men's talk?" a bit diff though hehe..

Prob e last gathering till dunno when le..so sad..hehe but at least we sort of relived e sec4 life again..blackjack, or "ba la" as we so affectionately call it, became my 致命伤..lost ard 10 for tt..got thrashed in winning eleven too, though i couldn't really see la..haha dun care la..at least mahjong was a really exciting affair with all e 扛ing n 咬ing hehe..tt lasted us till ard 7 in e morning where we duly retired for e day haha..

Fun's over..well for now la..SAT's tmr..Didn't really study much for it..Juz hope my luck's good lo hehe..Visiting tay later after tt too..haha rushed, but at least time's well-spent..

hmmm..

specs..i need specs..

time..i need more time..

money..can nvr have enuff of it..

hair..it's time to say "buh-bye"..

haha..

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"Tears in Heaven"

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?

I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven.

Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.

Beyond the door,
There's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven.

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.

直觉;天天想你

<<直觉>>

心 是一个容器 不停的累积 关于你的点点滴滴
虽然我 总是守口如瓶 思念却满溢 溅湿了我眼睛 Wo
因为 我太想念你 所以才害怕 这孤独大的不着边际
若此刻能奔向你 我会毫不迟疑
直觉我们应属于彼此 否则我不会每次无法停止
想你想成了心事 等你等成了坚持 眼中渴望来不及掩饰又如此诚实
直觉我们应属于彼此 否则我不会常常若有所失
白天眨眼瞬间里 夜晚呼吸气息里 都写满了我是多么爱你想你的讯息

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<<天天想你>>

当我停立在窗前
你愈走愈远
我的每一次心跳
你是否听见
当我徘徊在深夜
你在我心田
你的每一句誓言
回荡在耳边
隐隐约约闪动的双眼
藏着你的羞怯 加深我的思念
两颗心的交界
你一定会看见 只要你愿意走向前
天天想你 天天问自己
到什么时候才能告诉你
天天想你 天天守住一颗心
把我最好的爱留给你

其实..

甲: 我不要你的承诺,不要你的永远..只要你真真切切爱我一遍..

乙: 咦? 为何唱起歌来呢?

甲: 都说了..夜已深..还有舍么人..哈哈, 废话连篇..

乙: 原来如此..难怪会精神分裂哈哈..

甲: 知道舍么? 精神分裂,也不一定是坏事哦...

乙: 你和你的歪道理..

甲: 道可道,非常道..名可名,非常名

乙: 不知你在说舍么了啦..我要见周公了..晚安咯..

甲: 了解..哈哈..

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"At The Beginning"

We were strangers
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
What we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me
I was going to find you
Unexpected
What you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Live is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers
On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming
How our dreams would come true
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Live is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Live is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep going on....
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road and I wanna going
Love is river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you.

闷...

好闷噢...

Ain't doing anything much these days.. Unless u count running errands as sth interesting.. Well at least they past e time la..

Yesterday.. Went NTU to get digicam from cy.. Haha waited for like 2 hrs b4 she woke up n passed it to me.. Maybe going in early does have its pros ya? At least i won't be idling my life away.. Sheesh i need to do sth constructive!!!

Thinking of getting e figurine we saw at orchard e other day.. Minature SoRa!!! Haha.. Prob gonna do it later.. If i can move my butt from e chair..

朋友啊..你们到哪去了???

Gonna go for prob e last training later.. Last training for dem till CNY celebrations finish, last training for me till i come out from camp? *Sobs*

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"Should I Stay"

Had a drive, driven by ur luv, but when u messed around, I lost the drive I found..
Thought u needed, needed someone true, but u changed ur mind, or had I failed u?
Wish u’d been careful with my heart, but u tore it apart, and broke an angel’s heart..
The kiss was true, has to end somehow, but I’m living proof of wad luv is abt..

It’s hard holding u, loving u, losing u, it’s sad to be true, and be fooled by u, I dun noe, I gotta noe, should I stay or should I go?

U played me on, played me lyk a clown, but I feel for u, even though I’m down..
My heart is heavy, heavy lyk a rock, but I am so amused, u’re still in my thoughts..

It’s hard holding u, loving u, losing u, it’s sad to be true, and be fooled by u, I dun noe, I gotta noe, should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh… should I stay? Should I go?

It’s hard holding u, loving u, losing u, it’s sad to be true, and be fooled by u, I dun noe, I wanna noe, should I stay or should I…?

This time its done, it’ll never feel the same, but we had some good times, guess it’s sad just the same..
I guess the truth, doesn’t matter somehow, but u were living proof of wad luv is abt…

倒数..

九天..

哦..

时间..不停地流逝..

婴孩..是睡眠和喂奶..

童年..是游戏及玩闹..

中学..是上课与运动..

初中..是风流跟快活..

进兵之后..时间,将会是舍?

是喜? 是苦? 是哀? 是乐?

看心喽..嘿嘿..

... ...

..等待..

MeLoDiEs Of LiFe..

"Melodies Of Life"

Alone for a while I've been searching through the dark,
For traces of the love you left inside my lonely heart,
To weave by picking up the pieces that remain,
Melodies of life - love's lost refrain.
Our paths they did cross, though I cannot say just why.
We met, we laughed, we held on fast, and then we said goodbye.
And who'll hear the echoes of stories never told?
Let them ring out loud till they unfold.

In my dearest memories, I see you reaching out to me.
Though you're gone, I still believe that you can call out my name.

A voice from the past, joining yours and mine.
Adding up the layers of harmony.
And so it goes, on and on.
Melodies of life,
To the sky beyond the flying birds - forever and beyond.

So far and away, see the birds as it flies by.
Gliding through the shadows of the clouds up in the sky.
I've laid my memories and dreams upon those wings.
Leave them now and see what tomorrow brings.

In your dearest memories, do you remember loving me?
Was it fate that brought us close and now leaves me behind?

A voice from the past, joining yours and mine.
Adding up the layers of harmony.
And so it goes, on and on.
Melodies of life,
To the sky beyond the flying bird - forever and on.

If I should leave this lonely world behind,
Your voice will still remember our melody.
Now I know we'll carry on.
Melodies of life,
Come circle round and grow deep in our hearts, as long as we remember.

泪海

<<泪海>>

爱已不能动 还有什么值得我心痛
想你的天空 下起雨来 没人心疼的黑夜
脸颊两行咸咸的泪水 是你 哦是你
让我望穿泪水 肝肠寸断 你怎么舍得让我的泪流向海
付出的感情永远 找不回来 你怎么舍得让我的爱流向海
伤心的往事一幕幕就像潮水 将我淹埋 闭上了双眼
还看见和你的缠绵 眼角的泪水 洗不去心中
一遍一遍的誓言

有故事的人

<<有故事的人 >>

走着忍着 醒着想着 看爱情悄悄近了
冷的暖的 甜的苦的 在心里缠绕成河
曲折的心情有人懂 怎么能不感动
几乎忘了昨日的种种 开始又敢做梦
我决定不躲了 你决定不怕了　
我们决定了让爱像绿草原滋长著
天地辽阔相遇多难得
都是有故事的人才听懂心里的歌
我决定不躲了 你决定不怕了　
就算下一秒坎坷这一秒是快乐的
曾经交心就非常值得
我要专注爱你不想别的没有忐忑

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心..好象渐渐找回来了..
实..却不肯罢休,不肯离去..
史..还存有着阴影..
时..也不留人了..

哦..我的天啊..

真想拔光头上的三千烦恼丝..哈哈..

NtU cOm..

Haha..

Life's getting more n more boring these days..

"Kinda sad to see u all leaving for camp.. Leaving juz e few of us goin in in march.."

Told ya life's full of unions n separations?

Haha..

Let's see.. Accompanied candice to see yan dai fu in e afternoon b4 training.. So many ppl tagged along haha, like bringing a bunch of kids to an outing.. He's still e same as always, with e grey shirt n khaki long pants.. Dun really think he remembers me though hehe.. Pity his shop's closed down, now have to do his practice at home.. otherwise think more wud have benefitted from his skills.. Didn't charge us too coz were wearing uniform.. Wat a kind-hearted man..

Training was, well, unprogressive? Think everyone felt kinda, eh, dead? Dun feel like doing anything much, sth like tt.. Stunts were accomplished la, but it's e time wasted tt's worrying.. It's like, do abit, den chat non-stop, den do again.. Juz couldn't feel e enthusiasm le.. Maybe it's juz me la, not giving a tot on whether they're tired or not..

Remember the good old times.. When each group will sweat it all out.. Each member encouraging each other on.. Spotting for other groups when they're done, giving pointers as well..

Guess tt's all in e past le ya? Memories.. To hold on to..

Ntu inter-hall cheerleading com was, pretty done to say e very least.. Though only ard 5 halls had professional help from you-know-who, it was still a show worth watching with all e funny antics n hilarious moments..

Pants split.. Hair ribbons dropped.. Failed tumbles.. Haha e list goes on n on..

Trying to recall e more impressive stunts.. Magnum-coached hall 1 did a 2-2-1 with e 1 being a shredder, den flip down.. hitch cradle with lib on e hitched leg.. Eh can't remember e hall which did e vannesa flip with twist, or e double table top.. Got a "single-ex" too, if u get wat i mean hehe.. Got this shoulder sit with twist dismount haha.. Simple yet nice..

Hmmm hall 5 failed in 2 major stunts, think tt cost dem alot.. But their pair dance's very nice.. E single chair combi was impressive too.. Hehe big improvement from wat we saw initially la.. Good job guys!! There's always next year haha..

"Faint" ---Linkin Park..

1000 WoRdS..

"1000 words"

I know that your hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily
I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You fight your battles far from me
Far too easily

"Save your tears cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
You steal my soul
To hide the pain, when I turn back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I cried my eyes out and begged you not to part
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart

Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though I can't see
I know they are reaching you, suspended on silver wings
Oh a thousand words
A thousand embraces
Will cradel you
Making all of your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever

Oh a thousand words (a thousand words)
Have never been spoken (ohh yeah)
They'll fly to you
They'll carry you home, (carry you home) and into my arms
Suspended on silver wings (on silver wings!)
And a thousand words (ohh)
Call out through the ages (call through the ages!)
They'll cradel you (ohh yeah)
Make all of the loneliest your lonely days (lonely days)
They'll hold you forever.

Ohhhhhhhhhhh a thousand words

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Life's full of unions n separations.. Whether it's for a short term or forever it's always sth tt'll affect us, well at least a little? haha..

To all those leaving for ns in e days to come, take care n all e best.. Haven't been in touch with some ppl for some time le, guess it'll have to be a few more yrs time b4 we'll finally meet.. To all those whom i've been with e past holidays.. Well.. I'm gonna miss u guys.. Hehe.. Do behave urselves ya? Haha..

Hehe, as expected, only abt half of those who signed up act turned up to try out.. Was a pleasant number already though, everyone had their hands full trying to teach each group e very basics.. Hopefully subsequent trainings will be juz as fun, n tt this batch will be able to continue on e legacy tt we left behind..

Haha too late at night le.. Dun feel like typing much.. Juz one last thing.. E song above's really nice, from Final Fantasy X-2 soundtrack, but not many will be able to listen to it though..

A song tt transcends age.. A song with e power to unify millions.. Hehe..

EyEs On Me..

haha back from jog again.. told ya i'm gonna keep to my promise ya? haha..

surprise surprise.. living room's com's revamped!! now running on windows xp n w/o all e rubbish tt was either d/l or installed.. hehe but it ain't gonna be long la.. sigh e younger gen always get e betta stuffs.. n i ain't gonna enjoy using this com for long le, so might as well make full use of it when i can haha..

think i really amazed myself juz now.. first it was one.. den 2.. den all of a sudden, i was msging 6 ppl at e same time, all abt diff stuffs.. was a pretty funny scene i guess, finish typing on one phone, den while in e midst of sending, picked up another phone n started replying to tt msg.. ain't sth cheap though haha..

so many forbidden things these days.. haha can't mention dem here rite? 3 in all.. 3 outings, forbidden to speak of, well, at least to a certain group of ppl.. haha n diff groups too.. n no surprise tt forbidden things taste great, or so to speak.. hehe..

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"Eyes On Me"

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage,on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw your smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy?
You´d always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar.

My last night here for you
Same old songs,just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes,maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh,did you ever know
That I had mine on you?.

Darling,so there your are
With that look on your face
As if you´re never hurt
As if you´re never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
Did your ever know
That I had mine on you?

Darling,so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you´re holding back
Or pain if that´s what it is
How can I let you know
I´m more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you´re not dreaming.

Darling,so there your are
With that look on your face
As if you´re never hurt
As if you´re never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

ShOcK..

haha taking a break from e schizophrenic self..

juz came back from e suppose-to-be-routine jog.. e first of e yr i guess.. man 3 weeks left till i enroll in, have to get into pretty good shape by den.. i mean, really good shape.. haha.. jia you lo..

anyway jogged passed this couple juz now.. think i gave e lady quite a shock coz she suddenly screamed.. haha e guy got to thank me den, for making her jump into his embrace.. hehe wearing black does have its pros ya? haha..

got dragged into e cca carnival routine by tay.. think there's 3 performance tmr? didn't really feel tt good tt day while practising, prob coz not use to being back base most of the time.. yucks..

forgot to mention sth yesterday.. Lord of the Rings was a surprising smash hit at the ps2 box office during e chalet, beating perennial favourite winning eleven.. guess e movie did lots on e popularity of e story ya? haha did a bit of role-play while leaving e chalet for home too.. damn funny.. damn crappy too.. pity such scenes won't occur in prob another yr or 2 le..

if only i could turn back time...

"Truly Madly Deeply" ---Savage Garden...

找不到心.. .

甲: 回来咯..

乙: 回来就会来吗,有舍么大不了..

甲: 回到这里,where i wanna be..

乙: 好了好了,别唱了..

甲: 舍么根舍么吗..

乙: 唱的这么难听,要死啊?

甲: 不理你了啦..
(双眼交叉,伸出舌头)
乙: 话说回来,这几天过得..?

甲: 哦,还不错,就像往常一样,和4F在一起,就只有玩闹,没有烦恼..玩游戏机,打
麻将,晚上踢足球..人生还需要舍么呢?唯一的遗憾,就是这可能是最后几次的
聚会了..大家都已长大,也无法回到以前无忧无虑的生活了..

乙: 原来你也有沮丧的时候啊?哈哈..

甲: 也不是沮丧啦,只是觉得时间真是不等人..在多两年,就不是十几岁的学生,而
是二十几岁的成年人喽..不说以后,下个礼拜就有大多数的人进兵了..嗨..

乙: 别伤心了..又不是世界末日..

甲: 哈哈,有可能哦..

乙: 大笨蛋!再说这种话,我就捏人咯!哈哈..

甲: 烦啊..烦啊..

乙: 烦舍么?

甲: 烦..没东西咯..哈哈..是否我,真的一无所有???王杰的歌哦..

乙: 哈哈,你到底没有舍么?

甲: 我没有钱..

乙: 还以为是舍么大不了的事情呢..钱只是身外物,没有就去赚吗..

甲: 也不只没有钱啦..

甲: 我..没有心..不,是找不到心..

乙: ???

甲: ...

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人不花心,只是感情丰富罢了..哈哈..

"风一样的男子" ---陈晓东..