肋骨..

恋爱的时候,女孩问男孩

"告诉我,这世上你最爱的人是谁?"

"你呀!小傻瓜.."

"那么,在你心里,我是舍么?"

男孩思索了一会儿

认真的看着她的眼睛

"你是我身体的一根肋骨.."

"圣经上说,造物主见男人太寂寞..在他沉睡时,取他身上一根肋骨,创造了女人..
每个男人都在寻找自己的那根肋骨..只有找到她,他的胸口才不会隐隐地痛.."

婚后..

二人曾度过好长一段甜蜜快乐的时光

因为年轻啊

繁忙的生活使人疲惫 琐碎的烦恼如蚁

居家的日子越来越平淡庸俗

现实生活的重重磨擦 慢慢吞噬着所有的梦想与爱情

不知舍么时候开始

他们之间的争吵于怨恨越来越多 越来越重

某次争吵后

她跑出了家门

隔着大街

他听见她在街对面冲他喊

"你根本不爱我!"

他恨她的幼稚

伤害的话冲口而出

"也许我们结合错误了..你根本不是我身上的那根肋骨.."

她忽然安静了

怔怔的站了好久

他有些后悔

但说出来的话象泼出去的水

是收不回来的

含着泪

回家收拾了所有东西

执意与他分手

她在离去前对他说

"如果我不是你的肋骨,那么让我走吧..与其痛苦,不如解脱..让我们各自寻找自己真正的另一半.."

分别五年..

他一直没有再婚..

他辗转听说她的消息

出国了 回来了

与一个外国人再婚了 又离婚了

她竟然没有等他

午夜梦回的黑夜中

他点起一根香烟

胸口在隐隐地痛

他不愿意承认是想念她的缘故

终于重遇..

在制造无数离别与重逢的机场上

他率团出国考察

隔着一道安检门

她独自站在入口处

平静地对他微笑

"你好吗?"

"我很好,你呢?"

"你找到自己的那根肋骨了吗?"

"没有!"

"我下班飞机往纽约.."

"我半个月后回来..回来给我电话好吗?你知道我的号码..舍么都没有变.."

她回头对他一笑 "再见.."

再见是永远不再见吗?

一星期后..

他知悉了她的死讯

她在纽约丧生

在那场举世震惊的悲剧事件中

午夜..

他再次点起一根香烟

胸口又在隐隐地痛

他终于知道

她

就是他不小心

弄断的那根肋骨..

BiG wAlK...

Hehe...

Slept like a pig yesterday aftr the big walk..From 3pm to 5pm the next day? Gosh a whole 14 hrs! Haha so slack..The cip as well, the whole day juz taking photos with the mp and shaking his hand..Haha..Feel bad abt taking the hrs though..Hmmm..

Fm mock's this sat..Sigh haven't really studied for it, juz doing daily work now..Prelims coming in ard 3 weeks time too..Sheesh, guess i'm the only one who hasn't really started on work yet..Hmmm can't get myself started as well..Lots of inertia in this engine ya? Hard to start but real easy to stop..

Ppl are getting real muggy..Guess once the day draws near,挡也挡不了的时候,人就会不知觉地,开始发奋图强..Think i shud too..So wat am i doing here???

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<<来生缘>>

寻寻觅觅 在无声无息中消逝
总是找不到回忆 找不到曾被遗忘地真实
一生一时的过去 你一点一滴的遗弃
痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失去你　
也许分开不容易 也许相亲相爱不可以
痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失自己
情深缘浅不得意 你我也知道去珍惜　
只好等在来生里再踏上彼此故事的開始

生生世世 在无穷无尽地梦里　
偶而翻起了日記 翻起了你我之间的故事　
一段一段的回忆 回忆已经没有意义
痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失去你　
也许分开不容易 也许相亲相爱不可以
痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失自己
情深缘浅不得意 你我也知道去珍惜　
只好等在来生里再踏上彼此故事的開始

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好久以前的歌了..

还记得第一次听这首歌时是再看古惑仔时..
血淋淋的刘得华..摩多车..丧失兄弟与女友..
噢..好凄惨的一部电影..

好怀念过去的日子哦..

小时候无忧无虑的日子..

嗨..

HeNdOn..

Tired..

Juz came back from Hendon camp..Sigh now wondering if i really wan to join commandos, after today's visit..Most ppl inside were pretty critical, saying things like "nj, dun come, dun come.." Den the instructors were like saying "dun listen to other ppl..if dey do, report dem to us.." So who do we listen to? Heard abt a case of a parachute being sabotaged as well.. So wat to do wat to do??? Shall juz let nature take its course la..

Frens..Think i'm blessed with dem..It seems to me tt i'll have a fren by my side most of the time..Like today, didn't go to e camp with anyone, but came back with Wenyou..Didn't really know him b4, but can really hit off with him..Was doin the personality and stress-management test..Sub-consciously i was juz choosing all the answers with the word "friends" or had the notion of it..A million thanx to all out there, for being a fren..=)

And hey, wat rubbish lyrics?? 去去去!!! They all have meanings kay..Haha but a bit like flooding the place..Nvm la, it's my od anyway haha..

Heard these few lines on 一加一等于三..

"废话少说,长话短说,有话快说..."

"我真的很羡慕她...应为她能够与你相爱..."

Have to go work on stats revision tut liao..Juz notice tt most ppl dun even come online liao..Mind, am i really tt behind in studies?? Wait for me ppl!!! 我来也!!!

"你的眼睛"---熊天平,许如芸!!!

和世界面对面

和世界面对面
<<和世界面对面>>

银河是宇宙的大街..
街上有繁星点点..
希望是挡雨的屋檐..
让梦看见蓝天..

辛苦的泪水最宝贝..
一滴换一种体会..
星河系反复的排练..
好戏正要上演..

和世界面对面,是爱和信念..
每一步,踏得跟坚决..
一路上,你我走在同一遍..

冷漠的人群是阴天..
热情的心是晴天..
愉快的天色是蓝天..
我站在你身边..

辛苦的泪水最宝贝..
一滴换一种体会..
星河系反复的排练..
好戏正要上演..

和世界面对面,是爱和信念..
每一步,踏得跟坚决..
一路上,你我走在同一遍..

和世界面对面,精彩的岁月..
布满了,喜悦的海水..
天河地,永远站在同一遍..

银河是宇宙的大街..
街上有繁星点点..
希望是挡雨的屋檐..
让梦看见蓝天..

冷漠的人群是阴天..
热情的心是晴天..
愉快的天色是蓝天..
我站在你身边..

再见萤光兰;我相信

<<再见萤光兰>>

给我爱绝对的自由,让我能完整的拥有..
人海里总有个人在等候,不必烦忧,把青春尽情来挥洒个够..
不要说天长和地久,现在我难预测以后..
青海里寻找千万个理由,要走要留,爱不在闪也不必再守候..

靠近我一同感受心跳的节奏,每分每秒生命不要错漏..
紧紧跟随快乐的脚步走,爱不眠不休,梦继续追求..
悲伤的回忆不要收藏起太久,真心的我等待深情回收..
好好回应我释放的温柔,在幸福源头,让爱情..
不会有停电的时候..



<<我相信>>

不小心,打翻回忆..
藏不住,好想你的秘密..
在寂寞夜里,
感觉竟如此的清晰..

每一次,沿着记忆,
一路上,全是我爱你的讯息..
如影有随行,
越是想你越难以抗拒..

我相信,这情怀,有一天你会明白..
不管现在未来,你的一切,都让我期待..
我相信,这份爱,这么甩也甩不开..
看你悄悄走进,却有离开,相信综会回来..

不值得..

<<不值得>>

除了想你,除了爱你,我舍么舍么都愿意..
翻开日记,整理心情,我真的真的想放弃..
你始综没有爱过,你在敷衍我,一次一次忽略我的感受..
我真的感到力不从心,无力继续..

这感情,不值得我犹豫,不值得我考虑,不值得我爱过你..
这种回忆,不值得我提起,不值得想起不值得哭泣..
这段感情,早就应该放弃,早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹..
这样的你,不值得我和你,不值得我为你而坏了心情..
我决定不为你而毁了性,放弃爱..

除了想你,除了爱你,我舍么舍么都愿意..
翻开日子,打开心情,我真的真的想放弃..
你始综没有爱过,你在敷衍我,一次一次忽略我的感受..
我真的感到力不从心,无力继续..

这感情,不值得我犹豫,不值得我考虑,不值得我爱过你..
这种回忆,不值得我提起,不值得想起不值得哭泣..
这段感情,早就应该放弃,早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹..
这样的你,不值得我和你,不值得我为你而坏了心情..
我决定不为你而毁了性,为你而放弃爱情..
不为你而毁了性..
我决定不为你而毁了性..
放弃爱..

FaReWeLl...

Sunday nite..

The nite tt ends it all..

It's time to say goodbye liao..

Time to start work..

No more play liao..

Gonna miss it all..

5,6,7,8's..Partner stunts..Pyramids..Flirting..Heart to heart talks..Trips to kap..Most importantly, the friendship and bond tt's been shared among the team..

This entry ain't really reflecting wat i'm feeling throughout the day act..Dunno why, but somemhow i dun feel tt this goodbye's going to be long..Or tt it's really a goodbye, rather it's juz going to be an extended vacation for me till i return..Fret not, i'll be back in a flash..

Gonna try out single lib..

Gonna teach candice front flip..

Gonna teach shawn the sms count trick..

Gonna update myself with the latest gossips..

Nvr had a serious talk with the lignum gals till today..Didn't realise tt our squad has such a large array of individuals coming from diff backgrounds and histories..Candice cried..But not coz we bullied her..It's the past events tt bother her..Jac i'm not too sure though..Prob almost the same?

Poning sch tmr for the first time..Haven't done work yet so no pt going..Wonder if i'll really do work though..Gonna slp in, tt's for sure..Can imagine the faces of the rest going to sch tmr..Stoned, juz like last yr..

Thanx for the doggie, little girl..Wasn't really expecting tt qn to be meant for everybody..Guessed it really cost u a small bomb to get it for all the 4 of us? Dun worry, it won't go thru rain or shine..

Thanx to ding and zj as well, for continuing to make life in cl so much more interesting den all other ccas..We'll continue to keep in touch, ya? Though zj doesn't write here often, but i believe tt he does scan thru the entries now and den..

Thanx to ignis gang, for being so supportive and tolerant of the tough training times during house cl..Ur spirits and enthusiasm gave me the drive to go on, and nvr fail to make me look forward to training..Best of luck for next yr's com ya? May ignis hse cl's flame always burn bright!!

Thanx to wc as well..W/o him, guess our basket toss won't be tt high..Haha..

Thanx to hj, for sending me a memory of x-challenge..Prob need the rest of the clips too, but will wait till u get a faster connection..

There's more to thank in one way or another..But no matter wat, juz wanna thank the whole squad..For adding the most vibrant colours in my life..For putting the icing on the cake..For all the wonderful moments and memories in my jc life..A big thanx to everyone..Arigato gozaimashta!!!

"祝你一路顺风" by 小虎队!!!

NaTiOnAl DaY pArAdE..

Somethings nvr change...

Somethings will change forever...

Guess tt's Nature Balance for u...(",)

Another ndc, another routine, another team..

Assembled early in the morning to warm-up..Everything went pretty well..The atmosphere from last yr wasn't there though..Prob coz the number has decreased significantly, or tt i haven't really woken up yet..Was with lc for quite some time while waiting for our turn..Still dun think he's tt bad as some ppl may say abt him..Ding was all over the place, flirting as usual haha..

Float com was on, and we were viewing it from the 2nd floor..Everythign went well till the dismount, when yt "fell" and rolled on the track..Couldn't bear to see the last part, though she was fine..Haha "rolling" famous overnight..Ch felt damn bad i think..Whole day ban3 zhe4 lian3..Aniwae, routine went pretty well..Though a few stunts failed, but it was overall impressive to the crowd, and cheng was full of praises for it..Ignis won the overall com on the day, but lost out the ne challenge to aqua hse..Everyone was a winner on the day though, as they thoroughly enjoyed themselves..Ya..

Went back to ri after tt..Was so looking forward to meeting the 4F gang after so long..And there they were, waiting in the canteen..Most pon sch to come back earlier to play..Spent almost 2 hrs under the sun playing soccer, went out to eat after tt, den played pool, lan, arcade and such..Hilarious moments all over the afternoon..

Heard from a fren tt the gal who commited suicide was justina..Damn shocked after tt..Such a cheerful, bubbly person..Suddenly, a person u knew juz didn't existed anymore..Though can't say tt i'm close to her, but at least i shared almost the same prob with her..Relationship probs..Sigh, shi4 shi4 nan2 liao4..Heard tt she called her best fren and said "sorry" b4 she departed..Still have a short clip of her when she went with us on a cip trip to genting..Guess tt's the only memory left of her..

Stayed over at a fren's hse after everything..Watched soccer on tv, den got to know how the rest were doing..Sometimes it's weird to know tt all of us have gone to diff colleges, and not been in the same class for 2 yrs liao, yet we still have lots to talk abt, lots to share..And yet at this time, u still can't seem to click with some ppl in ur class..Tt's the wonder of human relationship i guess..

She still talks abt me in her blog..-ve comments of course..Tot the talk wud have settled everything once and for all..Interesting to know how someone can have such an impact on another person's life..Gotta be careful next time..Really careful..

Tmr's the last time liao..Hope everything goes well..Gambatte kudasai!!!

"Shuo Ai Ni" by Jolin Tsai!!!

GoOdByE..

Goodbye...

A word tt we always come across in our daily lives, yet a feeling tt's so hard to come in terms with..

Today's prob the last training fro us seniors liao.. Didn't realise it till ding mentioned it on the bridge.. Guess after tmr and this sunday's performance, we'll be officially retiring from cl for the time being.. Seriously speaking, i was pretty sad when i was transfered into nj from rj, but it was cl which changed everything.. Some other seniors such as lc will agree with me tt cl has indeed made jc life much, much more meaningful.. The fun we enjoyed, the tears we shared, the times we went thru.. Everything seem so much like a fairytale..

Remember the "freestyler" routine?? Or last yrs' ndc routine?? House cheerleading?? Nationals?? The times we experimented with new stunts..learning dance steps..memorising cheers..Well, and not to forget flirting away.. Not forgetting also the hrs spent playing away after training.. Break-dancing..Flipping..Wrestling..Playing soccer in the gym..My gosh, we even bathed in the rain..

The things we've done this yr..Painted 2 ten metre long banners for cl..Organised dance workshop..Took part in talentime..And coping with heavy workload while preparing for Nationals..It was a long journey for a team so young, and we have shown our potential thru the results we obtained..Many have fallen after tt, but some still believed, and continued on cl with the new generation..

Didn't really expected the first intake to be so well-received.. Tot it was rare to find ppl crazy like us.. In any case some stayed on, some left for greener pastures, others came in to replace them.. A full squad is finally formed, and a credible showing was done at X-challenge.. More is to come, of course..

We've made really good frens thru all these.. Ppl to share our secrets with.. Ppl who will lend a listening ear whenever we have problems.. Ppl who makes u happy.. Ppl who left footprints in ur life..

Wud have typed more in depth if not for the lateness of the hour..Juz wanna say tt it certainly makes me feel glad to see tt our legacy is in safe hands.. Time doesn't wait for anyone, and we'll be leaving soon.. But the pain we endured, the hardships we gone thru, and the endless wonderful memories will always be somewhere close to my heart..

Ending off with our seldom-mentioned motto..

"Believe and Be..."

"Bu Zhi De" by Dreamz Fm...

WoRk...

Sun nite...

Breeze is blowing...

Music is playing...

I am slacking...???

Sheesh...

Econ essay, gp essay, maths tut, physic ass..All undone!!! Pus econs mock on wed, which i haven't started revising yet..Haha siao liao, i'm gonna be so screwed..Dun care la..Wat's impt is the a's rite? Haha self-consolance..

Yesterday was YT's bdae..Went out with her plus ding and zj..Haha the jigsaw's really almost as big as her..Ur welcome for it btw, it's worth the effort for a good fren like u..=) Went to town to gai gai, and got ding a new 6610 plus 4 hilarious-looking poker cards..Man i nvr turn out good in photos..Aniwae as long as we enjoyed ourselves, who cares?

Been slacking ard since den..Can't muster the effort to take out my notes n start reading..Remember, greatest procrastinator? Nvr changed a bit..Sigh..Sometimes really wish to grow up soon, den dun need to study..Or turn back time till young, when u can play all day..Both situation's are really impossible though..Even as an adult, u'll have tons of jobs to handle..Rather not grow up at all den..

Been listening to "Don't wanna try" these few days..B4 tt was "Should i stay" and "If ur not the one"..Realised they're all abt affairs of the heart? Guess emotions are a good topic to base a nice song on? N tt people will be more inclined to these songs since it seems closer to the heart? Hmmm..It's farni how some songs perfectly describes certain situations in life tt u may encounter..Prob coz most events dun differ from each other by alot..

Siao liao..Com's dying off liao..Betta end this b4 everything goes off..Hmm prob slack ard a bit more first..Luckily slept a while juz now..Hehe crapping liao..

"True" - Dragon Drive soundtrack!!!

EnD oF aN eRa..

Wahhh...

Long long time since i act wrote in here..Not tt i'm lazy or anything, juz tt my bro took my laptop to the U, so i'm stuck at home with the slow and lousy pc..This is one of the few times tt 1) it is not hanging and 2) i'm not hanging as well, therefore...this!!!

Hmmm, where shud i start from den? Maybe from thurs on? Coz i really can't rem the earlier days liao..Aniwae, tt day was the long-awaited "half-day" tt Cheng was promising us..Yaya, n my normal lesson ends at 120 lor..Well, at least i got to play soccer from 1130 onwards since i didn't have any more periods after tt..Felt really good on the court act, all the stress from work flew away with the wind..

Training was at 2 after tt..Practising e routine in prep for ndc and jubilee hall..Big event at jubilee hall, as tay puts it, so have to put in extra effort..Floorball com was on at the same time, since we got into the quarters after the matches held the day b4..So being the capt, i rushed down during the break to play..Got tripped and all tt stuff, but was worth it as we eventually won 2-1..But den as training went on, there wasn't any break anymore and so my team lost in the semis whilst i was training in the linkway..Sorrie guys, i've let u all down..=(

Sad things aside, tay den brought kelvin, me and qiu to och..Took quite some time to find it, but we did in the end and boy is the place huge..Shud have seen the corridors man, and the smell..Found the pentagram pictured in the site, and lots of artistic graffti on the walls..Surveyed the place, and all feel tt it'll be damn kong3 bu4 at nite..

Interesting things tt happened:
1)along one of the corridors, as we were exploring the place, kelvin and i heard footsteps behind us..turned but there was no one there, so we hastened our pace till a corner n peeped over it..Still no one, but the sound has ceased by den...
2)this ain't supernatural, but pretty farni act..Saw 2 dogs sleeping in one of the rooms, so tried to tiptoe past dem..they heard us though, and started to look..We rounded one of the buildings and tried to go back by the same way, but den the dogs still noticed us..Eerie, stony glazed they have..The only choice left was to run..

After the ordeal, we still have at least half of the place left unexplored, though other buildings are prob locked up..The mortuary was the aim act..Aniwae, it was geting late for tay's appointment, so took a detour to my camp to see see first..Wonder if i'm really going to be a commondo..Dun really look, or feel like one..

Nth interesting happened today act..Juz felt realy tired during lessons, prob coz of training and floorball on thurs..Aniwae juz came back from njc band concert, etude, not long ago..It wasn't tops, got to say, but could "hear" the effort tt the members put in..Esp liked the percussion part..Sort of an emotional farewell for the yr2s act, since it's gonna be their last performance in nj..As i said, everything's coming to an end for us liao..

Why fear the end though? Shall treat it as a new beginning..A new lease of hope, and a new avenue for the realisation of aspirations...

Haha, first "haha" of the entry? How weird..

2 "tings" bdae on 2nd of August..Heard of the gifts u got liao, but this one's gonna give u a pleasant surprise!! Haha..

Shall go kun liao..Cmi..

"Don't Wanna Try" by Frankie J!!!
(Go see the lyrics man..)

MiA...

Sat...

First time not at cl training since it started..Dun really know how it went..A few msgs from yt,hj and jac kinda summarised it all..Pt..Dance..Stunts..Well, shud have guessed la, but can't help thinking wat diff wud it make if we were there? Or wat diff wud we not make?

Heard tt tay's doing torch..Shirleen fell as a result..Coz not enuff spotters? Hmm maybe.. Wat ding said was rite, one big prob existing now is the lack of guys.. Though magnum also dun have many guys, but they can draw on their alumni, and their gals are big and strong, relative to our squad.. Recruitment from houses is still rock bottom..Guess we really hafta look beyond our borders..

Ding's really phasing out of cl fast..Guess it's partly coz he's a scholar, there's a need to think abt his future..Nth wrong with tt act, juz kinda sad..Hope he does come back when he have the time..We'll be waiting..

Caught the flu bug today..Stupid..Fine when going out, guai guai stay at home then fall slp..So dumb..In the end can't go out with sec sch frens for dinner..Think they beginning to bu shuang liao, keep "releasing pigeon"..Sigh..

Argh..My phone really sux big time compared to the previous ones..The msg screen's so weird, keep sending 2 msgs at a go..Haiya ren a bit, see if dad's willing to get me a better model..

Talking to hj online now..Heard tt another guy came for training today, and tt tangning joined in too..Name's dominic i think..Hmm will prob know him soon enuff..

Haha angie came for training today with another gal, prob crystal..Called out for my name..So embarassing, dunno why..Haha..

Shall go chatting liao..Hafta study soon too..Sigh..

"Shen1 Si3 Xiang1 Xu3" by Leon Lai and Prisilla Chan!!!

FrIeNdS fOr LiFe..

"Friends For Life..."

In kindergarten your idea of a good friend was the person who let you have the red crayon when all that was left was the ugly black one.

In first grade your idea of a good friend was the person who went to the bathroom with you and held your hand as you walked through the scary halls.

In second grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you stand up to the class bully.

In third grade your idea of a good friend was the person who shared their lunch with you when you forgot yours on the bus.

In fourth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who was willing to switch square dancing partners in gym so you wouldn't have to be stuck do-si-do-ing with Nasty Nicky or Smelly Susan.

In fifth grade your idea of a friend was the person who saved a seat on the back of the bus for you.

In sixth grade your idea of a friend was the person who went up to Nicky or Susan, your new crush, and asked them to dance with you, so that if they said no you wouldn't have to be embarrassed.

In seventh grade your idea of a friend was the person who let you copy the social studies homework from the night before that you had.

In eighth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you pack up your stuffed animals and old baseball cards so that your room would be a "high schooler's" room, but didn't laugh at you when you finished and broke out into tears.

In ninth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who went to that "cool" party thrown by a senior so you wouldn't wind up being the only freshman there.

In tenth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who changed their schedule so you would have someone to sit with at lunch.

In eleventh grade your idea of a good friend was the person who gave you rides in their new car, convinced your parents that you shouldn't be grounded, consoled you when you broke up with Nick [or Glenn] or Susan, and found you a date to the prom.

In twelfth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you pick out a college/university, assured you that you would get into that college/university, helped you deal with your parents who were having a hard time adjusting to the idea of letting you go...

At graduation your idea of a good friend was the person who was crying on the inside but managed the biggest smile one could give as they congratulated you.

The summer after twelfth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you clean up the bottles from that party, helped you sneak out of the house when you just couldn't deal with your parents, assured you that now that you and Nick or you and Susan were back together, you could make it through anything, helped you pack up for university and just silently hugged you as you looked through blurry eyes at 18 years of memories you were leaving behind, and finally on those last days of childhood, went out of their way to give you reassurance that you would make it in college as well as you had these past 18 years, and most importantly sent you off to college knowing you were loved.

Now, your idea of a good friend is still the person who gives you the better of the two choices, holds your hand when you're scared, helps you fight off those who try to take advantage of you, thinks of you at times when you are not there, reminds you of what you have forgotten, helps you put the past behind you but understands when you need to hold on to it a little longer, stays with you so that you have confidence, goes out of their way to make time for you, helps you clear up your mistakes, helps you deal with pressure from others, smiles for you when they are sad, helps you become a better person, and most importantly loves you!

Thank you for being a friend. No matter where we go or who we become, never forget who helped us get there...

LiFe'S sHoRt..

Hehe..

Kinda feel lazy today, so shan't be typing much..Ding sounds stressed out by the events happening..Dun fret man, we're always here to lend a helping hand, ya? Cheer up!!!

Was juz looking thru my mail..Chanced upon this touching story..Hope u all like it..


A guy and a girl can be just friends... but at one point or another one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late or maybe, just maybe...forever....

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As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called 'best friend'. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.

After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before. I handed them to her. She said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

**************** 11th grade ****************

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broken her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep.

She looked at me, said "thanks" .

I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

**************** Senior year ****************

The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said, "he's not gonna go..." Well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together - just as 'best friends'. So we did.

Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. Then she said- "I had the best time ever, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends but I'm just too shy.

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A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angle up on stage to get her diploma.

Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said- "You're my best friend ever, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

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Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say 'I do' and drive off to her new life, married to another man.

I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!".

She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek.

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Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'. At the service, they read diary entry she had wrote in her high school years.

This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine; but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

I wish he would tell me he loved me!

"I wish I did too..." I thought to my self, and I cried.

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Life's short..So make sure u enjoy every moment of it and live it to the fullest!!!

"Fen1 Xiang3" by Sky Wu!!!

LoSt...

Told my parents liao..

Think i kinda disappointed them..Well i disappointed myself as well..

"How cud u lose ur wife.."
(Translated, of course..)

Sigh, wat's over is over..Dun think tt heartless soul will have the heart to give my phone back..

Woke up feeling sore today from all the table carrying last nite..Had to go down to hello! to get sim card replaced so got ding along since he wanted to change his phone aniwae..Haha but den the scheme for foreigners changed and so pissed him off..(Sorrie man, but dun think my dad will agree..)Didn't know tt had to bring dad's ic to get sim card replaced as well..Sigh..Have to wait till tmr den to showcase my 2100..Yaya, wat a phone to showcase..

Went for the SCA meeting after tt with quanda, kelvin, hongzhou and huijin..It was so so boring..Plus this gustio guy keep hogging onto the frontlight tt sometimes willie didn't even look like the chair of the meeting..There's this long-tongued gal by the name of shirley spatting loads of rubbish too..Got tired of it halfway and so went out to BK with HZ to eat..Nice timing too, since the meeting ended by the time we came back..Well the only interesting thing to note is tt there was this guy juggling bottles and these bunch of break-dancers showing off their moves by the side..Cool..

Took the train home with HJ after tt..Haha ding always says it's stressful when left alone with her..Methinks it's coz there still exist an affinity..Hehe..Aniwae got to know her a bit betta..She's not much diff from me now, in terms of thinking tt is..Afraid to love, afraid of commitment, afraid to hurt and be hurt as well..Guess tt kinda summarizes the worries of some teenagers now? The thing is, she hasn't been thru one b4..

Another day gone..Lots of things to do, lots of dreams to fulfil..Thinking back, there's so many things tt i wanted to do but couldn't find the time or the effort to persist on..Like breaking or dancing..The interest juz kinda faded away..Think it really requires 2 or more to pursue sth in order for the interest to go on..Otherwise doing it alone is so boring..If i didn't leave rj, i'll probably still be climbing rockwalls or canoeing ard singapore or even stunt and mountain-biking round the island..hmmm..Well, at least i had fun while it lasted..And the memories will always remain..

Haven't really been writing cheerful entries these few days..Nono. tt's not me..Shall zhen4 zhuo4 and look forward to the future..Go Bao!!! Jiayou jiayou jiayou!!!

"Hao3 Xin1 Fen1 Shou3" by Candy Lo!!!

SoRa..=(

Sheesh...

Wat a day...

Wat a life...

Wat an unexpected turn of events...

Haiz...

Life's like a movie playing...There's bound to be ups and downs...N today so happens to be one of the down sides...

Should i curse and swear? Or should i even be angry? I dunno..Let the person feel guilty, while i juz blame it on my luck? Or was it something tt i've done? Dunno dunno dunno...Feeling tipsy now..May get emotional too..Sigh...

It's been only like 2 mths..Sth tt seldom left my side, even when i sleep..The card's even more significant..It's been with me since i first started having a phone..From the first 8210 den 8310 den 6100..My contacts..Build upon since sec4..My msgs..Saved for dunno how long..My lyrics and quotes..Spent dunno how much time searching and inputting them in..Haiz..I'm really gonna miss it..Sobz..

It's farni how the way things turn out in life..In the morning i was looking at my phone and had a weird premonition..It's as if my phone started feeling distant from me..hmmm.."It might sound crazy but it ain't no lie...Baby bye bye bye.." To think i was still singing so enthusiastically..

All is not lost though..Funtasia is quite successful in my opinion, much betta than i expected it to be..The signs weren't promising rite from the start..Thunder, lightning and dark clouds boomed and flashed across the morning sky, and i guess tt plays a impt part in pushing back the opening time to 11am..Aniwae didn't had to help out in the hall unless required, so was walking ard the funfair exploring various stalls..Won 2 fish toys and 2 fans at the hammer stall..Though i think they increased the difficulty after i won the initial 2..Tsk tsk..

Other stalls worth mentioning was the dunking machine stall..The bid to have a go at sp went up to as high as $200 for 5 tries..Woah..And alas, she wasn't spared from the pool..Lots of food and games stalls ard, but not many were really worth playing..Though prizes consist of mp3 players and warcraft 3 expansion set, but it'll take a million yrs to act win them..Side note, the flying fox's pretty cool too..

Haunted hse's a huge success i muz say..quite proud of it when i went in this morning coz lots of things were touched up and it was marvellous..Well at least to some la..Guess the revenue generated and the long long queue will speak volumes of the success rite? Think we earned abt $5120..And some are not even satisfied coz we didn't hit our target..I mean, isn't it good enuff tt we got more than $2k for each class? And considering the budget constrain tt the sch 'N' the committee members imposed on us, gotto say it's a pretty well-done job..

Performed 4 times at the track today..Crowd was pathetic though, den again, we had to enthu the crowd instead of the crowd enthuing us so..Btw, think YT too insignificant in the recording liao..Did ya know he's back at tt again? Sigh..Quite bu shuang den but wat to do? Nvm it's not the show, it's the process of going thru it..

Think i looked quite bu shuang juz now when my phone was stolen and some saw it..Sorrie to all those out there, though u all won't read this..Hope i didn't spoil anyone's day..

Been busy in the hall this week, so missed out loads of fun when the guys went out..Sigh..Time's running out too..Hafta try to make each session as enjoyable as can be liao..dun wanna leave any regrets behind..Ya..

Shall be getting a replacement sim card tmr..Sobz..

Haven't told my parents yet..Shudder..

Gonna get a good nite's rest soon..Tired..Zzz...

"Love is a Crime" by Anastacia!!!

TiMe..

Time...
Sth tt i'm seriously lacking now..Not juz in work, but also in preparing for the haunted hse and also for going out..

Sheesh..Juz came home not long ago, stuck in sch doing up the hall for the horror illusion stuff..Kinda unhappy in the beginning coz of the lack of coordination and the girls ordering us abt..Den they didn't wanna provide the funds for us to buy cloth, saying tt it was only for emergencies..Sheesh..True, but why do u need to keep $200???
Aniwae luckily there were these bags of curtains at the bag of the hall which we could use as partitions..Den again, wat's a wedding room doing in a haunted hse???

Haha tt aside..Tmr got training again!!! Yeah!!! Finally can have some real fun again!!! Was takin bus home with HX yesterday and was like complaining tt i rarely reach home with the sky still bright..Haha..Sui2 zhong4 du2 hui4 bi2 wo3 shen1?

"Tai yang xia shan ming zao yi jiu pa shang lai..." Haha..Juz when u think sth's going to be history, it juz pops up again, all fresh and ready to go!!! Guess he really went full-steam with tt suggestion, eh? Hehe..Suddenly feel tt a good show's abt to start haha..

Hmmm juz realise this entry got no head or tail..Nvm, it's the tot tt counts haha..

"Shi4 Jie4 Mo4 Ri4" by Jay!!!

BaCk...

Sheesh...

Wasn't really gonna write anything in today, but guess if i dun do so i'll prob forget to so here goes nth..

Hmmm back from rj not long ago..The trip back wasn't as bad as it might have turned out to be, rather i kinda enjoyed the journey..Enjoyed the breeze with zj and steph up at the grandstand, and met a few old frens as well..Haha as usual, kelvin was up to his old self..Hmmm juz let him be man..

Well, was juz thinking, it's really kinda hard to have frens in other jcs..As in, sometimes u're really busy n dun have time to go out with dem, den it's like they'll think u rather hang out with ur new frens now..Guess it's a real dilemma for me? Hmmm..Wonder if he's really angry? Sigh..

Aniwae felt really dumb juz now..Missed 3 buses in a row..How i managed tt u might ask..Well, ermm, not wearing specs played a big part..Haha..So dumb man..But den again, was thinking of stunts to try out..So..Haha nvm, juz feel dumb la..

Next few days will be busy setting up the hall for funtasia..Class's doing the horror illusion thingy..Wonder if it'll be a success, or the funfair for tt matter..Hmmm..Been to real haunted houses so many times liao tt i wonder will it be really possible to set up one..Well..Juz hope for the best la haha..YT muz come hor!!!

Gonna keep this entry short..Need to look for music liao..Cya next time!!!

"Billy Jean" by Michael Jackson!!!

3rD..

Heyoz!!!

Was going to type last nite but ding and ZJ were both on so ya..Aniwae have the luxury of time and energy today, since for the first time in a week there's no training..Feels weird though, the familiar rhythm and counting of 5,6,7,8 seems to be so close yet so far away..

A bit on yesterday's com..Didn't really expect to get anything b4 the com, but after watching the first team, was kinda confident of getting either 1st or 2nd..Well got 3rd in the end la..Though a bit disappointed, but den magnum was really good..Creative in their stunts, high in their energy as well..Somemore we're a relative new team as well, and most are in their first com as well..So 3rd is commendable act..Well done Maelstrom!!!

Met today at linkway to decide on where to go from now on..Yesterday's com really got everyone excited and addicted.."Zhong4 du2" as Mtay puts it..Hmmm..in any case shall have prob 3 more performances, den it's buh-bye for now..So soon..Sigh..Shall be back in 2 yrs' time, mark my words..Haha..

Inna msged and asked for our help, so we'll be going down to rj to help out their hse cl tmr..Haha sort of like an impromptu training for us..Hmmm..Rj..Forgettable and unforgettable memories alike there..Sigh..Nvm all's in the past, shall not ponder over them..Prob gonna meet some old classmates there..Wonder wat they'll say..Haha..

Yeah ZJ's finally contributed inside here!!!Haha juz realised i've mentioned it in the beginning..Well now XYZ are all here..Hmmm..Now can keep in touch even when we go army liao haha..

Haha go check out the X-challenge pics posted by michelle..Full of chairs haha!!! Nth but chairs n chairs n pics of chairs haha..

Hmm getting late liao..Still peace n quiet online..Well except for a few familiar souls like HZ n Shawn..

Sheesh animes take so long to dl!!!(Haha dun mind this, juz complaining..)

Shall end off liao..Kinda excited abt tmr, dunno why..Coz there's cl? Haha..

"Eyes on Me" by Faye Wong!!!
(Final Fantasy rulez!!!)

my first and last time

hey ppl... wonder why such a topic? simply cos its my first time contributing to this journal today and also the last time that im taking part in a cheerleading competition as a njcian haha.. miss those days sigh... but hao jing bu chang zai... though i dun really like e idea of having an OD but guess i'll just follow suit due to popular demands...
first of all, congrats to everyone!!! we've attained a respectable position in today's competition. think our efforts did paid off and our performance was commendable. everyone's spirit was damn high and no wonder we went to do a few stunts after e prize presentation and take lots of photos. well and i did a chair on lin yi... hurray! think she's damn small girl lar... haha doesnt seem to grow up. just standing behind her during the dinner at kfc will scare e hell out of her cos she commented that i looked white... 'so scary!' im not that white after all what right?
think my nu er very ke lian. actually allegic to fabric and got rashes all over her body be4 the comp. sigh went all e way to mt alvernia to visit doctor somemore. anyway on e way home... yt was staring into e stalk of rose and complaining to me how 'fan' wc was. well just think of it this way, who's he to u anyway? just do what u like k? if he wants to continue being hum then just let him be haha. remember this: no one have control over ur own life except urself! hate e way he stares at ppl and e way he look down on ppl. yeah ab was right, damn shuang suaning him... just like today also. he thought his basket toss was e highest but video proved otherwise and he was damn malu cos before that he was giving us that typical look of his!yt am i a flirt? haha... ab and df... i asked this cos yt keep bothering me with this qns: ' do u think im a flirt?' haha... well... all i can say that u'r equally friendly as me! sociable! approachable! oops... haha am i egoistic?
sometimes i really wonder. am i really a flirt to stay on in cheerleading or do i really enjoy cheerleading rather than flirting... hmmm... that remains a qns yet to be solved haha....
haha there's still a dragonfly on my arm dunno how to go to sch tmr... yeah dismiss at 1 tmr then going to see skin specialist! sigh... getting tired now... goodnight ppl... hope that in e near future i will have e time again to continue this... take care! i'll never ever forget this day in my life... yet another achievement another 3rd in my life... come to think of it at least im only 2 ren zi xia, 10000 ren zi shang haha... crap...


With love,
ZzHhIiJjIiAaNn =p