4F LiVeS oN..

Hehe, guess won't have much face to go to sch when it reopens liao.. Hundreds of "door-gifts" will be given out, n ya, everyone of them has my face on it.. Sigh.. Blessing in disguise? Haha certainly hope so..

Feels really bad to have no money.. Been window shopping for so many days, n nth bought.. maybe tt's wat prompted me to look for a job, but den again, there're other reasons for me to not look for a job.. The lazy nature me should be deciding to slack my way till ns haha, n curb my materialistic nature at the same time..

Had fish n co again at glasshouse opp ps.. But this was like, a gang outing of sorts haha.. Think we were like a thunderstorm everywhere we went, with loud, foul language strewn all over our conversation.. But tt's juz normal la.. Been sometime since we had a gathering of this scale, but the 4f spirit's still as strong as ever, if not stronger..
Really glad to have this bunch of frens..

Staying over someone's place usually means bouts of ps2 games, which indirectly results in us playing soccer on the road whilst searching for the place haha.. Guess "winning eleven's" the only thing tt we can agree on, except for maybe "grand theft auto", which was pretty sadistic la haha.. Most fell asleep in the midst of "Italian Job" despite it being a good show, maybe the little bit of vodka's kicking in? haha..

"I'm sorry for spoiling ur night.."

Well, i guess it's act the other way round, we being unable to lessen ur pain n help u out.. Love isn't everything man, there're many other things in life ya? U'll always have us to fall back on..

"U're thinking with ur brain instead of ur heart.."

Guess there's a bit of truth?

"It's only human nature to expect more.."

Very much the case in lots of ppl's situation..

No black or white, no right or wrong..

Theoretically speaking, it's e feeling tt counts, but tt's up to one's belief, n is a pretty extreme case too.. In reality, we usually fall prey to the external factors, which are ever-present..

I'm juz a kid..

"一场游戏一场梦" ---王杰...

男女之间

<<男女之间>>

女人最怕男人是一堆沙猪 男人最怕女人脑袋像浆糊
女人通常都是感情的动物 男人大半都是生活的侏儒
女人可以爱的义无反顾 男人只能爱到相当程度
女人失恋容易另寻出路 男人失恋可就万劫不复
男女之间永远说不清楚 互相厌恶又互相追逐
彼此可以找出千万的错误 却是五十步笑百步
女人对爱要求需索无度 男人总是显得马马虎虎
女人好不容易决定开始 男人却好像刚要结束
女人的泪可以融化冰雪 男人的哭却是山崩地裂
女人的坚强是金石不变 男人的温柔是沧海一粟
女人的胸前是男人的家 男人的肩膀是女人的床
女人希望男人像一棵大树 男人渴望的是精神支柱
男女之间永远说不清楚 互相厌恶又互相追逐
彼此可以找出千万的错误 却是五十步笑百步
女人说谎保证是天衣无缝 男人说谎终究是百密一疏
女人懂得演戏是一种天赋 男人永远败在经验不足
女人认为爱情是一种付出 男人总是把它当作一种征服
女人好不容易决定开始 男人却好像刚要结束
女人好不容易决定开始 男人却好像刚要结束

OuTiNgS...

Lots of outing these days, so lets see, where shall i start?

Gym outing on mon, was suppose to be watching lotr, but it was a bit too long, so we settled with a simple dinner at some soup place with free flow of bread in suntec, den fooled ard at the sky garden..Relived all the old memories at the playground there, where we did all the high bar n some floor moves too.. All rusty liao, muscles aching juz after a while.. Got some pretty good shots after tt too, juz waiting for it to be uploaded now..

B4 tt was yet another ntu training act, but i guess they've got to the point where we'll juz sit and watch n point out the mistakes instead of act doing it.. Guess she can almost handle them all by herself now, so should be going down only if i'm free? Haha which is always the case anyway..

Pulled out of e pilot interview last min yesterday, n i shan't live to regret it.. Wat's so scary abt commandos? Believe in urself, n u can do it.. Haha act quite dramatic too, coz e whole conversation was held in front of many ppl, n i guess they were all pretty shock at this guy choosing commandos over pilot.. Well at least i didn't get rejected by them, i rejected them haha.. yeah!

Finally watched lotr with the guys after tt.. Tay was pretty embarassing, exclaiming "yes!!" at certain parts of the movie, luckily wasn't sitting beside him.. Anyway the movie was great, save for the fact tt maybe the war scene was a bit short, at least it felt shorter den the previous installment.. but all in all it was a good show la, good triumph over evil, peace reign, wat more can u ask for? go watch it if u haven't.. Act hoping for a movie on the Belgariad now, tt'll be an epic man..

Will be going for a session of ktv after this, it's been so long.. Guess after this, i'll have met most of my frens duing the hols liao.. Either going out with them, or meeting them during the outings haha.. Cool rite? Guess tt's an achievement liao hehe..

Wc asked a qn..And i answered.. but is it e truth, or is it denial? *no idea*

"练习" ---刘得华..

ChRiStMaS...

Haha 1st of all, MeRrY cHrIsTmAs!!! ^.^

Spread e joy thru e whole list of ppl in my phonebook.. Guess e bill this mth's not gonna be cheap, but well, when was it ever?

Saw this chiobu on e train on e way to parkway.. Was very much surprised when she met her frens on e next stop.. Haha act think it's e rare moments when u hear profanities strewn all over e gal's speech.. Guess u really can't judge a book by its cover? It had, surprisingly, a bit of spunk hidden though.. Haha i'm pretty sure i didn't get my msg thru..

Only 3 went to ktv in e end, including me.. Felt so dwarfed act haha.. Had to pay at festive price, but fren was kind enuff to take care of e extra so only paid 10.. Think i'm only suited for certain songs in ktv coz of e notes to hit.. Haha but as long as it's juz 清唱 i've no qualms on any song..

Lets see..

Long-distance.. Third party.. Personality.. Maturity.. Get e drift? Haiz.. Tt juz abt covers all? I dunno.. More entries are strictly not welcomed haha..

Wat will u do if u like this gal, n u wan to tell ur very good pal abt it, but b4 u do it, he tells u first tt he likes e gal? Will u 1) Tell him abt ur feelings towards e gal too or 2) Keep ur feelings a secret?

Maybe e qn lacks a bit of info.. E intentions? Are u gonna do tell him so as to win e gal's heart fair n square? Or are u gonna keep it a secret n 成全 e both of dem? Or are u gonna observe situation n act accordingly, with urself in e knowledge of everything..

And e gal? Who will she act choose? And will she change her decision coz of the actions u've taken?

And are u willing to potentially lose this friendship with ur good pal?

There's juz so many things to consider, n e fact tt each decision triggers a chain of events means tt a proper choice muz be made rite from e start..

My qn is, is there a proper way out of it? Is someone bound to be hurt? How to minimise e pain den?

Hmm, maybe, juz maybe, i guess i'll probably keep it a secret n give dem my blessings? There many other "flowers" ard, n a well established friendship is hard to come by as well.. So suffer in silence?

Wah so伟大..

好人难做, 好人难做,好人真的那么难做吗?
说真的, 好人可能有两种噢..
在别人瞩目下的好人, 需承受他人的赞赏与谴责, 是难做得好人..
不受他人眼光的好人, 则任劳任怨, 默默的耕耘, 为群服务..
但这种好人, 没人知, 没人晓, 又有谁肯担任呢?

"海市蜃楼" ---Jolin Tsai..

ViEwS..

Haha..

Kinda cool tt diff ppl will have diff perspectives and view of the same thing, but tt's juz as expected coz there're no 2 minds tt are exactly the same, probably juz similar.. So i have the skeleton, others have the flesh and skin haha.. Dun think many will understand wat i'm saying, but juz refer to the previous entry for a vague idea..

Neutral.. Hmmm is tt the image i portray? Maybe it's a sub-conscious thing.. But den again, it's much clearer for me to sit on the fence coz there's no preference to either sides.. Also it's easy for me to speak to both sides and hear their views.. Though it's kinda like, undecided as to wat i really wan..

Na, tt's too deep to go into.. Dun wanna think like a gal haha.. Tt's the good point abt being a guy i guess.. Not much tots are put on the actions of ppl, rather they're directed somewhere else, usually on how to enjoy life.. Den again, it makes life become kind of superficial, though it does avoid lots of probs and confrontations, which causes lots of headaches.. Hmmm, i think i'll pass tt..

Hols coming to an end soon.. Haven't really set out for proper physical training.. Hopefully can start next week? Haha did i say hope? Wondering wat ns life wud be like.. All work, no play, no gals too.. Tt's a triple yux!!! But it's when boys become men.. A bit out of point for me, coz i dun wanna grow up!!! Haha..

Everyone should always stay in touch with their inner child.. Not to forget remain in contact with their masculine/feminine side as well.. Always feel tt way coz i believe there's a multitude of situations tt we'll face, and it isn't possible to face all of them with the same mentality, so a bit of "division of labour" will do the trick..

Haha this entry feels so weird.. Like blabbering on and on..
Kinda wonder how many ppl i know act visit this od too.. Think only 6 ppl know of it.. Should i go public? Hmm..

On a final note, i like chocolate ice-cream cake, so i guess both applies for me? Haha..

To those who are patient enuff to get to this point:
Enjoy life, and stay happy always..
Tt's wat life's all abt!!!

"Staying Alive" ---Bee Gees..

ChAlEt..

回到家咯..

4 days ain't short, but it ain't long either.. Feels like time passes by so quickly these days, which is a good thing coz it means tt i'm enjoying myself ya? Haha.. Guess everyone, or almost everyone properly tucked in n enjoying e nice weather now.. Me? Haha for the first time i get to sleep on a proper bed so still feeling energetic, yeah!

Anyway, lots of things happened during this chalet, n its impressions rivals e past chalet i had at the same place.. Seems like a good (and expensive) chalet does leave a lasting memory on ppl's mind ya? Hmmm.. Let me try to get thru these day by day..

Day 1:
Meeting time was at 1230, went there early to recce a bit first, in the end only a small bunch trooped together to the chalet, where we duly waited for the keys, which came at 2.. Settled in pretty quickly, den prepearations for the nite's bbq took place.. Everyone helped a bit, making the whole process speedy..

Bbq was pretty enjoyable, the eating and the cooking and the talking.. But feel tt more interaction could have taken place b/w the 2 teams.. Well, it's nvr easy to draw 2 teams really close together..

Och was next, but it didn't turn out as exciting as expected.. The whole place was like a tourist attraction, guess at least 50 ppl visited the place at diff times.. The "yang" energy was so overpowering tt it sent the ants on the floor scurrying away and the dogs barking the whole time.. Ok tt last line's crap.. After tt, it was the usual chalet stuff, talk cock, eat, take a walk..

Day 2:
The main program of the day, 食字路口, wasn't really greeted with much enthusiasim in the first place, but once we set off, everyone became in a hurry to down the food and rush back to the chalet to win.. Well, almost everyone la.. And guess wat? We won!!! Haha, n tt results in a free session of ktv, i guess..? Well, many other things happened in b/w, but guess i'll juz commit tt to memory and save it there instead of bore others with details..

Shan't comment on the meeting after tt..=(

Day 3:
Slept like a pig coz didn't sleep much the previous nite, but was also "lai chuanging" for most period of time, eavesdropping on the conversations taking place.. Hit the beach in the afternoon, and it was the usual again, volleyball, captain's ball and, well, sea-water battle..

Bbq took place again to finish the leftover food..Which we still couldn't finish again in the end haha.. Den it was fun with seniors, on n off the bed..

Day 4:
Packed up and left, need i say anything more?

Points to note:
"Dead or Alive 2" became hugely popular during the chalet..

Tay had another accident with the "new" car..

Someone's mouth will expand when playing games..(Or is it naturally tt big? Hmmm..)

And girls have scary way of thinking..

Left out lots of details, but i guess there's juz abt enuff to relive the moments of the past 4 days so ya, will sign off here..

"爱情多瑙河" ---熊天平...

ArAnDa...

Aranda.. Aranda.. Here i come!!!

Haha think it was last yr during dec hols when i first stayed at aranda chalet, n boy was it good.. Fully air-conditioned, spacious rooms with well-equiped kitchens and mahjong sets for all to use.. This is one chalet tt i didn't even feel like leaving to go out and enjoy e activities outside, juz sit ard and play mahjong and ps2 e whole day.. Haha, but it does come at a price though.. Then again, wat in life doesn't?

Got to go pack now..So juz sign off here..

"You'll be in my Heart" ---Phil Collins

PrI cLaSs GaThErInG..

Initial barriers broken b/w e same sexes/sch..

Next time, it'll be totally gone..

Finally met up with pri sch classmates like after 2 yr plus? Many have changed, looks and style, but they're all basically e same as i remember dem to be.. Though e bond's pretty much gone, at least e friendship still pretty much exist.. Form tr's pretty glad to see us all too, since we're her first batch of students to graduate from pri sch.. She hasn't really changed much though, well, maybe juz looking a bit shorter haha..

A mum tt nvr was.. Yet a true mother she'll always be..

Was reminded of the very first tr i came in contact with in pri sch.. She followed my class up for 4 yrs straight, den retired due to a bad back.. Heard tt i left a lasting impression on her, which set me thinking back on the pri sch days.. Bits and pieces came flooding back, making me realise how much an impact she had on me.. Kinda sad tt we have lost contact though.. Well, tt's life, isn't it?

In life, many ppl leave footprints in ur heart, but the ones tt truely matter are the ones tt remain imprinted and nvr washed away, no matter rain or shine..

"It's Your Duty" ---Lene...

SwIsS fAll..

Yeah!!!

Swiss fall's finally succeeded with everybody's hardwork and determination, and a bit of credit goes towards kazaa too, haha..

Ntu routine's beginning to take shape too.. But attendance prob is popping up as well.. As usual, juz like house cheerleading.. Guess there's not much to do, except to remain optimistic and hope for the best? There can be miracles when u believe..

Think everyone's getting real busy for the hols.. Jobs and everything.. Lost contact with seemingly lots of ppl.. Or maybe it's juz me..

Meeting up with pri sch classmates today, after so many years.. Changes wil definitely occur, wonder whether it's for the better or worse.. But do hope this will not be the last time we meet though.. Let the friendship remain firm in our hearts..

Beginning to feel the importance of money these few days.. Saving up isn't easy, requiring skipping meals or resisting the urge to shop.. No choice, got to repay debts and all.. Sigh.. Hope commandos pay well.. =)

"When U Believe.." ---Mariah Carey, Whitney Houston...
(There can be miracles, when u believe...
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill..
Who knows wat miracles, u can achieve..
When u believe, somehow u will..
U will when u believe..)

ThE pInK dReSs..

The Pink Dress

There was this little girl sitting by herself in the park.

Everyone passed by her and never stopped to see why she looked so sad.

Dressed in a worn pink dress, barefoot and dirty, the girl just sat and
watched the people go by.

She never tried to speak.

She never said a word.

Many people passed by her, but no one would stop.

The next day I decided to go back to the park in curiosity to see if the
little girl would still be there.

Yes, she was there, right in the very spot where she was yesterday, and
still with the same sad look in her eyes.

Today I was to make my own move and walk over to the little girl.

For as we all know, a park full of strange people is not a place for
young children to play alone.

As I got closer I could see the back of the little girl's dress.

It was grotesquely shaped.

I figured that was the reason people just passed by and made no effort to
speak to her.

Deformities are a low blow to our society and, heaven forbid if you make
a step toward assisting someone who is different.

As I got closer, the little girl lowered her eyes slightly to avoid my
intent stare.

As I approached her, I could see the shape of her back more clearly.

She was grotesquely shaped in a humped over form.

I smiled to let her know it was OK; I was there to help, to talk.

I sat down beside her and opened with a simple, "Hello".

The little girl acted shocked, and stammered a "hi"; after a long stare
into my eyes.

I smiled and she shyly smiled back.

We talked until darkness fell and the park was completely empty.

I asked the girl why she was so sad.

The little girl looked at me with a sad face said, "Because, I'm
different".

I immediately said, "That you are!"; and smiled.

The little girl acted even sadder and said, "I know."

"Little girl," I said, "you remind me of an angel, sweet and innocent."

She looked at me and smiled, then slowly she got to her feet and said,
"Really?"

"Yes, you're like a little Guardian Angel sent to watch
over all people walking by."

She nodded her head yes, and smiled.

With that she opened the back of her pink dress and allowed her wings to
spread, then she said "I am."

I'm your Guardian Angel," with a twinkle in her eye.

I was speechless -- sure I was seeing things.

She said, "For once you thought of someone other than yourself.

My job here is done".

I got to my feet and said, "Wait, why did no one stop to help an angel?"


She looked at me, smiled, and said, "You're the only one that could see
me," and then she was gone.

And with that, my life was changed dramatically.

So, when you think you're all you have, remember, your angel is always
watching over you.

ThE dAy...

Another day till e big day..

Or is it really tt huge a magnitude?

Pretty much aching from all the physical activities these few days.. Guess some training will really need to be registered in b4 28 of jan.. Probably do so after e day lor..

Wonder wat i'll look like, or wat the stylist will make me look like..

Sometimes it's juz so weird tt wat some think looks good on u may not be so for others.. Guess it's not possible to please everyone ya? Juz be happy with it urself i guess, tt's the first and most impt stage.. Hmmm...?

So much training these few days.. Ntu plus sch's.. Kinda pity chingyan, who's flying almost like everyday.. Den again, it means she'll be more ready den ever when the time comes for her to show her stuff.. Wish her the best lor..=)

Suddenly tot of sth tt someone's been debating over..

Change: Good or bad?

Well nvr really put much tot on these, but wat i feel is tt for everything, there's bound to be a good and bad side, depending on diff perspective.. The necessicity of the change can mean a lot too.. Juz so happens tt the change's not to ur liking doesn't mean it's totally bad, ya? Change is part and parcel of life, and whether good or bad we'll have to live with it till the day we open our eyes no more..

So juz be satisfied with wat u have, ya? (",)

"Where is the love?" ---Black Eyed Peas..

ChAnCe Or ChOiCe?

Chance or Choice

When we meet the right person to love, when we're at the right place at the right time, that's chance.

When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance.

Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance.

The difference is what happens afterwards. When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level?

That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling.

If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that's not a chance. That's choice.

When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice.

Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice.

Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance.
But true love that lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make.

Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this: Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen.

I do believe that soul mates do exist. That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not. We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mate is still a choice we have to make.

We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love... BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person
perfectly..


do cherish all the ple ard you.. (=

Cheers~

ChRoNo CrOsS..

"What was the start of all this?
When did the cogs of fate begin to turn?

Perhaps it is impossible to grasp that answer now,
From deep within the flow of time...

But, for a certainty, back then,
We loved so many, yet hated so much,
We hurt others and were hurt ourselves...

Yet even then we ran like the wind,
Whilst our laughter echoed,
Under cerulean skies..."
---Chrono Cross

Jc...

It's been 2 years..

Not too long, yet not too short either..

"Time flies when u're happy.."

Still remember this phrase from the june chalet, n it still brings a smile to my face..

Suddenly the big pic seems all so clear..

So has ur jc life been short or long?

Lalala..

So much has passed by during these 2 years.. Nvr really liked nj for its admin stuff, but the ppl there have certainly given me a wonderful time.. Esp the cl ppl, the crazy bunch of buddies who toss ppl ard like nobody's business, sing and dance the house down,and lots of other stuff tt "pandemonium" wud be a good word to describe.. Not to forget the soccer khakis who's brotherhood was forged on the basketball courts of nj.. Seriously, thanx for everything..

W flew back home to sarawak today.. And stupid me almost didn't make it to the flight.. Missed 4 trains coz tot the train bound for changi still operates from je.. So it was a dramatic 5 min dash thru e arrival hall to bk and another 5 min of photo taking b4 she left, with tears in her eyes.. I guess life juz won't be the same w/o her ya? Not gonna see her anytime soon in the near future, all of us have our own commitments.. At least i was able to bade her goodbye.. Juz in time..

深深的相信, 有那么一天, 阳光普照的这么一天, 我们将会再次重逢.. 离别随痛苦, 但没有离别, 那来得欢聚?

We're missing u already.. Everyone of us.. And if u're reading this at home, dun forget tt there's still this bunch of ppl back here waiting for u to come back one day.. In the meantime, take care, god bless, n may the goddess of luck, fortune, happiness and everything good shine upon u.. Always..

"朋友" ---周华健

ClUbBiNg..

Yeah it's over!!!

Came home early in e morning coz it was too noisy to sleep in the room.. Guess induz3 was really a tiring place to go ya? Everyone went keesiao inside there, think it was act much more fun den at mandarin hotel floor 5, which was juz food and a bit of entertainment from e host.. Lost both my money n my voice, though it was one heck of an experience..=)

Anyway saw this girl in red top who took a 2nd look at me when i was walkin into the pub( haha coz i took a 2nd look at her too => ) Kinda think she's a kindergarden fren, but not so sure so didn't ask..

Haha now i know wat kind of lifestyle really suits me.. It ain't those formal dinner where strict dress codes are imposed, it's those activities tt i can do anything i wan, wear anything i wan.. Guess tt's kinda like wat most ppl wan?

"My Heart will go on.." ---Celine Dion
(Timeless classic..)

回来..

<<回来>>

喜欢一个人去冒险
自由自在飞
闭上眼闯入天空
梦想跟着变大

世界究竟舍么样
不是我想象
那样清楚 那么简单
容易 找不到自己

回到这里 where I want to be
一个熟悉声音向我召唤
这里有我的记忆
给我 补充了温暖

回来 the feeling's so right
给我一个夏天经过伤痕
时间会变成坚强
再次微笑 出发