Wednesday, December 10, 2003

ChAnCe Or ChOiCe?

Chance or Choice

When we meet the right person to love, when we're at the right place at the right time, that's chance.

When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance.

Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance.

The difference is what happens afterwards. When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level?

That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling.

If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that's not a chance. That's choice.

When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice.

Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice.

Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance.
But true love that lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make.

Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this: Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen.

I do believe that soul mates do exist. That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not. We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mate is still a choice we have to make.

We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love... BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person
perfectly..


do cherish all the ple ard you.. (=

Cheers~

Monday, December 08, 2003

ChRoNo CrOsS..

"What was the start of all this?
When did the cogs of fate begin to turn?

Perhaps it is impossible to grasp that answer now,
From deep within the flow of time...

But, for a certainty, back then,
We loved so many, yet hated so much,
We hurt others and were hurt ourselves...

Yet even then we ran like the wind,
Whilst our laughter echoed,
Under cerulean skies..."
---Chrono Cross

Sunday, December 07, 2003

Jc...

It's been 2 years..

Not too long, yet not too short either..

"Time flies when u're happy.."

Still remember this phrase from the june chalet, n it still brings a smile to my face..

Suddenly the big pic seems all so clear..

So has ur jc life been short or long?

Lalala..

So much has passed by during these 2 years.. Nvr really liked nj for its admin stuff, but the ppl there have certainly given me a wonderful time.. Esp the cl ppl, the crazy bunch of buddies who toss ppl ard like nobody's business, sing and dance the house down,and lots of other stuff tt "pandemonium" wud be a good word to describe.. Not to forget the soccer khakis who's brotherhood was forged on the basketball courts of nj.. Seriously, thanx for everything..

W flew back home to sarawak today.. And stupid me almost didn't make it to the flight.. Missed 4 trains coz tot the train bound for changi still operates from je.. So it was a dramatic 5 min dash thru e arrival hall to bk and another 5 min of photo taking b4 she left, with tears in her eyes.. I guess life juz won't be the same w/o her ya? Not gonna see her anytime soon in the near future, all of us have our own commitments.. At least i was able to bade her goodbye.. Juz in time..

深深的相信, 有那么一天, 阳光普照的这么一天, 我们将会再次重逢.. 离别随痛苦, 但没有离别, 那来得欢聚?

We're missing u already.. Everyone of us.. And if u're reading this at home, dun forget tt there's still this bunch of ppl back here waiting for u to come back one day.. In the meantime, take care, god bless, n may the goddess of luck, fortune, happiness and everything good shine upon u.. Always..

"朋友" ---周华健

Saturday, December 06, 2003

ClUbBiNg..

Yeah it's over!!!

Came home early in e morning coz it was too noisy to sleep in the room.. Guess induz3 was really a tiring place to go ya? Everyone went keesiao inside there, think it was act much more fun den at mandarin hotel floor 5, which was juz food and a bit of entertainment from e host.. Lost both my money n my voice, though it was one heck of an experience..=)

Anyway saw this girl in red top who took a 2nd look at me when i was walkin into the pub( haha coz i took a 2nd look at her too => ) Kinda think she's a kindergarden fren, but not so sure so didn't ask..

Haha now i know wat kind of lifestyle really suits me.. It ain't those formal dinner where strict dress codes are imposed, it's those activities tt i can do anything i wan, wear anything i wan.. Guess tt's kinda like wat most ppl wan?

"My Heart will go on.." ---Celine Dion
(Timeless classic..)

Monday, December 01, 2003

回来..

<<回来>>

喜欢一个人去冒险
自由自在飞
闭上眼闯入天空
梦想跟着变大

世界究竟舍么样
不是我想象
那样清楚 那么简单
容易 找不到自己

回到这里 where I want to be
一个熟悉声音向我召唤
这里有我的记忆
给我 补充了温暖

回来 the feeling's so right
给我一个夏天经过伤痕
时间会变成坚强
再次微笑 出发

Wednesday, November 26, 2003

FiNiShInG..

Last paper tmr.. Yet the lifting of a huge burden is not felt..

Why?

Isn't it good?

Well on one hand not being stressed abt the paper shows a certain level of maturity, though in my case it's a lack of it.. On the other hand it means a lack of seriousness in life.. Hmmm maybe tt ain't tt bad after all..

Haiya rubbish..

So many things to do after the a's..

Soccer..

Socialising..

Playing games..

Eh.. Tt's all??? Sigh there's really nothing much to do here in our small island man.. Or did i left anything out?

Should be going down for ntu training next week.. Ppl's been spreading word abt me, quite paiseh if i dun live up to their expectations.. so need to get back in shape!!

An old fren called last nite.. At cmpb now doing clerical work.. Hehe was quite pleasantly surprised by the call, den
again, got the info tt training in hendon's gonna be hell.. 3 times the normal bmt, 5 times tt of gym training.. Hmmm, seriously speaking, i'm kinda looking forward to seeing wat it's like.. guess i'll go keesiao when i finally come out of the "cage"..

Should go study now, but, u know..

"I will survive" ---Gloria Gaynor..
(Haha i'll keep this song in mind in camp!)

Wednesday, November 19, 2003

OvEr...SoOn...

3 subs over liao.. Now left with physics only.. Sigh guess prob can aim for (AB)^2 only.. Didn't perform to expectation for econs and fm.. Pia physics liao i guess, but den again, been slacking for so long.. Sigh, think this is easily one of the slackest, if not the slackest, exams i've ever taken.. Well it's gonna be over soon, so havoc Should reign supreme when it ends..=)

Been getting more and more in touch with soccer, both on and off the field.. Was watching this nike freestyle tournament at youth park, and boy were the ppl impressive with their ball tricks..Haha, 人外有人 i guess..Winning 11 and vs2 are pretty addictive too.. Guess tt's gonna be my life liao, soccer soccer and more soccer.. Well at least i've stopped betting on matches.. Well, at least for now.. Hehe..

Cl com's not gonna be held.. Cheers pulled out in the end.. Sigh juz as well, dun think the squad's act will be ready for the com, judging from wat i hear.. Seriously speaking, i think he does things all for the sake of the team, juz tt the way he goes abt it may not agree with ppl.. And he thinks big, really big.. C'mon man, 每个人都有自己的梦想,所有的伟人都是梦想家。。Den again, it's a harsh world we're living in, so maybe..hmm, a tea session? But how many has gone by w/o seeing much improvement.. Haiz..

A point to note:同一屋檐下was damn nice, the song as well.. Pity it was short though.. I guess any show tt's close to the heart will be nice, ya? Haha..

One final note:寻找,寻找,寻找。。
“回来” ---Jeff Wang, theme song of 同一屋檐下。。

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

IdEnTiTy...

When I walked up the stairs,

I saw a man who wasn't there...

He wasn't there the next day,

I wish, I wish,

He was never there...

--Identity...

Monday, November 10, 2003

At ThE bEgInNiNg..

A single message...

A simple greeting...

That's all it took to bring us back to the start...

Guess we've finally grown up, ya?

Forgive and forget...

If only we knew that right from the start...

A new start...

A new beginning...

But it'll never be the same again...

...

...

...

Fly high for a's people!!!

Chun Zhen --- Mayday...

Monday, October 27, 2003

爱...?

“我爱上让我奋不顾身的一个人。。。

我以为这就是我所追求的世界。。。”

情不自禁。。。

却开不了口。。。

爱-简单?

哈 哈 哈。。。

。。。

。。。

。。。

“受罪” ---张信哲。。。

Friday, October 24, 2003

I'vE gOt A qN...

好久以前就想问你这个问题了。。。

却没有这份勇气。。。

也没有这个机会。。。

时间不多了。。。

不知以后的我们是否会再碰面。。。

好吧,那我就问了。。。

。。。

。。。

你喜不喜欢。。。

。。。

。。。

。。。

“布拉格广场” ---蔡依林

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

天使..

难忘的一天。。

天使般的脸孔。。

尽然从身边擦身而过。。

上天真是会戏弄人。。

这就叫“有缘无分?”

“缘分只能让你们相遇,恋爱还是需要实际的行动。。”

啊。。好心痛啊。。

“Lovely" ---Michelle Tumes..

Wednesday, October 01, 2003

cHiLdReN's DaY..

A new month..

A new beginning..

Well not really la, every month's turnover will only see one thing new.. Msg count..

Ar rubbish..

Haven't been updating od for so long.. Heck, haven't even been online for the same period of time.. Either there's connection prob, or too tired, or too lazy.. Hehe prelim period does have 1 thing +ve in it, tt is the time to sleep every afternoon after the morning papers..

Well, didn't fare really well in prelims, guess i really shud start studying soon..Juz kinda pissed at getting screwed of marks for case study.. Next time i'll juz phrase it such tt the examiners are 心服口服..

Ain't really involve in any sensible conversation these few days.. At least not really going in depth.. Guess tt's wat the exam period does to ppl.. Soccer was at an alltime high, almost every single break at the court.. Maybe a bit exaggerate, but ya.. Haha dun care la..

Self-proclaim break's gonna end soon..Hopefully can get back to the gear when starting study again.. In the meantime helping out the needy now.. Hey, it's not all tt hard to pass promos kay? Juz remember the concepts and know how to apply them.. Easier said den done.. Anyway, other den tt can always start having prayer sessions and hope tt they're answered..

Hehe, no life, so not much to crap now.. Dun worry though, it's only a passing period...=)

To all those who're still very much in touch with their inner child, happy children's day!!!

"晴天" ---周杰伦!!!

Monday, September 15, 2003

喜欢..

"我看,改次还是跟班的人一起坐吧..."

"噢,随你的意..."

呵呵,真的发生了..

惨喽,在这个时候又再度陷入情网..而且上一段才刚过去不久呢..

男人真的经不起诱惑吗?真是的,女人的吸引力真的那么大?能使模范丈夫出跬?这可能就是所谓的"七年之痒"..

当然,也不能全全怪到女人头上..相信在许许多多的恋情里,女性所付出的感情是最多地,分离时也是最痛苦的..

问世间情为何物?只叫人生死想许..

意中的对象,难如登天..

不速之客,永追不舍..
Guess tat's wat makes life so full of interest and zest, eh?

小时候..
"哟,有人喜欢某某人噢.."
无忧无虑,根本不知爱情真正的意义何在..
你喜欢我,我喜欢你,但没人真正去试着了解对方..

中学时..
很不/有幸的,在个和尚中学..
不守规矩的和尚多之又多,也不之门路从何找出..
但还是存有着一个小小的"小狗"恋情..
被嘲笑得好残噢..

高中时..
回想起来,可能是太冲动了,或是思考被迷惑了..
嗨,也别提了,往事不堪回首..
学了一件事,女人不好惹..

以后..
以后的道路模糊一片,不知未来会带来舍么..
相信..深信.."她"一定在灯火岚山处..
等待..守候..那一天的到来..
该会是..将会是..美丽故事的起头..
一次就好..不用太多..因为破碎的心是很难弥补的..

但..
如上帝把你遗忘了..
月老的红线刚好用完了..
邱比特也休假去了..
哎哟,糟糕咯..

别气馁,别沮丧..
自己的幸福,要自己去争取..
早回自己..
红线自己拉..
..
..
..
但可别乱射噢!!!

哈哈,神经咯..

"向左走,向右走" ---梁咏琪..

Friday, September 12, 2003

PaRaNoRmAl..

Hehe juz came back from admiralty..Gonna slack a while online b4 starting work again..Sigh..

Anyway was surfing the sfogs website a few days ago, den came acros the topic on marbles in the forum..One such article kinda summarizes the discussion, or at least touch a bit on it..

"Never gave any serious thoughts about all those rolling marbles coming from upstairs late in the nite until I come onto this forum.

I have always thought it must be some kids doing it and quietly curse the parents for not disciplining them. There were occassions where it sounded almost like a bowling ball dropping and rolling across the room upstairs and I came so close to confronting them but as usual, being late in the nite and already half asleep in bed, I just put up with it as it usually last only a few minutes.

Now it seems that this is not a simple case of kids playing with marbles/bowling balls, not the usual kids at least. It's definitely not sheer coincidence that we have some many children living in HDB flats that like to play marbles in the middle of the nite. I have children of my own but they don't play with marbles. Come to think of it, most of my friends kids also don't have marbles in their inventory of toys becos it is a dangerous item as toddlers may swallow it by accident.

So who or what is making that noise?"

Well, i personally dun feel tt little kids will be playing marbles in the dead of the nite, when everyone's sleeping..Some other reasons were given too..

One practical explanation..
"the only time i have experienced this marble thingy before is when i sleep over at my uncles place at marine crescent....it does not create any creepy feelings but rather of curiosity...i always wonder who the hell would play marble at 2/3 am in the morning..i know i won't...but never put much thought to it...
i guess if u think about it logically, it could be the sound made by the contraction of metals...as u know, the concrete used in the building of walls and ceilings are bonded together with steel rods(reinforcement bars) these bars contracts and expand like all metals / it could even be the water pipes in the ceiling...the sound of the marbles could actually be the sound of metals contracting.....u might ask ..that the sound of metals contracting could never sound like marbles dropping ..it would definitely be more like creaking sound...but if u watched war movies where submarines are involved u will realise that this is quite possible...the submarines creaked and a metal hittin sound were made as the thing submerged in to water where pressure drop drastically...well this is just a theory anyway..i could not vouch for it's total truth either but it's worth thinkin about.."

Reasonable enuff, but seriously speaking, does the contraction and expansion of metal sounds like marbles rolling? Maybe..But wat abt the case of furnitures?

Less practical explanation..
"hello. First time here. Browsing and browsing and came across this topic. It sort of freaked me out, because I was chatting with a buddy once. He's a Malay and had attended some courses on natural healing or something with some holy religious teacher. This teacher told him that Djinns or genies still live among humans here, even in HDB flats, but they live in-between levels. Says if u keep hearing 'marble' sounds, it means the floor above is occpied. Donno how true. Scary huh? "

Hehe, scary, but possibly the truth..

Another possibility..
"i have been talking to this architect friend of mine. I told him about the marble issues. And here is his exlaination.

Its like they too are a bunch of superstitious fellow. So everytime they pile the metal pieces into the ground, they will cement a few marbles with it. So this will go on till the last piece of metal is pile it. by doing this, they are actually hoping the when at nite, the young spirits will play with the marbles instead of the people staying in the building, thats why u often hear sounds and stuff liddat at nite, even if u are living in a one story building.

But after hearing my explaination, do try to hear those sounds again....it seems that people who finally know the reasons....stop hearing these sounds....... "

So which one do u believe..?

Hehe, dun get nightmares hor...=)

"Shen Ah Jiu Jiu Wo!" --Chen Xiao Chun..
(Haha appropriate song?)

Tuesday, September 09, 2003

WaLk LeFt, WaLk RiGhT..

Sheesh..

Feeling unwell today so stayed at home all day..Slept for most of the time, now online a while trying to get back to daily life routine..Can't seem to start studying too..Even if i start, dun think i'll absorb much in this state..Sigh..Time running out liao..How? How? How?!?

Taking solace in the fact tt 'a's the one tt really matters, not prelims..Hmmm..Still..Haiya..

Watched "向左走,向右走" last nite, courtesy of the promotions gig by 933..Nice wud be an understatement..Tt show was awesome! Well for me anyway..Some cried coz of the misfortune of the cast, being unable to meet each other though they're always only a short distance apart from each other, yet others laughed at the various humorous dialogues and comments made by the cast..Well, at least it ended on a happy note, typical of most movies..Go watch the show ppl!! Even if it means sacrificing 2hrs of ur time..

Jac juz msged, telling me to take care and all tt..Funny thing is, i only told 1 person tt i'm not feeling well..Hmmm..

May be witnessing another union of the hearts within the class..Someone's been getting real close with another, studying together, sharing food and all the stuff..Haha, 南洋的女生真的有那么多魅力吗? We shall see..

Ok shall slack a while more, den try to start on revision..
Try..

"Song 2" ---Blur...

ReViSiOn..

Yeah..

Finally started on revision..Well not much, but it's a start..Hopefully can muster the strength to continue later, otherwise will continue to slack in front of com and tv..Sheesh..

Class's pretty "hot" this past week..Went out with them to eat pizza hut on tue, den on thurs went ktv..Haha sang till our throats were dry and voices hoarse..6 whole hrs, and only $50+! Wat a deal..

Was part of the crowd on the overbridge on thur, before going down "cha xuan"..Got the tic in the end, but it was from a female classmate who didn't wanna go..Left the queue halfway coz of the rampant queue-cutting..良心发现..Read the papers the next day, saw the whole report of the incident, which isn't really very +ve..Fren was telling me while i was leaving tt everyone was doing the same thing, so why care so much? Realised tt in the end it is this kinda attitude tt made ppl act the way they do..I stick to the belief tt one shud remain true to oneself, and stick to his principles..

Anyway, kinda screwed my exams so far..Hopefully can recover during the hols, or at least b4 the A's..The phrase "social conditioning" comes into mind again..In any society, the tots and actions of ppl are usually closely related to their surroundings..Witnessing all these now..Everyone's either busy revising or consulting tutors, asking them for advice..I mean, if there was no need for good grades to get a good job, abt how many ppl will be left in the library? C'mon, not everyone's born to study..Who act enjoys spending time slogging at work? Reality is cruel though, and forces ppl to be practical in their approaches towards life..

Well, tt's the sad fact..Sad, but true..Guess tt's part of the reason why games and novels are so popular among the enthusiasts..They kinda allow u to take on an entirely diff role from life, and lets u experience things otherwise unavailable in the real world..Some ppl say it's only a temporary escape, there's no point avoiding..*shrug* On the other hand, there are others who are able to learn and appreciate the complexity of the characters they assume, and hence derive new tots and feelings..

"情网" --张学友

Monday, September 01, 2003

ScH..

Haven't really been updating the od, been busy and all the stuff..

Prelims coming real soon..Haven't started on any revision though..Dun know wat i'm thinking la, juz dun feel like studying at all..

Interesting to realise how my life has turned out to be w/o cl..Juz whole days of lazing ard..Tt is, once my study momentum has broken..Sigh..Once fm mock's over, it's juz slacking and slacking and slacking..Btw got a d for it..Sheesh..

Passion for soccer's been stirred up again..Played on fri and sat, did cip for soccermania too..(Was on tv btw, haha..)Running thru comics too..Now look a bit like black pepper crab, a bit red and a bit black..

Hair's getting too long for comfort..Prob cut it during the hols..

Sch's coming to an end..So soon..12 yrs in all..Wonder wat's life like w/o sch..W/o uniforms..teachers..students..innocent joy and laughter..

Weird huh? Tt sometimes u hate to get up in the morning to go to sch, and yet at times u can't wait to meet ur frens..Haha guess this is really "失去了才懂得珍惜"..

18 yrs..Gonna be 19 in 6 mths' time..and 20 in 18 mths' time..Tt's 1/4 of my life gone..Wonder wat's it gonna be like in say 20 yrs' time? 40?

Ah..

"我吃的起苦"--动力火车..

Saturday, August 23, 2003

肋骨..

恋爱的时候,女孩问男孩

"告诉我,这世上你最爱的人是谁?"

"你呀!小傻瓜.."

"那么,在你心里,我是舍么?"

男孩思索了一会儿

认真的看着她的眼睛

"你是我身体的一根肋骨.."

"圣经上说,造物主见男人太寂寞..在他沉睡时,取他身上一根肋骨,创造了女人..
每个男人都在寻找自己的那根肋骨..只有找到她,他的胸口才不会隐隐地痛.."

婚后..

二人曾度过好长一段甜蜜快乐的时光

因为年轻啊

繁忙的生活使人疲惫 琐碎的烦恼如蚁

居家的日子越来越平淡庸俗

现实生活的重重磨擦 慢慢吞噬着所有的梦想与爱情

不知舍么时候开始

他们之间的争吵于怨恨越来越多 越来越重

某次争吵后

她跑出了家门

隔着大街

他听见她在街对面冲他喊

"你根本不爱我!"

他恨她的幼稚

伤害的话冲口而出

"也许我们结合错误了..你根本不是我身上的那根肋骨.."

她忽然安静了

怔怔的站了好久

他有些后悔

但说出来的话象泼出去的水

是收不回来的

含着泪

回家收拾了所有东西

执意与他分手

她在离去前对他说

"如果我不是你的肋骨,那么让我走吧..与其痛苦,不如解脱..让我们各自寻找自己真正的另一半.."

分别五年..

他一直没有再婚..

他辗转听说她的消息

出国了 回来了

与一个外国人再婚了 又离婚了

她竟然没有等他

午夜梦回的黑夜中

他点起一根香烟

胸口在隐隐地痛

他不愿意承认是想念她的缘故

终于重遇..

在制造无数离别与重逢的机场上

他率团出国考察

隔着一道安检门

她独自站在入口处

平静地对他微笑

"你好吗?"

"我很好,你呢?"

"你找到自己的那根肋骨了吗?"

"没有!"

"我下班飞机往纽约.."

"我半个月后回来..回来给我电话好吗?你知道我的号码..舍么都没有变.."

她回头对他一笑 "再见.."

再见是永远不再见吗?

一星期后..

他知悉了她的死讯

她在纽约丧生

在那场举世震惊的悲剧事件中

午夜..

他再次点起一根香烟

胸口又在隐隐地痛

他终于知道

她

就是他不小心

弄断的那根肋骨..

Monday, August 18, 2003

BiG wAlK...

Hehe...

Slept like a pig yesterday aftr the big walk..From 3pm to 5pm the next day? Gosh a whole 14 hrs! Haha so slack..The cip as well, the whole day juz taking photos with the mp and shaking his hand..Haha..Feel bad abt taking the hrs though..Hmmm..

Fm mock's this sat..Sigh haven't really studied for it, juz doing daily work now..Prelims coming in ard 3 weeks time too..Sheesh, guess i'm the only one who hasn't really started on work yet..Hmmm can't get myself started as well..Lots of inertia in this engine ya? Hard to start but real easy to stop..

Ppl are getting real muggy..Guess once the day draws near,挡也挡不了的时候,人就会不知觉地,开始发奋图强..Think i shud too..So wat am i doing here???

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

<<来生缘>>

寻寻觅觅 在无声无息中消逝
总是找不到回忆 找不到曾被遗忘地真实
一生一时的过去 你一点一滴的遗弃
痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失去你 
也许分开不容易 也许相亲相爱不可以
痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失自己
情深缘浅不得意 你我也知道去珍惜 
只好等在来生里再踏上彼此故事的開始

生生世世 在无穷无尽地梦里 
偶而翻起了日記 翻起了你我之间的故事 
一段一段的回忆 回忆已经没有意义
痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失去你 
也许分开不容易 也许相亲相爱不可以
痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失自己
情深缘浅不得意 你我也知道去珍惜 
只好等在来生里再踏上彼此故事的開始

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好久以前的歌了..

还记得第一次听这首歌时是再看古惑仔时..
血淋淋的刘得华..摩多车..丧失兄弟与女友..
噢..好凄惨的一部电影..

好怀念过去的日子哦..

小时候无忧无虑的日子..

嗨..