4F LiVeS oN..

Hehe, guess won't have much face to go to sch when it reopens liao.. Hundreds of "door-gifts" will be given out, n ya, everyone of them has my face on it.. Sigh.. Blessing in disguise? Haha certainly hope so..

Feels really bad to have no money.. Been window shopping for so many days, n nth bought.. maybe tt's wat prompted me to look for a job, but den again, there're other reasons for me to not look for a job.. The lazy nature me should be deciding to slack my way till ns haha, n curb my materialistic nature at the same time..

Had fish n co again at glasshouse opp ps.. But this was like, a gang outing of sorts haha.. Think we were like a thunderstorm everywhere we went, with loud, foul language strewn all over our conversation.. But tt's juz normal la.. Been sometime since we had a gathering of this scale, but the 4f spirit's still as strong as ever, if not stronger..
Really glad to have this bunch of frens..

Staying over someone's place usually means bouts of ps2 games, which indirectly results in us playing soccer on the road whilst searching for the place haha.. Guess "winning eleven's" the only thing tt we can agree on, except for maybe "grand theft auto", which was pretty sadistic la haha.. Most fell asleep in the midst of "Italian Job" despite it being a good show, maybe the little bit of vodka's kicking in? haha..

"I'm sorry for spoiling ur night.."

Well, i guess it's act the other way round, we being unable to lessen ur pain n help u out.. Love isn't everything man, there're many other things in life ya? U'll always have us to fall back on..

"U're thinking with ur brain instead of ur heart.."

Guess there's a bit of truth?

"It's only human nature to expect more.."

Very much the case in lots of ppl's situation..

No black or white, no right or wrong..

Theoretically speaking, it's e feeling tt counts, but tt's up to one's belief, n is a pretty extreme case too.. In reality, we usually fall prey to the external factors, which are ever-present..

I'm juz a kid..

"一场游戏一场梦" ---王杰...

男女之间

<<男女之间>>

女人最怕男人是一堆沙猪 男人最怕女人脑袋像浆糊
女人通常都是感情的动物 男人大半都是生活的侏儒
女人可以爱的义无反顾 男人只能爱到相当程度
女人失恋容易另寻出路 男人失恋可就万劫不复
男女之间永远说不清楚 互相厌恶又互相追逐
彼此可以找出千万的错误 却是五十步笑百步
女人对爱要求需索无度 男人总是显得马马虎虎
女人好不容易决定开始 男人却好像刚要结束
女人的泪可以融化冰雪 男人的哭却是山崩地裂
女人的坚强是金石不变 男人的温柔是沧海一粟
女人的胸前是男人的家 男人的肩膀是女人的床
女人希望男人像一棵大树 男人渴望的是精神支柱
男女之间永远说不清楚 互相厌恶又互相追逐
彼此可以找出千万的错误 却是五十步笑百步
女人说谎保证是天衣无缝 男人说谎终究是百密一疏
女人懂得演戏是一种天赋 男人永远败在经验不足
女人认为爱情是一种付出 男人总是把它当作一种征服
女人好不容易决定开始 男人却好像刚要结束
女人好不容易决定开始 男人却好像刚要结束

OuTiNgS...

Lots of outing these days, so lets see, where shall i start?

Gym outing on mon, was suppose to be watching lotr, but it was a bit too long, so we settled with a simple dinner at some soup place with free flow of bread in suntec, den fooled ard at the sky garden..Relived all the old memories at the playground there, where we did all the high bar n some floor moves too.. All rusty liao, muscles aching juz after a while.. Got some pretty good shots after tt too, juz waiting for it to be uploaded now..

B4 tt was yet another ntu training act, but i guess they've got to the point where we'll juz sit and watch n point out the mistakes instead of act doing it.. Guess she can almost handle them all by herself now, so should be going down only if i'm free? Haha which is always the case anyway..

Pulled out of e pilot interview last min yesterday, n i shan't live to regret it.. Wat's so scary abt commandos? Believe in urself, n u can do it.. Haha act quite dramatic too, coz e whole conversation was held in front of many ppl, n i guess they were all pretty shock at this guy choosing commandos over pilot.. Well at least i didn't get rejected by them, i rejected them haha.. yeah!

Finally watched lotr with the guys after tt.. Tay was pretty embarassing, exclaiming "yes!!" at certain parts of the movie, luckily wasn't sitting beside him.. Anyway the movie was great, save for the fact tt maybe the war scene was a bit short, at least it felt shorter den the previous installment.. but all in all it was a good show la, good triumph over evil, peace reign, wat more can u ask for? go watch it if u haven't.. Act hoping for a movie on the Belgariad now, tt'll be an epic man..

Will be going for a session of ktv after this, it's been so long.. Guess after this, i'll have met most of my frens duing the hols liao.. Either going out with them, or meeting them during the outings haha.. Cool rite? Guess tt's an achievement liao hehe..

Wc asked a qn..And i answered.. but is it e truth, or is it denial? *no idea*

"练习" ---刘得华..

ChRiStMaS...

Haha 1st of all, MeRrY cHrIsTmAs!!! ^.^

Spread e joy thru e whole list of ppl in my phonebook.. Guess e bill this mth's not gonna be cheap, but well, when was it ever?

Saw this chiobu on e train on e way to parkway.. Was very much surprised when she met her frens on e next stop.. Haha act think it's e rare moments when u hear profanities strewn all over e gal's speech.. Guess u really can't judge a book by its cover? It had, surprisingly, a bit of spunk hidden though.. Haha i'm pretty sure i didn't get my msg thru..

Only 3 went to ktv in e end, including me.. Felt so dwarfed act haha.. Had to pay at festive price, but fren was kind enuff to take care of e extra so only paid 10.. Think i'm only suited for certain songs in ktv coz of e notes to hit.. Haha but as long as it's juz 清唱 i've no qualms on any song..

Lets see..

Long-distance.. Third party.. Personality.. Maturity.. Get e drift? Haiz.. Tt juz abt covers all? I dunno.. More entries are strictly not welcomed haha..

Wat will u do if u like this gal, n u wan to tell ur very good pal abt it, but b4 u do it, he tells u first tt he likes e gal? Will u 1) Tell him abt ur feelings towards e gal too or 2) Keep ur feelings a secret?

Maybe e qn lacks a bit of info.. E intentions? Are u gonna do tell him so as to win e gal's heart fair n square? Or are u gonna keep it a secret n 成全 e both of dem? Or are u gonna observe situation n act accordingly, with urself in e knowledge of everything..

And e gal? Who will she act choose? And will she change her decision coz of the actions u've taken?

And are u willing to potentially lose this friendship with ur good pal?

There's juz so many things to consider, n e fact tt each decision triggers a chain of events means tt a proper choice muz be made rite from e start..

My qn is, is there a proper way out of it? Is someone bound to be hurt? How to minimise e pain den?

Hmm, maybe, juz maybe, i guess i'll probably keep it a secret n give dem my blessings? There many other "flowers" ard, n a well established friendship is hard to come by as well.. So suffer in silence?

Wah so伟大..

好人难做, 好人难做,好人真的那么难做吗?
说真的, 好人可能有两种噢..
在别人瞩目下的好人, 需承受他人的赞赏与谴责, 是难做得好人..
不受他人眼光的好人, 则任劳任怨, 默默的耕耘, 为群服务..
但这种好人, 没人知, 没人晓, 又有谁肯担任呢?

"海市蜃楼" ---Jolin Tsai..

ViEwS..

Haha..

Kinda cool tt diff ppl will have diff perspectives and view of the same thing, but tt's juz as expected coz there're no 2 minds tt are exactly the same, probably juz similar.. So i have the skeleton, others have the flesh and skin haha.. Dun think many will understand wat i'm saying, but juz refer to the previous entry for a vague idea..

Neutral.. Hmmm is tt the image i portray? Maybe it's a sub-conscious thing.. But den again, it's much clearer for me to sit on the fence coz there's no preference to either sides.. Also it's easy for me to speak to both sides and hear their views.. Though it's kinda like, undecided as to wat i really wan..

Na, tt's too deep to go into.. Dun wanna think like a gal haha.. Tt's the good point abt being a guy i guess.. Not much tots are put on the actions of ppl, rather they're directed somewhere else, usually on how to enjoy life.. Den again, it makes life become kind of superficial, though it does avoid lots of probs and confrontations, which causes lots of headaches.. Hmmm, i think i'll pass tt..

Hols coming to an end soon.. Haven't really set out for proper physical training.. Hopefully can start next week? Haha did i say hope? Wondering wat ns life wud be like.. All work, no play, no gals too.. Tt's a triple yux!!! But it's when boys become men.. A bit out of point for me, coz i dun wanna grow up!!! Haha..

Everyone should always stay in touch with their inner child.. Not to forget remain in contact with their masculine/feminine side as well.. Always feel tt way coz i believe there's a multitude of situations tt we'll face, and it isn't possible to face all of them with the same mentality, so a bit of "division of labour" will do the trick..

Haha this entry feels so weird.. Like blabbering on and on..
Kinda wonder how many ppl i know act visit this od too.. Think only 6 ppl know of it.. Should i go public? Hmm..

On a final note, i like chocolate ice-cream cake, so i guess both applies for me? Haha..

To those who are patient enuff to get to this point:
Enjoy life, and stay happy always..
Tt's wat life's all abt!!!

"Staying Alive" ---Bee Gees..

ChAlEt..

回到家咯..

4 days ain't short, but it ain't long either.. Feels like time passes by so quickly these days, which is a good thing coz it means tt i'm enjoying myself ya? Haha.. Guess everyone, or almost everyone properly tucked in n enjoying e nice weather now.. Me? Haha for the first time i get to sleep on a proper bed so still feeling energetic, yeah!

Anyway, lots of things happened during this chalet, n its impressions rivals e past chalet i had at the same place.. Seems like a good (and expensive) chalet does leave a lasting memory on ppl's mind ya? Hmmm.. Let me try to get thru these day by day..

Day 1:
Meeting time was at 1230, went there early to recce a bit first, in the end only a small bunch trooped together to the chalet, where we duly waited for the keys, which came at 2.. Settled in pretty quickly, den prepearations for the nite's bbq took place.. Everyone helped a bit, making the whole process speedy..

Bbq was pretty enjoyable, the eating and the cooking and the talking.. But feel tt more interaction could have taken place b/w the 2 teams.. Well, it's nvr easy to draw 2 teams really close together..

Och was next, but it didn't turn out as exciting as expected.. The whole place was like a tourist attraction, guess at least 50 ppl visited the place at diff times.. The "yang" energy was so overpowering tt it sent the ants on the floor scurrying away and the dogs barking the whole time.. Ok tt last line's crap.. After tt, it was the usual chalet stuff, talk cock, eat, take a walk..

Day 2:
The main program of the day, 食字路口, wasn't really greeted with much enthusiasim in the first place, but once we set off, everyone became in a hurry to down the food and rush back to the chalet to win.. Well, almost everyone la.. And guess wat? We won!!! Haha, n tt results in a free session of ktv, i guess..? Well, many other things happened in b/w, but guess i'll juz commit tt to memory and save it there instead of bore others with details..

Shan't comment on the meeting after tt..=(

Day 3:
Slept like a pig coz didn't sleep much the previous nite, but was also "lai chuanging" for most period of time, eavesdropping on the conversations taking place.. Hit the beach in the afternoon, and it was the usual again, volleyball, captain's ball and, well, sea-water battle..

Bbq took place again to finish the leftover food..Which we still couldn't finish again in the end haha.. Den it was fun with seniors, on n off the bed..

Day 4:
Packed up and left, need i say anything more?

Points to note:
"Dead or Alive 2" became hugely popular during the chalet..

Tay had another accident with the "new" car..

Someone's mouth will expand when playing games..(Or is it naturally tt big? Hmmm..)

And girls have scary way of thinking..

Left out lots of details, but i guess there's juz abt enuff to relive the moments of the past 4 days so ya, will sign off here..

"爱情多瑙河" ---熊天平...

ArAnDa...

Aranda.. Aranda.. Here i come!!!

Haha think it was last yr during dec hols when i first stayed at aranda chalet, n boy was it good.. Fully air-conditioned, spacious rooms with well-equiped kitchens and mahjong sets for all to use.. This is one chalet tt i didn't even feel like leaving to go out and enjoy e activities outside, juz sit ard and play mahjong and ps2 e whole day.. Haha, but it does come at a price though.. Then again, wat in life doesn't?

Got to go pack now..So juz sign off here..

"You'll be in my Heart" ---Phil Collins

PrI cLaSs GaThErInG..

Initial barriers broken b/w e same sexes/sch..

Next time, it'll be totally gone..

Finally met up with pri sch classmates like after 2 yr plus? Many have changed, looks and style, but they're all basically e same as i remember dem to be.. Though e bond's pretty much gone, at least e friendship still pretty much exist.. Form tr's pretty glad to see us all too, since we're her first batch of students to graduate from pri sch.. She hasn't really changed much though, well, maybe juz looking a bit shorter haha..

A mum tt nvr was.. Yet a true mother she'll always be..

Was reminded of the very first tr i came in contact with in pri sch.. She followed my class up for 4 yrs straight, den retired due to a bad back.. Heard tt i left a lasting impression on her, which set me thinking back on the pri sch days.. Bits and pieces came flooding back, making me realise how much an impact she had on me.. Kinda sad tt we have lost contact though.. Well, tt's life, isn't it?

In life, many ppl leave footprints in ur heart, but the ones tt truely matter are the ones tt remain imprinted and nvr washed away, no matter rain or shine..

"It's Your Duty" ---Lene...

SwIsS fAll..

Yeah!!!

Swiss fall's finally succeeded with everybody's hardwork and determination, and a bit of credit goes towards kazaa too, haha..

Ntu routine's beginning to take shape too.. But attendance prob is popping up as well.. As usual, juz like house cheerleading.. Guess there's not much to do, except to remain optimistic and hope for the best? There can be miracles when u believe..

Think everyone's getting real busy for the hols.. Jobs and everything.. Lost contact with seemingly lots of ppl.. Or maybe it's juz me..

Meeting up with pri sch classmates today, after so many years.. Changes wil definitely occur, wonder whether it's for the better or worse.. But do hope this will not be the last time we meet though.. Let the friendship remain firm in our hearts..

Beginning to feel the importance of money these few days.. Saving up isn't easy, requiring skipping meals or resisting the urge to shop.. No choice, got to repay debts and all.. Sigh.. Hope commandos pay well.. =)

"When U Believe.." ---Mariah Carey, Whitney Houston...
(There can be miracles, when u believe...
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill..
Who knows wat miracles, u can achieve..
When u believe, somehow u will..
U will when u believe..)

ThE pInK dReSs..

The Pink Dress

There was this little girl sitting by herself in the park.

Everyone passed by her and never stopped to see why she looked so sad.

Dressed in a worn pink dress, barefoot and dirty, the girl just sat and
watched the people go by.

She never tried to speak.

She never said a word.

Many people passed by her, but no one would stop.

The next day I decided to go back to the park in curiosity to see if the
little girl would still be there.

Yes, she was there, right in the very spot where she was yesterday, and
still with the same sad look in her eyes.

Today I was to make my own move and walk over to the little girl.

For as we all know, a park full of strange people is not a place for
young children to play alone.

As I got closer I could see the back of the little girl's dress.

It was grotesquely shaped.

I figured that was the reason people just passed by and made no effort to
speak to her.

Deformities are a low blow to our society and, heaven forbid if you make
a step toward assisting someone who is different.

As I got closer, the little girl lowered her eyes slightly to avoid my
intent stare.

As I approached her, I could see the shape of her back more clearly.

She was grotesquely shaped in a humped over form.

I smiled to let her know it was OK; I was there to help, to talk.

I sat down beside her and opened with a simple, "Hello".

The little girl acted shocked, and stammered a "hi"; after a long stare
into my eyes.

I smiled and she shyly smiled back.

We talked until darkness fell and the park was completely empty.

I asked the girl why she was so sad.

The little girl looked at me with a sad face said, "Because, I'm
different".

I immediately said, "That you are!"; and smiled.

The little girl acted even sadder and said, "I know."

"Little girl," I said, "you remind me of an angel, sweet and innocent."

She looked at me and smiled, then slowly she got to her feet and said,
"Really?"

"Yes, you're like a little Guardian Angel sent to watch
over all people walking by."

She nodded her head yes, and smiled.

With that she opened the back of her pink dress and allowed her wings to
spread, then she said "I am."

I'm your Guardian Angel," with a twinkle in her eye.

I was speechless -- sure I was seeing things.

She said, "For once you thought of someone other than yourself.

My job here is done".

I got to my feet and said, "Wait, why did no one stop to help an angel?"


She looked at me, smiled, and said, "You're the only one that could see
me," and then she was gone.

And with that, my life was changed dramatically.

So, when you think you're all you have, remember, your angel is always
watching over you.

ThE dAy...

Another day till e big day..

Or is it really tt huge a magnitude?

Pretty much aching from all the physical activities these few days.. Guess some training will really need to be registered in b4 28 of jan.. Probably do so after e day lor..

Wonder wat i'll look like, or wat the stylist will make me look like..

Sometimes it's juz so weird tt wat some think looks good on u may not be so for others.. Guess it's not possible to please everyone ya? Juz be happy with it urself i guess, tt's the first and most impt stage.. Hmmm...?

So much training these few days.. Ntu plus sch's.. Kinda pity chingyan, who's flying almost like everyday.. Den again, it means she'll be more ready den ever when the time comes for her to show her stuff.. Wish her the best lor..=)

Suddenly tot of sth tt someone's been debating over..

Change: Good or bad?

Well nvr really put much tot on these, but wat i feel is tt for everything, there's bound to be a good and bad side, depending on diff perspective.. The necessicity of the change can mean a lot too.. Juz so happens tt the change's not to ur liking doesn't mean it's totally bad, ya? Change is part and parcel of life, and whether good or bad we'll have to live with it till the day we open our eyes no more..

So juz be satisfied with wat u have, ya? (",)

"Where is the love?" ---Black Eyed Peas..

ChAnCe Or ChOiCe?

Chance or Choice

When we meet the right person to love, when we're at the right place at the right time, that's chance.

When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance.

Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance.

The difference is what happens afterwards. When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level?

That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling.

If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that's not a chance. That's choice.

When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice.

Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice.

Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance.
But true love that lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make.

Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this: Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen.

I do believe that soul mates do exist. That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not. We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mate is still a choice we have to make.

We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love... BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person
perfectly..


do cherish all the ple ard you.. (=

Cheers~

ChRoNo CrOsS..

"What was the start of all this?
When did the cogs of fate begin to turn?

Perhaps it is impossible to grasp that answer now,
From deep within the flow of time...

But, for a certainty, back then,
We loved so many, yet hated so much,
We hurt others and were hurt ourselves...

Yet even then we ran like the wind,
Whilst our laughter echoed,
Under cerulean skies..."
---Chrono Cross

Jc...

It's been 2 years..

Not too long, yet not too short either..

"Time flies when u're happy.."

Still remember this phrase from the june chalet, n it still brings a smile to my face..

Suddenly the big pic seems all so clear..

So has ur jc life been short or long?

Lalala..

So much has passed by during these 2 years.. Nvr really liked nj for its admin stuff, but the ppl there have certainly given me a wonderful time.. Esp the cl ppl, the crazy bunch of buddies who toss ppl ard like nobody's business, sing and dance the house down,and lots of other stuff tt "pandemonium" wud be a good word to describe.. Not to forget the soccer khakis who's brotherhood was forged on the basketball courts of nj.. Seriously, thanx for everything..

W flew back home to sarawak today.. And stupid me almost didn't make it to the flight.. Missed 4 trains coz tot the train bound for changi still operates from je.. So it was a dramatic 5 min dash thru e arrival hall to bk and another 5 min of photo taking b4 she left, with tears in her eyes.. I guess life juz won't be the same w/o her ya? Not gonna see her anytime soon in the near future, all of us have our own commitments.. At least i was able to bade her goodbye.. Juz in time..

深深的相信, 有那么一天, 阳光普照的这么一天, 我们将会再次重逢.. 离别随痛苦, 但没有离别, 那来得欢聚?

We're missing u already.. Everyone of us.. And if u're reading this at home, dun forget tt there's still this bunch of ppl back here waiting for u to come back one day.. In the meantime, take care, god bless, n may the goddess of luck, fortune, happiness and everything good shine upon u.. Always..

"朋友" ---周华健

ClUbBiNg..

Yeah it's over!!!

Came home early in e morning coz it was too noisy to sleep in the room.. Guess induz3 was really a tiring place to go ya? Everyone went keesiao inside there, think it was act much more fun den at mandarin hotel floor 5, which was juz food and a bit of entertainment from e host.. Lost both my money n my voice, though it was one heck of an experience..=)

Anyway saw this girl in red top who took a 2nd look at me when i was walkin into the pub( haha coz i took a 2nd look at her too => ) Kinda think she's a kindergarden fren, but not so sure so didn't ask..

Haha now i know wat kind of lifestyle really suits me.. It ain't those formal dinner where strict dress codes are imposed, it's those activities tt i can do anything i wan, wear anything i wan.. Guess tt's kinda like wat most ppl wan?

"My Heart will go on.." ---Celine Dion
(Timeless classic..)

回来..

<<回来>>

喜欢一个人去冒险
自由自在飞
闭上眼闯入天空
梦想跟着变大

世界究竟舍么样
不是我想象
那样清楚 那么简单
容易 找不到自己

回到这里 where I want to be
一个熟悉声音向我召唤
这里有我的记忆
给我 补充了温暖

回来 the feeling's so right
给我一个夏天经过伤痕
时间会变成坚强
再次微笑 出发

FiNiShInG..

Last paper tmr.. Yet the lifting of a huge burden is not felt..

Why?

Isn't it good?

Well on one hand not being stressed abt the paper shows a certain level of maturity, though in my case it's a lack of it.. On the other hand it means a lack of seriousness in life.. Hmmm maybe tt ain't tt bad after all..

Haiya rubbish..

So many things to do after the a's..

Soccer..

Socialising..

Playing games..

Eh.. Tt's all??? Sigh there's really nothing much to do here in our small island man.. Or did i left anything out?

Should be going down for ntu training next week.. Ppl's been spreading word abt me, quite paiseh if i dun live up to their expectations.. so need to get back in shape!!

An old fren called last nite.. At cmpb now doing clerical work.. Hehe was quite pleasantly surprised by the call, den
again, got the info tt training in hendon's gonna be hell.. 3 times the normal bmt, 5 times tt of gym training.. Hmmm, seriously speaking, i'm kinda looking forward to seeing wat it's like.. guess i'll go keesiao when i finally come out of the "cage"..

Should go study now, but, u know..

"I will survive" ---Gloria Gaynor..
(Haha i'll keep this song in mind in camp!)

OvEr...SoOn...

3 subs over liao.. Now left with physics only.. Sigh guess prob can aim for (AB)^2 only.. Didn't perform to expectation for econs and fm.. Pia physics liao i guess, but den again, been slacking for so long.. Sigh, think this is easily one of the slackest, if not the slackest, exams i've ever taken.. Well it's gonna be over soon, so havoc Should reign supreme when it ends..=)

Been getting more and more in touch with soccer, both on and off the field.. Was watching this nike freestyle tournament at youth park, and boy were the ppl impressive with their ball tricks..Haha, 人外有人 i guess..Winning 11 and vs2 are pretty addictive too.. Guess tt's gonna be my life liao, soccer soccer and more soccer.. Well at least i've stopped betting on matches.. Well, at least for now.. Hehe..

Cl com's not gonna be held.. Cheers pulled out in the end.. Sigh juz as well, dun think the squad's act will be ready for the com, judging from wat i hear.. Seriously speaking, i think he does things all for the sake of the team, juz tt the way he goes abt it may not agree with ppl.. And he thinks big, really big.. C'mon man, 每个人都有自己的梦想，所有的伟人都是梦想家。。Den again, it's a harsh world we're living in, so maybe..hmm, a tea session? But how many has gone by w/o seeing much improvement.. Haiz..

A point to note:同一屋檐下was damn nice, the song as well.. Pity it was short though.. I guess any show tt's close to the heart will be nice, ya? Haha..

One final note:寻找，寻找，寻找。。
“回来” －－－Jeff Wang, theme song of 同一屋檐下。。

IdEnTiTy...

When I walked up the stairs,

I saw a man who wasn't there...

He wasn't there the next day,

I wish, I wish,

He was never there...

--Identity...

At ThE bEgInNiNg..

A single message...

A simple greeting...

That's all it took to bring us back to the start...

Guess we've finally grown up, ya?

Forgive and forget...

If only we knew that right from the start...

A new start...

A new beginning...

But it'll never be the same again...

...

...

...

Fly high for a's people!!!

Chun Zhen --- Mayday...

爱...?

“我爱上让我奋不顾身的一个人。。。

我以为这就是我所追求的世界。。。”

情不自禁。。。

却开不了口。。。

爱－简单？

哈 哈 哈。。。

。。。

。。。

。。。

“受罪” －－－张信哲。。。

I'vE gOt A qN...

好久以前就想问你这个问题了。。。

却没有这份勇气。。。

也没有这个机会。。。

时间不多了。。。

不知以后的我们是否会再碰面。。。

好吧，那我就问了。。。

。。。

。。。

你喜不喜欢。。。

。。。

。。。

。。。

“布拉格广场” －－－蔡依林

天使..

难忘的一天。。

天使般的脸孔。。

尽然从身边擦身而过。。

上天真是会戏弄人。。

这就叫“有缘无分？”

“缘分只能让你们相遇，恋爱还是需要实际的行动。。”

啊。。好心痛啊。。

“Lovely" ---Michelle Tumes..

cHiLdReN's DaY..

A new month..

A new beginning..

Well not really la, every month's turnover will only see one thing new.. Msg count..

Ar rubbish..

Haven't been updating od for so long.. Heck, haven't even been online for the same period of time.. Either there's connection prob, or too tired, or too lazy.. Hehe prelim period does have 1 thing +ve in it, tt is the time to sleep every afternoon after the morning papers..

Well, didn't fare really well in prelims, guess i really shud start studying soon..Juz kinda pissed at getting screwed of marks for case study.. Next time i'll juz phrase it such tt the examiners are 心服口服..

Ain't really involve in any sensible conversation these few days.. At least not really going in depth.. Guess tt's wat the exam period does to ppl.. Soccer was at an alltime high, almost every single break at the court.. Maybe a bit exaggerate, but ya.. Haha dun care la..

Self-proclaim break's gonna end soon..Hopefully can get back to the gear when starting study again.. In the meantime helping out the needy now.. Hey, it's not all tt hard to pass promos kay? Juz remember the concepts and know how to apply them.. Easier said den done.. Anyway, other den tt can always start having prayer sessions and hope tt they're answered..

Hehe, no life, so not much to crap now.. Dun worry though, it's only a passing period...=)

To all those who're still very much in touch with their inner child, happy children's day!!!

"晴天" ---周杰伦!!!

喜欢..

"我看,改次还是跟班的人一起坐吧..."

"噢,随你的意..."

呵呵,真的发生了..

惨喽,在这个时候又再度陷入情网..而且上一段才刚过去不久呢..

男人真的经不起诱惑吗?真是的,女人的吸引力真的那么大?能使模范丈夫出跬?这可能就是所谓的"七年之痒"..

当然,也不能全全怪到女人头上..相信在许许多多的恋情里,女性所付出的感情是最多地,分离时也是最痛苦的..

问世间情为何物?只叫人生死想许..

意中的对象,难如登天..

不速之客,永追不舍..
Guess tat's wat makes life so full of interest and zest, eh?

小时候..
"哟,有人喜欢某某人噢.."
无忧无虑,根本不知爱情真正的意义何在..
你喜欢我,我喜欢你,但没人真正去试着了解对方..

中学时..
很不/有幸的,在个和尚中学..
不守规矩的和尚多之又多,也不之门路从何找出..
但还是存有着一个小小的"小狗"恋情..
被嘲笑得好残噢..

高中时..
回想起来,可能是太冲动了,或是思考被迷惑了..
嗨,也别提了,往事不堪回首..
学了一件事,女人不好惹..

以后..
以后的道路模糊一片,不知未来会带来舍么..
相信..深信.."她"一定在灯火岚山处..
等待..守候..那一天的到来..
该会是..将会是..美丽故事的起头..
一次就好..不用太多..因为破碎的心是很难弥补的..

但..
如上帝把你遗忘了..
月老的红线刚好用完了..
邱比特也休假去了..
哎哟,糟糕咯..

别气馁,别沮丧..
自己的幸福,要自己去争取..
早回自己..
红线自己拉..
..
..
..
但可别乱射噢!!!

哈哈,神经咯..

"向左走，向右走" ---梁咏琪..

PaRaNoRmAl..

Hehe juz came back from admiralty..Gonna slack a while online b4 starting work again..Sigh..

Anyway was surfing the sfogs website a few days ago, den came acros the topic on marbles in the forum..One such article kinda summarizes the discussion, or at least touch a bit on it..

"Never gave any serious thoughts about all those rolling marbles coming from upstairs late in the nite until I come onto this forum.

I have always thought it must be some kids doing it and quietly curse the parents for not disciplining them. There were occassions where it sounded almost like a bowling ball dropping and rolling across the room upstairs and I came so close to confronting them but as usual, being late in the nite and already half asleep in bed, I just put up with it as it usually last only a few minutes.

Now it seems that this is not a simple case of kids playing with marbles/bowling balls, not the usual kids at least. It's definitely not sheer coincidence that we have some many children living in HDB flats that like to play marbles in the middle of the nite. I have children of my own but they don't play with marbles. Come to think of it, most of my friends kids also don't have marbles in their inventory of toys becos it is a dangerous item as toddlers may swallow it by accident.

So who or what is making that noise?"

Well, i personally dun feel tt little kids will be playing marbles in the dead of the nite, when everyone's sleeping..Some other reasons were given too..

One practical explanation..
"the only time i have experienced this marble thingy before is when i sleep over at my uncles place at marine crescent....it does not create any creepy feelings but rather of curiosity...i always wonder who the hell would play marble at 2/3 am in the morning..i know i won't...but never put much thought to it...
i guess if u think about it logically, it could be the sound made by the contraction of metals...as u know, the concrete used in the building of walls and ceilings are bonded together with steel rods(reinforcement bars) these bars contracts and expand like all metals / it could even be the water pipes in the ceiling...the sound of the marbles could actually be the sound of metals contracting.....u might ask ..that the sound of metals contracting could never sound like marbles dropping ..it would definitely be more like creaking sound...but if u watched war movies where submarines are involved u will realise that this is quite possible...the submarines creaked and a metal hittin sound were made as the thing submerged in to water where pressure drop drastically...well this is just a theory anyway..i could not vouch for it's total truth either but it's worth thinkin about.."

Reasonable enuff, but seriously speaking, does the contraction and expansion of metal sounds like marbles rolling? Maybe..But wat abt the case of furnitures?

Less practical explanation..
"hello. First time here. Browsing and browsing and came across this topic. It sort of freaked me out, because I was chatting with a buddy once. He's a Malay and had attended some courses on natural healing or something with some holy religious teacher. This teacher told him that Djinns or genies still live among humans here, even in HDB flats, but they live in-between levels. Says if u keep hearing 'marble' sounds, it means the floor above is occpied. Donno how true. Scary huh? "

Hehe, scary, but possibly the truth..

Another possibility..
"i have been talking to this architect friend of mine. I told him about the marble issues. And here is his exlaination.

Its like they too are a bunch of superstitious fellow. So everytime they pile the metal pieces into the ground, they will cement a few marbles with it. So this will go on till the last piece of metal is pile it. by doing this, they are actually hoping the when at nite, the young spirits will play with the marbles instead of the people staying in the building, thats why u often hear sounds and stuff liddat at nite, even if u are living in a one story building.

But after hearing my explaination, do try to hear those sounds again....it seems that people who finally know the reasons....stop hearing these sounds....... "

So which one do u believe..?

Hehe, dun get nightmares hor...=)

"Shen Ah Jiu Jiu Wo!" --Chen Xiao Chun..
(Haha appropriate song?)

WaLk LeFt, WaLk RiGhT..

Sheesh..

Feeling unwell today so stayed at home all day..Slept for most of the time, now online a while trying to get back to daily life routine..Can't seem to start studying too..Even if i start, dun think i'll absorb much in this state..Sigh..Time running out liao..How? How? How?!?

Taking solace in the fact tt 'a's the one tt really matters, not prelims..Hmmm..Still..Haiya..

Watched "向左走,向右走" last nite, courtesy of the promotions gig by 933..Nice wud be an understatement..Tt show was awesome! Well for me anyway..Some cried coz of the misfortune of the cast, being unable to meet each other though they're always only a short distance apart from each other, yet others laughed at the various humorous dialogues and comments made by the cast..Well, at least it ended on a happy note, typical of most movies..Go watch the show ppl!! Even if it means sacrificing 2hrs of ur time..

Jac juz msged, telling me to take care and all tt..Funny thing is, i only told 1 person tt i'm not feeling well..Hmmm..

May be witnessing another union of the hearts within the class..Someone's been getting real close with another, studying together, sharing food and all the stuff..Haha, 南洋的女生真的有那么多魅力吗? We shall see..

Ok shall slack a while more, den try to start on revision..
Try..

"Song 2" ---Blur...

ReViSiOn..

Yeah..

Finally started on revision..Well not much, but it's a start..Hopefully can muster the strength to continue later, otherwise will continue to slack in front of com and tv..Sheesh..

Class's pretty "hot" this past week..Went out with them to eat pizza hut on tue, den on thurs went ktv..Haha sang till our throats were dry and voices hoarse..6 whole hrs, and only $50+! Wat a deal..

Was part of the crowd on the overbridge on thur, before going down "cha xuan"..Got the tic in the end, but it was from a female classmate who didn't wanna go..Left the queue halfway coz of the rampant queue-cutting..良心发现..Read the papers the next day, saw the whole report of the incident, which isn't really very +ve..Fren was telling me while i was leaving tt everyone was doing the same thing, so why care so much? Realised tt in the end it is this kinda attitude tt made ppl act the way they do..I stick to the belief tt one shud remain true to oneself, and stick to his principles..

Anyway, kinda screwed my exams so far..Hopefully can recover during the hols, or at least b4 the A's..The phrase "social conditioning" comes into mind again..In any society, the tots and actions of ppl are usually closely related to their surroundings..Witnessing all these now..Everyone's either busy revising or consulting tutors, asking them for advice..I mean, if there was no need for good grades to get a good job, abt how many ppl will be left in the library? C'mon, not everyone's born to study..Who act enjoys spending time slogging at work? Reality is cruel though, and forces ppl to be practical in their approaches towards life..

Well, tt's the sad fact..Sad, but true..Guess tt's part of the reason why games and novels are so popular among the enthusiasts..They kinda allow u to take on an entirely diff role from life, and lets u experience things otherwise unavailable in the real world..Some ppl say it's only a temporary escape, there's no point avoiding..*shrug* On the other hand, there are others who are able to learn and appreciate the complexity of the characters they assume, and hence derive new tots and feelings..

"情网" --张学友

ScH..

Haven't really been updating the od, been busy and all the stuff..

Prelims coming real soon..Haven't started on any revision though..Dun know wat i'm thinking la, juz dun feel like studying at all..

Interesting to realise how my life has turned out to be w/o cl..Juz whole days of lazing ard..Tt is, once my study momentum has broken..Sigh..Once fm mock's over, it's juz slacking and slacking and slacking..Btw got a d for it..Sheesh..

Passion for soccer's been stirred up again..Played on fri and sat, did cip for soccermania too..(Was on tv btw, haha..)Running thru comics too..Now look a bit like black pepper crab, a bit red and a bit black..

Hair's getting too long for comfort..Prob cut it during the hols..

Sch's coming to an end..So soon..12 yrs in all..Wonder wat's life like w/o sch..W/o uniforms..teachers..students..innocent joy and laughter..

Weird huh? Tt sometimes u hate to get up in the morning to go to sch, and yet at times u can't wait to meet ur frens..Haha guess this is really "失去了才懂得珍惜"..

18 yrs..Gonna be 19 in 6 mths' time..and 20 in 18 mths' time..Tt's 1/4 of my life gone..Wonder wat's it gonna be like in say 20 yrs' time? 40?

Ah..

"我吃的起苦"--动力火车..

肋骨..

恋爱的时候,女孩问男孩

"告诉我,这世上你最爱的人是谁?"

"你呀!小傻瓜.."

"那么,在你心里,我是舍么?"

男孩思索了一会儿

认真的看着她的眼睛

"你是我身体的一根肋骨.."

"圣经上说,造物主见男人太寂寞..在他沉睡时,取他身上一根肋骨,创造了女人..
每个男人都在寻找自己的那根肋骨..只有找到她,他的胸口才不会隐隐地痛.."

婚后..

二人曾度过好长一段甜蜜快乐的时光

因为年轻啊

繁忙的生活使人疲惫 琐碎的烦恼如蚁

居家的日子越来越平淡庸俗

现实生活的重重磨擦 慢慢吞噬着所有的梦想与爱情

不知舍么时候开始

他们之间的争吵于怨恨越来越多 越来越重

某次争吵后

她跑出了家门

隔着大街

他听见她在街对面冲他喊

"你根本不爱我!"

他恨她的幼稚

伤害的话冲口而出

"也许我们结合错误了..你根本不是我身上的那根肋骨.."

她忽然安静了

怔怔的站了好久

他有些后悔

但说出来的话象泼出去的水

是收不回来的

含着泪

回家收拾了所有东西

执意与他分手

她在离去前对他说

"如果我不是你的肋骨,那么让我走吧..与其痛苦,不如解脱..让我们各自寻找自己真正的另一半.."

分别五年..

他一直没有再婚..

他辗转听说她的消息

出国了 回来了

与一个外国人再婚了 又离婚了

她竟然没有等他

午夜梦回的黑夜中

他点起一根香烟

胸口在隐隐地痛

他不愿意承认是想念她的缘故

终于重遇..

在制造无数离别与重逢的机场上

他率团出国考察

隔着一道安检门

她独自站在入口处

平静地对他微笑

"你好吗?"

"我很好,你呢?"

"你找到自己的那根肋骨了吗?"

"没有!"

"我下班飞机往纽约.."

"我半个月后回来..回来给我电话好吗?你知道我的号码..舍么都没有变.."

她回头对他一笑 "再见.."

再见是永远不再见吗?

一星期后..

他知悉了她的死讯

她在纽约丧生

在那场举世震惊的悲剧事件中

午夜..

他再次点起一根香烟

胸口又在隐隐地痛

他终于知道

她

就是他不小心

弄断的那根肋骨..

BiG wAlK...

Hehe...

Slept like a pig yesterday aftr the big walk..From 3pm to 5pm the next day? Gosh a whole 14 hrs! Haha so slack..The cip as well, the whole day juz taking photos with the mp and shaking his hand..Haha..Feel bad abt taking the hrs though..Hmmm..

Fm mock's this sat..Sigh haven't really studied for it, juz doing daily work now..Prelims coming in ard 3 weeks time too..Sheesh, guess i'm the only one who hasn't really started on work yet..Hmmm can't get myself started as well..Lots of inertia in this engine ya? Hard to start but real easy to stop..

Ppl are getting real muggy..Guess once the day draws near,挡也挡不了的时候,人就会不知觉地,开始发奋图强..Think i shud too..So wat am i doing here???

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

<<来生缘>>

寻寻觅觅 在无声无息中消逝
总是找不到回忆 找不到曾被遗忘地真实
一生一时的过去 你一点一滴的遗弃
痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失去你　
也许分开不容易 也许相亲相爱不可以
痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失自己
情深缘浅不得意 你我也知道去珍惜　
只好等在来生里再踏上彼此故事的開始

生生世世 在无穷无尽地梦里　
偶而翻起了日記 翻起了你我之间的故事　
一段一段的回忆 回忆已经没有意义
痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失去你　
也许分开不容易 也许相亲相爱不可以
痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失自己
情深缘浅不得意 你我也知道去珍惜　
只好等在来生里再踏上彼此故事的開始

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

好久以前的歌了..

还记得第一次听这首歌时是再看古惑仔时..
血淋淋的刘得华..摩多车..丧失兄弟与女友..
噢..好凄惨的一部电影..

好怀念过去的日子哦..

小时候无忧无虑的日子..

嗨..

HeNdOn..

Tired..

Juz came back from Hendon camp..Sigh now wondering if i really wan to join commandos, after today's visit..Most ppl inside were pretty critical, saying things like "nj, dun come, dun come.." Den the instructors were like saying "dun listen to other ppl..if dey do, report dem to us.." So who do we listen to? Heard abt a case of a parachute being sabotaged as well.. So wat to do wat to do??? Shall juz let nature take its course la..

Frens..Think i'm blessed with dem..It seems to me tt i'll have a fren by my side most of the time..Like today, didn't go to e camp with anyone, but came back with Wenyou..Didn't really know him b4, but can really hit off with him..Was doin the personality and stress-management test..Sub-consciously i was juz choosing all the answers with the word "friends" or had the notion of it..A million thanx to all out there, for being a fren..=)

And hey, wat rubbish lyrics?? 去去去!!! They all have meanings kay..Haha but a bit like flooding the place..Nvm la, it's my od anyway haha..

Heard these few lines on 一加一等于三..

"废话少说,长话短说,有话快说..."

"我真的很羡慕她...应为她能够与你相爱..."

Have to go work on stats revision tut liao..Juz notice tt most ppl dun even come online liao..Mind, am i really tt behind in studies?? Wait for me ppl!!! 我来也!!!

"你的眼睛"---熊天平,许如芸!!!

和世界面对面

和世界面对面
<<和世界面对面>>

银河是宇宙的大街..
街上有繁星点点..
希望是挡雨的屋檐..
让梦看见蓝天..

辛苦的泪水最宝贝..
一滴换一种体会..
星河系反复的排练..
好戏正要上演..

和世界面对面,是爱和信念..
每一步,踏得跟坚决..
一路上,你我走在同一遍..

冷漠的人群是阴天..
热情的心是晴天..
愉快的天色是蓝天..
我站在你身边..

辛苦的泪水最宝贝..
一滴换一种体会..
星河系反复的排练..
好戏正要上演..

和世界面对面,是爱和信念..
每一步,踏得跟坚决..
一路上,你我走在同一遍..

和世界面对面,精彩的岁月..
布满了,喜悦的海水..
天河地,永远站在同一遍..

银河是宇宙的大街..
街上有繁星点点..
希望是挡雨的屋檐..
让梦看见蓝天..

冷漠的人群是阴天..
热情的心是晴天..
愉快的天色是蓝天..
我站在你身边..

再见萤光兰;我相信

<<再见萤光兰>>

给我爱绝对的自由,让我能完整的拥有..
人海里总有个人在等候,不必烦忧,把青春尽情来挥洒个够..
不要说天长和地久,现在我难预测以后..
青海里寻找千万个理由,要走要留,爱不在闪也不必再守候..

靠近我一同感受心跳的节奏,每分每秒生命不要错漏..
紧紧跟随快乐的脚步走,爱不眠不休,梦继续追求..
悲伤的回忆不要收藏起太久,真心的我等待深情回收..
好好回应我释放的温柔,在幸福源头,让爱情..
不会有停电的时候..



<<我相信>>

不小心,打翻回忆..
藏不住,好想你的秘密..
在寂寞夜里,
感觉竟如此的清晰..

每一次,沿着记忆,
一路上,全是我爱你的讯息..
如影有随行,
越是想你越难以抗拒..

我相信,这情怀,有一天你会明白..
不管现在未来,你的一切,都让我期待..
我相信,这份爱,这么甩也甩不开..
看你悄悄走进,却有离开,相信综会回来..

不值得..

<<不值得>>

除了想你,除了爱你,我舍么舍么都愿意..
翻开日记,整理心情,我真的真的想放弃..
你始综没有爱过,你在敷衍我,一次一次忽略我的感受..
我真的感到力不从心,无力继续..

这感情,不值得我犹豫,不值得我考虑,不值得我爱过你..
这种回忆,不值得我提起,不值得想起不值得哭泣..
这段感情,早就应该放弃,早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹..
这样的你,不值得我和你,不值得我为你而坏了心情..
我决定不为你而毁了性,放弃爱..

除了想你,除了爱你,我舍么舍么都愿意..
翻开日子,打开心情,我真的真的想放弃..
你始综没有爱过,你在敷衍我,一次一次忽略我的感受..
我真的感到力不从心,无力继续..

这感情,不值得我犹豫,不值得我考虑,不值得我爱过你..
这种回忆,不值得我提起,不值得想起不值得哭泣..
这段感情,早就应该放弃,早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹..
这样的你,不值得我和你,不值得我为你而坏了心情..
我决定不为你而毁了性,为你而放弃爱情..
不为你而毁了性..
我决定不为你而毁了性..
放弃爱..

FaReWeLl...

Sunday nite..

The nite tt ends it all..

It's time to say goodbye liao..

Time to start work..

No more play liao..

Gonna miss it all..

5,6,7,8's..Partner stunts..Pyramids..Flirting..Heart to heart talks..Trips to kap..Most importantly, the friendship and bond tt's been shared among the team..

This entry ain't really reflecting wat i'm feeling throughout the day act..Dunno why, but somemhow i dun feel tt this goodbye's going to be long..Or tt it's really a goodbye, rather it's juz going to be an extended vacation for me till i return..Fret not, i'll be back in a flash..

Gonna try out single lib..

Gonna teach candice front flip..

Gonna teach shawn the sms count trick..

Gonna update myself with the latest gossips..

Nvr had a serious talk with the lignum gals till today..Didn't realise tt our squad has such a large array of individuals coming from diff backgrounds and histories..Candice cried..But not coz we bullied her..It's the past events tt bother her..Jac i'm not too sure though..Prob almost the same?

Poning sch tmr for the first time..Haven't done work yet so no pt going..Wonder if i'll really do work though..Gonna slp in, tt's for sure..Can imagine the faces of the rest going to sch tmr..Stoned, juz like last yr..

Thanx for the doggie, little girl..Wasn't really expecting tt qn to be meant for everybody..Guessed it really cost u a small bomb to get it for all the 4 of us? Dun worry, it won't go thru rain or shine..

Thanx to ding and zj as well, for continuing to make life in cl so much more interesting den all other ccas..We'll continue to keep in touch, ya? Though zj doesn't write here often, but i believe tt he does scan thru the entries now and den..

Thanx to ignis gang, for being so supportive and tolerant of the tough training times during house cl..Ur spirits and enthusiasm gave me the drive to go on, and nvr fail to make me look forward to training..Best of luck for next yr's com ya? May ignis hse cl's flame always burn bright!!

Thanx to wc as well..W/o him, guess our basket toss won't be tt high..Haha..

Thanx to hj, for sending me a memory of x-challenge..Prob need the rest of the clips too, but will wait till u get a faster connection..

There's more to thank in one way or another..But no matter wat, juz wanna thank the whole squad..For adding the most vibrant colours in my life..For putting the icing on the cake..For all the wonderful moments and memories in my jc life..A big thanx to everyone..Arigato gozaimashta!!!

"祝你一路顺风" by 小虎队!!!

NaTiOnAl DaY pArAdE..

Somethings nvr change...

Somethings will change forever...

Guess tt's Nature Balance for u...(",)

Another ndc, another routine, another team..

Assembled early in the morning to warm-up..Everything went pretty well..The atmosphere from last yr wasn't there though..Prob coz the number has decreased significantly, or tt i haven't really woken up yet..Was with lc for quite some time while waiting for our turn..Still dun think he's tt bad as some ppl may say abt him..Ding was all over the place, flirting as usual haha..

Float com was on, and we were viewing it from the 2nd floor..Everythign went well till the dismount, when yt "fell" and rolled on the track..Couldn't bear to see the last part, though she was fine..Haha "rolling" famous overnight..Ch felt damn bad i think..Whole day ban3 zhe4 lian3..Aniwae, routine went pretty well..Though a few stunts failed, but it was overall impressive to the crowd, and cheng was full of praises for it..Ignis won the overall com on the day, but lost out the ne challenge to aqua hse..Everyone was a winner on the day though, as they thoroughly enjoyed themselves..Ya..

Went back to ri after tt..Was so looking forward to meeting the 4F gang after so long..And there they were, waiting in the canteen..Most pon sch to come back earlier to play..Spent almost 2 hrs under the sun playing soccer, went out to eat after tt, den played pool, lan, arcade and such..Hilarious moments all over the afternoon..

Heard from a fren tt the gal who commited suicide was justina..Damn shocked after tt..Such a cheerful, bubbly person..Suddenly, a person u knew juz didn't existed anymore..Though can't say tt i'm close to her, but at least i shared almost the same prob with her..Relationship probs..Sigh, shi4 shi4 nan2 liao4..Heard tt she called her best fren and said "sorry" b4 she departed..Still have a short clip of her when she went with us on a cip trip to genting..Guess tt's the only memory left of her..

Stayed over at a fren's hse after everything..Watched soccer on tv, den got to know how the rest were doing..Sometimes it's weird to know tt all of us have gone to diff colleges, and not been in the same class for 2 yrs liao, yet we still have lots to talk abt, lots to share..And yet at this time, u still can't seem to click with some ppl in ur class..Tt's the wonder of human relationship i guess..

She still talks abt me in her blog..-ve comments of course..Tot the talk wud have settled everything once and for all..Interesting to know how someone can have such an impact on another person's life..Gotta be careful next time..Really careful..

Tmr's the last time liao..Hope everything goes well..Gambatte kudasai!!!

"Shuo Ai Ni" by Jolin Tsai!!!

GoOdByE..

Goodbye...

A word tt we always come across in our daily lives, yet a feeling tt's so hard to come in terms with..

Today's prob the last training fro us seniors liao.. Didn't realise it till ding mentioned it on the bridge.. Guess after tmr and this sunday's performance, we'll be officially retiring from cl for the time being.. Seriously speaking, i was pretty sad when i was transfered into nj from rj, but it was cl which changed everything.. Some other seniors such as lc will agree with me tt cl has indeed made jc life much, much more meaningful.. The fun we enjoyed, the tears we shared, the times we went thru.. Everything seem so much like a fairytale..

Remember the "freestyler" routine?? Or last yrs' ndc routine?? House cheerleading?? Nationals?? The times we experimented with new stunts..learning dance steps..memorising cheers..Well, and not to forget flirting away.. Not forgetting also the hrs spent playing away after training.. Break-dancing..Flipping..Wrestling..Playing soccer in the gym..My gosh, we even bathed in the rain..

The things we've done this yr..Painted 2 ten metre long banners for cl..Organised dance workshop..Took part in talentime..And coping with heavy workload while preparing for Nationals..It was a long journey for a team so young, and we have shown our potential thru the results we obtained..Many have fallen after tt, but some still believed, and continued on cl with the new generation..

Didn't really expected the first intake to be so well-received.. Tot it was rare to find ppl crazy like us.. In any case some stayed on, some left for greener pastures, others came in to replace them.. A full squad is finally formed, and a credible showing was done at X-challenge.. More is to come, of course..

We've made really good frens thru all these.. Ppl to share our secrets with.. Ppl who will lend a listening ear whenever we have problems.. Ppl who makes u happy.. Ppl who left footprints in ur life..

Wud have typed more in depth if not for the lateness of the hour..Juz wanna say tt it certainly makes me feel glad to see tt our legacy is in safe hands.. Time doesn't wait for anyone, and we'll be leaving soon.. But the pain we endured, the hardships we gone thru, and the endless wonderful memories will always be somewhere close to my heart..

Ending off with our seldom-mentioned motto..

"Believe and Be..."

"Bu Zhi De" by Dreamz Fm...

WoRk...

Sun nite...

Breeze is blowing...

Music is playing...

I am slacking...???

Sheesh...

Econ essay, gp essay, maths tut, physic ass..All undone!!! Pus econs mock on wed, which i haven't started revising yet..Haha siao liao, i'm gonna be so screwed..Dun care la..Wat's impt is the a's rite? Haha self-consolance..

Yesterday was YT's bdae..Went out with her plus ding and zj..Haha the jigsaw's really almost as big as her..Ur welcome for it btw, it's worth the effort for a good fren like u..=) Went to town to gai gai, and got ding a new 6610 plus 4 hilarious-looking poker cards..Man i nvr turn out good in photos..Aniwae as long as we enjoyed ourselves, who cares?

Been slacking ard since den..Can't muster the effort to take out my notes n start reading..Remember, greatest procrastinator? Nvr changed a bit..Sigh..Sometimes really wish to grow up soon, den dun need to study..Or turn back time till young, when u can play all day..Both situation's are really impossible though..Even as an adult, u'll have tons of jobs to handle..Rather not grow up at all den..

Been listening to "Don't wanna try" these few days..B4 tt was "Should i stay" and "If ur not the one"..Realised they're all abt affairs of the heart? Guess emotions are a good topic to base a nice song on? N tt people will be more inclined to these songs since it seems closer to the heart? Hmmm..It's farni how some songs perfectly describes certain situations in life tt u may encounter..Prob coz most events dun differ from each other by alot..

Siao liao..Com's dying off liao..Betta end this b4 everything goes off..Hmm prob slack ard a bit more first..Luckily slept a while juz now..Hehe crapping liao..

"True" - Dragon Drive soundtrack!!!

EnD oF aN eRa..

Wahhh...

Long long time since i act wrote in here..Not tt i'm lazy or anything, juz tt my bro took my laptop to the U, so i'm stuck at home with the slow and lousy pc..This is one of the few times tt 1) it is not hanging and 2) i'm not hanging as well, therefore...this!!!

Hmmm, where shud i start from den? Maybe from thurs on? Coz i really can't rem the earlier days liao..Aniwae, tt day was the long-awaited "half-day" tt Cheng was promising us..Yaya, n my normal lesson ends at 120 lor..Well, at least i got to play soccer from 1130 onwards since i didn't have any more periods after tt..Felt really good on the court act, all the stress from work flew away with the wind..

Training was at 2 after tt..Practising e routine in prep for ndc and jubilee hall..Big event at jubilee hall, as tay puts it, so have to put in extra effort..Floorball com was on at the same time, since we got into the quarters after the matches held the day b4..So being the capt, i rushed down during the break to play..Got tripped and all tt stuff, but was worth it as we eventually won 2-1..But den as training went on, there wasn't any break anymore and so my team lost in the semis whilst i was training in the linkway..Sorrie guys, i've let u all down..=(

Sad things aside, tay den brought kelvin, me and qiu to och..Took quite some time to find it, but we did in the end and boy is the place huge..Shud have seen the corridors man, and the smell..Found the pentagram pictured in the site, and lots of artistic graffti on the walls..Surveyed the place, and all feel tt it'll be damn kong3 bu4 at nite..

Interesting things tt happened:
1)along one of the corridors, as we were exploring the place, kelvin and i heard footsteps behind us..turned but there was no one there, so we hastened our pace till a corner n peeped over it..Still no one, but the sound has ceased by den...
2)this ain't supernatural, but pretty farni act..Saw 2 dogs sleeping in one of the rooms, so tried to tiptoe past dem..they heard us though, and started to look..We rounded one of the buildings and tried to go back by the same way, but den the dogs still noticed us..Eerie, stony glazed they have..The only choice left was to run..

After the ordeal, we still have at least half of the place left unexplored, though other buildings are prob locked up..The mortuary was the aim act..Aniwae, it was geting late for tay's appointment, so took a detour to my camp to see see first..Wonder if i'm really going to be a commondo..Dun really look, or feel like one..

Nth interesting happened today act..Juz felt realy tired during lessons, prob coz of training and floorball on thurs..Aniwae juz came back from njc band concert, etude, not long ago..It wasn't tops, got to say, but could "hear" the effort tt the members put in..Esp liked the percussion part..Sort of an emotional farewell for the yr2s act, since it's gonna be their last performance in nj..As i said, everything's coming to an end for us liao..

Why fear the end though? Shall treat it as a new beginning..A new lease of hope, and a new avenue for the realisation of aspirations...

Haha, first "haha" of the entry? How weird..

2 "tings" bdae on 2nd of August..Heard of the gifts u got liao, but this one's gonna give u a pleasant surprise!! Haha..

Shall go kun liao..Cmi..

"Don't Wanna Try" by Frankie J!!!
(Go see the lyrics man..)

MiA...

Sat...

First time not at cl training since it started..Dun really know how it went..A few msgs from yt,hj and jac kinda summarised it all..Pt..Dance..Stunts..Well, shud have guessed la, but can't help thinking wat diff wud it make if we were there? Or wat diff wud we not make?

Heard tt tay's doing torch..Shirleen fell as a result..Coz not enuff spotters? Hmm maybe.. Wat ding said was rite, one big prob existing now is the lack of guys.. Though magnum also dun have many guys, but they can draw on their alumni, and their gals are big and strong, relative to our squad.. Recruitment from houses is still rock bottom..Guess we really hafta look beyond our borders..

Ding's really phasing out of cl fast..Guess it's partly coz he's a scholar, there's a need to think abt his future..Nth wrong with tt act, juz kinda sad..Hope he does come back when he have the time..We'll be waiting..

Caught the flu bug today..Stupid..Fine when going out, guai guai stay at home then fall slp..So dumb..In the end can't go out with sec sch frens for dinner..Think they beginning to bu shuang liao, keep "releasing pigeon"..Sigh..

Argh..My phone really sux big time compared to the previous ones..The msg screen's so weird, keep sending 2 msgs at a go..Haiya ren a bit, see if dad's willing to get me a better model..

Talking to hj online now..Heard tt another guy came for training today, and tt tangning joined in too..Name's dominic i think..Hmm will prob know him soon enuff..

Haha angie came for training today with another gal, prob crystal..Called out for my name..So embarassing, dunno why..Haha..

Shall go chatting liao..Hafta study soon too..Sigh..

"Shen1 Si3 Xiang1 Xu3" by Leon Lai and Prisilla Chan!!!

FrIeNdS fOr LiFe..

"Friends For Life..."

In kindergarten your idea of a good friend was the person who let you have the red crayon when all that was left was the ugly black one.

In first grade your idea of a good friend was the person who went to the bathroom with you and held your hand as you walked through the scary halls.

In second grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you stand up to the class bully.

In third grade your idea of a good friend was the person who shared their lunch with you when you forgot yours on the bus.

In fourth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who was willing to switch square dancing partners in gym so you wouldn't have to be stuck do-si-do-ing with Nasty Nicky or Smelly Susan.

In fifth grade your idea of a friend was the person who saved a seat on the back of the bus for you.

In sixth grade your idea of a friend was the person who went up to Nicky or Susan, your new crush, and asked them to dance with you, so that if they said no you wouldn't have to be embarrassed.

In seventh grade your idea of a friend was the person who let you copy the social studies homework from the night before that you had.

In eighth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you pack up your stuffed animals and old baseball cards so that your room would be a "high schooler's" room, but didn't laugh at you when you finished and broke out into tears.

In ninth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who went to that "cool" party thrown by a senior so you wouldn't wind up being the only freshman there.

In tenth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who changed their schedule so you would have someone to sit with at lunch.

In eleventh grade your idea of a good friend was the person who gave you rides in their new car, convinced your parents that you shouldn't be grounded, consoled you when you broke up with Nick [or Glenn] or Susan, and found you a date to the prom.

In twelfth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you pick out a college/university, assured you that you would get into that college/university, helped you deal with your parents who were having a hard time adjusting to the idea of letting you go...

At graduation your idea of a good friend was the person who was crying on the inside but managed the biggest smile one could give as they congratulated you.

The summer after twelfth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you clean up the bottles from that party, helped you sneak out of the house when you just couldn't deal with your parents, assured you that now that you and Nick or you and Susan were back together, you could make it through anything, helped you pack up for university and just silently hugged you as you looked through blurry eyes at 18 years of memories you were leaving behind, and finally on those last days of childhood, went out of their way to give you reassurance that you would make it in college as well as you had these past 18 years, and most importantly sent you off to college knowing you were loved.

Now, your idea of a good friend is still the person who gives you the better of the two choices, holds your hand when you're scared, helps you fight off those who try to take advantage of you, thinks of you at times when you are not there, reminds you of what you have forgotten, helps you put the past behind you but understands when you need to hold on to it a little longer, stays with you so that you have confidence, goes out of their way to make time for you, helps you clear up your mistakes, helps you deal with pressure from others, smiles for you when they are sad, helps you become a better person, and most importantly loves you!

Thank you for being a friend. No matter where we go or who we become, never forget who helped us get there...

LiFe'S sHoRt..

Hehe..

Kinda feel lazy today, so shan't be typing much..Ding sounds stressed out by the events happening..Dun fret man, we're always here to lend a helping hand, ya? Cheer up!!!

Was juz looking thru my mail..Chanced upon this touching story..Hope u all like it..


A guy and a girl can be just friends... but at one point or another one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late or maybe, just maybe...forever....

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As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called 'best friend'. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.

After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before. I handed them to her. She said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

**************** 11th grade ****************

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broken her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep.

She looked at me, said "thanks" .

I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

**************** Senior year ****************

The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said, "he's not gonna go..." Well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together - just as 'best friends'. So we did.

Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. Then she said- "I had the best time ever, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends but I'm just too shy.

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A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angle up on stage to get her diploma.

Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said- "You're my best friend ever, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

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Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say 'I do' and drive off to her new life, married to another man.

I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!".

She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek.

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Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'. At the service, they read diary entry she had wrote in her high school years.

This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine; but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

I wish he would tell me he loved me!

"I wish I did too..." I thought to my self, and I cried.

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Life's short..So make sure u enjoy every moment of it and live it to the fullest!!!

"Fen1 Xiang3" by Sky Wu!!!

LoSt...

Told my parents liao..

Think i kinda disappointed them..Well i disappointed myself as well..

"How cud u lose ur wife.."
(Translated, of course..)

Sigh, wat's over is over..Dun think tt heartless soul will have the heart to give my phone back..

Woke up feeling sore today from all the table carrying last nite..Had to go down to hello! to get sim card replaced so got ding along since he wanted to change his phone aniwae..Haha but den the scheme for foreigners changed and so pissed him off..(Sorrie man, but dun think my dad will agree..)Didn't know tt had to bring dad's ic to get sim card replaced as well..Sigh..Have to wait till tmr den to showcase my 2100..Yaya, wat a phone to showcase..

Went for the SCA meeting after tt with quanda, kelvin, hongzhou and huijin..It was so so boring..Plus this gustio guy keep hogging onto the frontlight tt sometimes willie didn't even look like the chair of the meeting..There's this long-tongued gal by the name of shirley spatting loads of rubbish too..Got tired of it halfway and so went out to BK with HZ to eat..Nice timing too, since the meeting ended by the time we came back..Well the only interesting thing to note is tt there was this guy juggling bottles and these bunch of break-dancers showing off their moves by the side..Cool..

Took the train home with HJ after tt..Haha ding always says it's stressful when left alone with her..Methinks it's coz there still exist an affinity..Hehe..Aniwae got to know her a bit betta..She's not much diff from me now, in terms of thinking tt is..Afraid to love, afraid of commitment, afraid to hurt and be hurt as well..Guess tt kinda summarizes the worries of some teenagers now? The thing is, she hasn't been thru one b4..

Another day gone..Lots of things to do, lots of dreams to fulfil..Thinking back, there's so many things tt i wanted to do but couldn't find the time or the effort to persist on..Like breaking or dancing..The interest juz kinda faded away..Think it really requires 2 or more to pursue sth in order for the interest to go on..Otherwise doing it alone is so boring..If i didn't leave rj, i'll probably still be climbing rockwalls or canoeing ard singapore or even stunt and mountain-biking round the island..hmmm..Well, at least i had fun while it lasted..And the memories will always remain..

Haven't really been writing cheerful entries these few days..Nono. tt's not me..Shall zhen4 zhuo4 and look forward to the future..Go Bao!!! Jiayou jiayou jiayou!!!

"Hao3 Xin1 Fen1 Shou3" by Candy Lo!!!

SoRa..=(

Sheesh...

Wat a day...

Wat a life...

Wat an unexpected turn of events...

Haiz...

Life's like a movie playing...There's bound to be ups and downs...N today so happens to be one of the down sides...

Should i curse and swear? Or should i even be angry? I dunno..Let the person feel guilty, while i juz blame it on my luck? Or was it something tt i've done? Dunno dunno dunno...Feeling tipsy now..May get emotional too..Sigh...

It's been only like 2 mths..Sth tt seldom left my side, even when i sleep..The card's even more significant..It's been with me since i first started having a phone..From the first 8210 den 8310 den 6100..My contacts..Build upon since sec4..My msgs..Saved for dunno how long..My lyrics and quotes..Spent dunno how much time searching and inputting them in..Haiz..I'm really gonna miss it..Sobz..

It's farni how the way things turn out in life..In the morning i was looking at my phone and had a weird premonition..It's as if my phone started feeling distant from me..hmmm.."It might sound crazy but it ain't no lie...Baby bye bye bye.." To think i was still singing so enthusiastically..

All is not lost though..Funtasia is quite successful in my opinion, much betta than i expected it to be..The signs weren't promising rite from the start..Thunder, lightning and dark clouds boomed and flashed across the morning sky, and i guess tt plays a impt part in pushing back the opening time to 11am..Aniwae didn't had to help out in the hall unless required, so was walking ard the funfair exploring various stalls..Won 2 fish toys and 2 fans at the hammer stall..Though i think they increased the difficulty after i won the initial 2..Tsk tsk..

Other stalls worth mentioning was the dunking machine stall..The bid to have a go at sp went up to as high as $200 for 5 tries..Woah..And alas, she wasn't spared from the pool..Lots of food and games stalls ard, but not many were really worth playing..Though prizes consist of mp3 players and warcraft 3 expansion set, but it'll take a million yrs to act win them..Side note, the flying fox's pretty cool too..

Haunted hse's a huge success i muz say..quite proud of it when i went in this morning coz lots of things were touched up and it was marvellous..Well at least to some la..Guess the revenue generated and the long long queue will speak volumes of the success rite? Think we earned abt $5120..And some are not even satisfied coz we didn't hit our target..I mean, isn't it good enuff tt we got more than $2k for each class? And considering the budget constrain tt the sch 'N' the committee members imposed on us, gotto say it's a pretty well-done job..

Performed 4 times at the track today..Crowd was pathetic though, den again, we had to enthu the crowd instead of the crowd enthuing us so..Btw, think YT too insignificant in the recording liao..Did ya know he's back at tt again? Sigh..Quite bu shuang den but wat to do? Nvm it's not the show, it's the process of going thru it..

Think i looked quite bu shuang juz now when my phone was stolen and some saw it..Sorrie to all those out there, though u all won't read this..Hope i didn't spoil anyone's day..

Been busy in the hall this week, so missed out loads of fun when the guys went out..Sigh..Time's running out too..Hafta try to make each session as enjoyable as can be liao..dun wanna leave any regrets behind..Ya..

Shall be getting a replacement sim card tmr..Sobz..

Haven't told my parents yet..Shudder..

Gonna get a good nite's rest soon..Tired..Zzz...

"Love is a Crime" by Anastacia!!!

TiMe..

Time...
Sth tt i'm seriously lacking now..Not juz in work, but also in preparing for the haunted hse and also for going out..

Sheesh..Juz came home not long ago, stuck in sch doing up the hall for the horror illusion stuff..Kinda unhappy in the beginning coz of the lack of coordination and the girls ordering us abt..Den they didn't wanna provide the funds for us to buy cloth, saying tt it was only for emergencies..Sheesh..True, but why do u need to keep $200???
Aniwae luckily there were these bags of curtains at the bag of the hall which we could use as partitions..Den again, wat's a wedding room doing in a haunted hse???

Haha tt aside..Tmr got training again!!! Yeah!!! Finally can have some real fun again!!! Was takin bus home with HX yesterday and was like complaining tt i rarely reach home with the sky still bright..Haha..Sui2 zhong4 du2 hui4 bi2 wo3 shen1?

"Tai yang xia shan ming zao yi jiu pa shang lai..." Haha..Juz when u think sth's going to be history, it juz pops up again, all fresh and ready to go!!! Guess he really went full-steam with tt suggestion, eh? Hehe..Suddenly feel tt a good show's abt to start haha..

Hmmm juz realise this entry got no head or tail..Nvm, it's the tot tt counts haha..

"Shi4 Jie4 Mo4 Ri4" by Jay!!!

BaCk...

Sheesh...

Wasn't really gonna write anything in today, but guess if i dun do so i'll prob forget to so here goes nth..

Hmmm back from rj not long ago..The trip back wasn't as bad as it might have turned out to be, rather i kinda enjoyed the journey..Enjoyed the breeze with zj and steph up at the grandstand, and met a few old frens as well..Haha as usual, kelvin was up to his old self..Hmmm juz let him be man..

Well, was juz thinking, it's really kinda hard to have frens in other jcs..As in, sometimes u're really busy n dun have time to go out with dem, den it's like they'll think u rather hang out with ur new frens now..Guess it's a real dilemma for me? Hmmm..Wonder if he's really angry? Sigh..

Aniwae felt really dumb juz now..Missed 3 buses in a row..How i managed tt u might ask..Well, ermm, not wearing specs played a big part..Haha..So dumb man..But den again, was thinking of stunts to try out..So..Haha nvm, juz feel dumb la..

Next few days will be busy setting up the hall for funtasia..Class's doing the horror illusion thingy..Wonder if it'll be a success, or the funfair for tt matter..Hmmm..Been to real haunted houses so many times liao tt i wonder will it be really possible to set up one..Well..Juz hope for the best la haha..YT muz come hor!!!

Gonna keep this entry short..Need to look for music liao..Cya next time!!!

"Billy Jean" by Michael Jackson!!!

3rD..

Heyoz!!!

Was going to type last nite but ding and ZJ were both on so ya..Aniwae have the luxury of time and energy today, since for the first time in a week there's no training..Feels weird though, the familiar rhythm and counting of 5,6,7,8 seems to be so close yet so far away..

A bit on yesterday's com..Didn't really expect to get anything b4 the com, but after watching the first team, was kinda confident of getting either 1st or 2nd..Well got 3rd in the end la..Though a bit disappointed, but den magnum was really good..Creative in their stunts, high in their energy as well..Somemore we're a relative new team as well, and most are in their first com as well..So 3rd is commendable act..Well done Maelstrom!!!

Met today at linkway to decide on where to go from now on..Yesterday's com really got everyone excited and addicted.."Zhong4 du2" as Mtay puts it..Hmmm..in any case shall have prob 3 more performances, den it's buh-bye for now..So soon..Sigh..Shall be back in 2 yrs' time, mark my words..Haha..

Inna msged and asked for our help, so we'll be going down to rj to help out their hse cl tmr..Haha sort of like an impromptu training for us..Hmmm..Rj..Forgettable and unforgettable memories alike there..Sigh..Nvm all's in the past, shall not ponder over them..Prob gonna meet some old classmates there..Wonder wat they'll say..Haha..

Yeah ZJ's finally contributed inside here!!!Haha juz realised i've mentioned it in the beginning..Well now XYZ are all here..Hmmm..Now can keep in touch even when we go army liao haha..

Haha go check out the X-challenge pics posted by michelle..Full of chairs haha!!! Nth but chairs n chairs n pics of chairs haha..

Hmm getting late liao..Still peace n quiet online..Well except for a few familiar souls like HZ n Shawn..

Sheesh animes take so long to dl!!!(Haha dun mind this, juz complaining..)

Shall end off liao..Kinda excited abt tmr, dunno why..Coz there's cl? Haha..

"Eyes on Me" by Faye Wong!!!
(Final Fantasy rulez!!!)

my first and last time

hey ppl... wonder why such a topic? simply cos its my first time contributing to this journal today and also the last time that im taking part in a cheerleading competition as a njcian haha.. miss those days sigh... but hao jing bu chang zai... though i dun really like e idea of having an OD but guess i'll just follow suit due to popular demands...
first of all, congrats to everyone!!! we've attained a respectable position in today's competition. think our efforts did paid off and our performance was commendable. everyone's spirit was damn high and no wonder we went to do a few stunts after e prize presentation and take lots of photos. well and i did a chair on lin yi... hurray! think she's damn small girl lar... haha doesnt seem to grow up. just standing behind her during the dinner at kfc will scare e hell out of her cos she commented that i looked white... 'so scary!' im not that white after all what right?
think my nu er very ke lian. actually allegic to fabric and got rashes all over her body be4 the comp. sigh went all e way to mt alvernia to visit doctor somemore. anyway on e way home... yt was staring into e stalk of rose and complaining to me how 'fan' wc was. well just think of it this way, who's he to u anyway? just do what u like k? if he wants to continue being hum then just let him be haha. remember this: no one have control over ur own life except urself! hate e way he stares at ppl and e way he look down on ppl. yeah ab was right, damn shuang suaning him... just like today also. he thought his basket toss was e highest but video proved otherwise and he was damn malu cos before that he was giving us that typical look of his!yt am i a flirt? haha... ab and df... i asked this cos yt keep bothering me with this qns: ' do u think im a flirt?' haha... well... all i can say that u'r equally friendly as me! sociable! approachable! oops... haha am i egoistic?
sometimes i really wonder. am i really a flirt to stay on in cheerleading or do i really enjoy cheerleading rather than flirting... hmmm... that remains a qns yet to be solved haha....
haha there's still a dragonfly on my arm dunno how to go to sch tmr... yeah dismiss at 1 tmr then going to see skin specialist! sigh... getting tired now... goodnight ppl... hope that in e near future i will have e time again to continue this... take care! i'll never ever forget this day in my life... yet another achievement another 3rd in my life... come to think of it at least im only 2 ren zi xia, 10000 ren zi shang haha... crap...


With love,
ZzHhIiJjIiAaNn =p

TrAiNiNg..

Hey hey!!!

Been some time since the last entry..Many things have happened, but dun really remember all of them..Sigh..Shall juz try to piece dem together ya?

Hectic week, and a tiring one for all of us too, i muz say..Trainings, trainings n more trainings everyday..And not to forget the lectures and tutorials..Well com is near, wat to do? Can see the shagged faces on everyone every morning..Well wat to do? Gambatte everyone!!!

One pissing tt happened this week was abt the shoes..Ordered twice, and both times we were "tuaed", so to speak..Mtay got so pissed during the first time tt he blew his top..Boy..Well the issue was solved when XYZ when down to queensway to get the shoes tt finally arrived..Hmm got to mention tt QD and K got the other 4 shoes as well la..Haha..Good job guys!!!

Trained at the track yesterday..Reminded me of the time b4 nationals when we were act sharing the track with trackers and other sporting ccas..Now all are having their coms, and after this few times more we yr2s will be out too..Sigh..Gonna miss all those sweating and playing and fooling ard during cl liao..Dun wan!!!Hmm..Trust me, i'll be back!! Haha...

Aniwae ding was saying he had a bad feeling abt the last run of the routine as the sky was almost dark..True enuff, shirleen injured her left shoulder..Well, at least she's a tough girl..Hope she's all better when com comes..

Did toss-up-full-ex today!!! Yippee!!! Of course, it was with the help of ding, but didn't really think i was able to do it..Haha guess tt raises my highest skill achieved?
Think gonna try either single or double-base lib soon, when the time comes haha..And boy did HJ fly today!! Haha, not saying tt YT can't fly, but den, she's so light tt dun really feel anything when she loads up so ya..Haha dun worry woman, we won't give up ya? Shall make u master basket toss!!! Den next time can fly with the up and coming HJ!!! Haha..Think u're gonna be highly demanded these few trainings..Coz ding and K wanna try out stunts so gotta start with level one..Haha..Yeah man!

Hehe tt brings me to another point..Zi4 jue2 fen2 mu4!! Haha coined the phrase from a comic book..Happened when i was replying to YT's msg tt WC saw, i think..Then he started msging me abt whether he shud give up coz he saw tt we were closer..Was assuring him tt there was nth b/w us den he started pouring his tots out, like when he sees us together he's quite bu4 shuang3, den we dun trust him and also isolate him..Sigh..Think he really thinks too much..Low self-esteem is a fact as well..Hmmm..

Haha juz sth tt i wanna get off my chest..When Mtay changed the rotation base to basket toss, i sensed tt history was gonna repeat itself again..True enuff, there was the familiar "cuo4 liao3", or the "bu4 gou4 gao1", or the "wo3 men2 bi3 jiao4 gao1", or the..u get the pic? Last yr it was the same case, this yr again..i admit tt ZZ's basket toss was really high, but so wat? Does tt mean tt u can suan the other grp? Doesn't he realise tt it gives undue pressure to the flyer? At least this time it's YT, and she can like,"zai4 lai2 yi1 ci4?" Last yr's flyer was so disturbed by her frequent screw ups tt she ended up crying a few times..

Ahhh wat an evil paragraph!!!Well i'm fine with wateva he says, juz thinking of the impact those words have on the flyer and the rest..So when we finally flew higher den them, ZJ grabbed the opp and started suaning him..Haha was laughing like mad for tt..Haha me evil too!!!

*Slap slap!!*

*Ouch!*

Ok qing1 xing3 liao..Everything's fine and normal..

Dun worry, we're still on gd terms..It's juz tt his actions sometimes gets on my nerves, ya..

Haha many others joining the zi4 jue2 fen2 mu4 league these few days..QD was like playing with YT's hair this morning, den K took 961 home with her today..Dun know whether u'll be laughing when u read this or not, but shudn't u be feeling honoured tt u're now the centre of attraction? Haha..Maybe all these are unnecessary to u, but u've gotto admit they do add an element of spice in ur life rite?

Peace on the web, guess everyone's zonked out after training today..

Haha shall sign off here too..

Nitez!!! And sweet dreams!!!

Ermm..to myself? Haha..

"Zhen1 Xin1 Hua4" by Peter Ho!!!

An AbRuPt EnD...

Heyozz!!

Sch's starting tmr liao..Sigh..Didn't realise the holidays will be gone in a flash..Even with the extra 5 days after cts ended, it didn't really make much of a diff..Well maybe juz a little breather in prep for the hectic term 3? Come to think of it, there's so much work to be done..Those tt are not done during hols, prep work for 'a's, and cl com..Haha pray tt we survive thru all of tt in triump mood..

Juz read ding's input..Chim as usual..Well not as much as the last one, but it basically deals with human relationships and stuffs, so it's chim nonetheless..Super small font as well, making it harder to read..Hmmm..Well at least not many are reading it..For now..Haha..=)

Went ZJ hse yesterday..Suppose to help him settle his prob, but ended up talking abt others..Well, after a few initial efforts though..In the end he settled it while we were still asleep.."Qie4 yi4" was the phrase tt ding used to describe our lives now..And it's not going to last long liao..To think tt next yr, we'll all be somewhere else other than nj, ZJ n I will be in camp and ding's prob gonna find a part-time job..Sigh..If i was him i'll prob juz be visiting the juniors like everyday and fool ard with dem..After all, this is our last yr as clasroom-bound students..There won't be another time to relive the life now..Haiz i'm feeling old now, all 18 yrs of it..

Strayed off the topic..Anyway we act managed to bake rather decent choc cookies at his hse..Though they didn't really look appetizing, but at least they tasted good..Well to us la..Haha..Ding juz lazed ard the whole time though, haha..Good life he lives..

Left and met YT at woodlands lib with her fren..Boy she's tall..I mean her fren..Aniwae wanted to catch twins effect but it wasn't showing at the cinema there..Wasted effort..In the end we shopped for gifts for ZJ's australia fren and ate a bit again after lunch at ZJ's hse..

Did i mention tt my laptop's finally back in commission? Yay!!! Infrared some pics and tones into my phone finally..Now it's really fulfilling it's potential haha..

Guess i'll stop here for today..Have to finish econs mcq..Argh..Dun even know wat to expect for ct tmr as well..Well at least the first period's pe!!! Hehe..

Shawn's on..Let's see wat she has to say..

"In the End" by Linkin Park!!!

OuT pLaYiNg...

Ohio!!!

Been absent for quite some time liao...Busy playing and all the stuff, not much sleep gotten too so didn't have much time to update the od...So here goes the days tt have gone by...Haha...

Went to watch Charlie's Angel the other day...Kinda enjoyed the crazy show, but think the atmosphere tt hovered ard b4 was still lingering in everyone..Me feels tt most were probably acting crazy to try to lift it..Hmmm or am i wrong? Probably it's sth tt's subconsciously done? Aniwae here goes a quote from the movie..

"Angels are like diamonds..u can't make it, u can only find it, and each one is unique.."

Think this applies to frens too? Well not really for the finding part, coz u can also be found by a good fren prob? Haha...

Wat a small world this is..Went Toa Payoh food court to have dinner and guess wat? Most of my gym junior were there having dinner too!!! They juz finished their com..But they forgot to tell me abt it..Sobz..Haiz even if i knew i wouldn't be able to make it..Rare sight it is too..Capt of '01 '02 n '03 all present..Hmmm..It's also a wonder how small ur juniors will always look to u, even if u know they're sec 4 this yr..Haha once small, always small?

Ok now for today's activities..Or shud i say yesterday? Haiyo the date doesn't matter la..Aniwae had a slack training today coz the seamstress came with all the girls' attire..Got to say tt the girls gave us a variety of impressions..As in, each of them portrayed the attire in a diff tone..Hmmm..Wonder wat tt rerally says? Haha..Aniwae, u girls really look good in them la..Dun be afraid to wear them and show off, u're a cheerleader!!! Haha..

Accomplished level 1 single toss to hands and single full ex!!! Woah tt's like quite a feat..For a 59kg guy la..Haha..Guess tt'll be my limit for now? Unless new stunts are taught or my physique gets better..Hmmm..Nvm shall think of it myself when i'm free haha..

Didn't imagine i'll be back at ghin moh so soon again..Accompanied LY to check her back at the sinseh again while the rest of us ate at the hawker centre there..The mango pearl still rocks man!!! Haha..

Went to town next to meet up with QD and Steph, though they were going home liao..Can't imagine tt all the cosmetics and gel gonna cost everybody $6..Sigh..Gonna be broke soon again..Found our way to takasquare to eat, den got ready for the next and final stop...

Our visit, and probably the final one, to the blue hse didn't prove much excitement though it was at nite..True the place was pitch black and nth cud be seen w/o a torch, we didn't see any of the paranormal stuff tt Mtay always saw..Think tt's a blessing act..There were some frights though, like the weird sounds, the opened door and the missing chair..Disappointing, but we can finally say we've conquered blue hse!! Yeah!! Now to research on and plan the next expedition..OCH? Yellow? White? Haha..YT muz be thinking we're crazy..

Whew finally got everything down..Well there other's too, but guess i'll save them for another day..

Getting late liao, no energy left to crap..So..
Oyasuminasai!!!
(Hope i got it correct haha..)

"You Get What U Give" by New Radicals!!!
(Old, but wat's time to a good song?)

NoStAlGiC..

Heyoz!!!

I'm back!!!Haha feeling happy today, dunno why? Coz got class outing? Coz met old fren? Haha coz X,Z and fake W's coming later to play overnite? Haha..

Woke up ard 830 today, but den lazed ard till like 10? Haha lai4 chuang2 is such a nice exp..Esp u got so much program after tt! Haha..Act wasn't really tt keen on going out with my class coz kinda tired from all the mugging, but den didn't go out with dem for so long liao, might as well..

Hehe went east coast for the class outing, but took like 1 whole hr looking for the kayak station.. Hmmm but the sun wasn't out so didn't really get much of a tan..Sigh..Rescued a capsizer! Haha..Finally putting the stars into good use..After tt went cycling! Quite aimless activity though, but the interesting thing is tt one of my bike's pedals came loose on our way back..So had to find a bolt or nut, wateva u call tt, to fasten it back..Some kind hearted chi shop owner helped us foc, not like the 1st malay guy we approached, grrr..Anyway made our way back safely, so all in all still a wonderful day la..

Met an old fren on the way back while i was tending to the bike..Guess tt's wat u call "sai4 weng1 shi1 ma3, yan1 zhi1 fei1 fu2?" Hehe his usual way of speaking reminded me very much of sec4 days..Suddenly feeling nostalgic, wanna relive sec sch life again..Haiz..Gave him the od add, so he shud be reading this soon i guess? Yoz if u're there! I haven't forgotten u! But remember to return my windbreaker n track pants soon! Haha..

Talking abt sec sch days really brings back fond memories..Remeber the days spent gambling in class..The days spent da-baoing back food from canteen n eating in class..The days tt all of us got caught and got into serious trouble..The days of scolding Ms Yong behind her back..The day when a certain person was punished coz of a defamatory website he made..The days of playing soccer in class..Haha we dun seem to do alot of good eh? The funniest thing is tt we had ard 12 cca leaders in the class, and mostly captains as well..We're not a bad bunch, we juz like doing things out of the norm? Haha..Kinda sad tt each of us has gone to diff colleges..We were once saying,"Hey, let's all go to the same jc, then can be in the same class again!" Haha..

"Distance makes the heart grow fonder.."The famous quote tt ppl always use..But is it really true? Apply to frens, it is obvious tt some of us ain't as close to some frens in sec sch than those in jc..Apply to love, well, i dun really need to say more rite? Hmmm...

Sad topic to touch on, so shan't continue..Hey, didn't realise the mood has changed..Haha..Where's all of them!!!

Shall talk abt sec sch some other time..Lots of events from there..

Shall grab a bite now..Kinda hungry..

Shall listen to music while doing so..

Shall start surfing the web..

Shall stop all the shall-ing..

Shal..Oops, suppose to stop tt..

Sha..

Sh..

S..

STOP!!!!

Haha..Till next time folks..

"Fan3 fang1 xiang4 de4 zhong1" by Jay!!!
(Nice tempo and rhythm..Hehe..)

BoReD..

Hey hey!

Jian4 gui3 le4! It's me again!!! Haha didn't really think tt i'll be updating this od so often when i first started it..guess it's ding's words den..He was saying "dun be like last time, start already den dun write anything inside.." Haha wasn't really tt keen on it in the first place..Guess it's coz there's more fun in talking face to face? Or tt computer age has made me become too lazy to write? Woah..

Think i shud leave a space in b/w paragraphs, otherwise very luan4..Hmmm..Sth popped into my head today..The hardest chinese character to comphrehend it's act one of the easiest to understand..Ren2! Hmmm mentioned the complexity of human relationship previously, shan't really go too much into it..Act it's not really possible to fully grasp human relationships at our age now..But even when u do, it may not be sth to ur liking..Hmmm..

Dun really know wat i'm talking abt above, so shan't continue..Haha crapping's more of my style..Or talking trash..or cock..or nonsense..or rubbis..Oops, almost used the copyrighted word..Hehe..

Back to reality..Finished 2 papers today..Dun really think i'll do well in them though..Well wat do u expect from someone who only studied the day b4 the test? Haha..My class topped the cohort for scores in econ mcqs!!! Yippie!!! Woohoo!!! Cowabunga!!! Was juz saying my class ain't gd in anything, only econ mcq..Think i exclaimed a bit too loudly in the hall though..No more face liao..

"The dark side of humans"
Hmm juz a little note on this, since ding was mentioning it at kap juz now..wondering if he minds me saying it here..To err is human, so it is natural for us to think, or feel, or do things which ain't tt saint..Jealousy, anger, arrogance..They're act all part and parcel of life..Juz tt many of us keep them well hidden? Agree? Therefore it act seems as if we ain't tt way..Hmm so in act fact wat our personality is is wat we portray? Juz like when u suddenly get angry when u usually dun, it's all due to little little things tt got pent up within..Den comes a spark..Den..
KABOOM!! There it goes, juz like a volcano..

Haha shan't continue the paragraph, coz it's so subjective..And i'm beginning to not understand wat i'm typing as well..Hehe..Sigh..Take the tots with a pinch of salt kay? Coz it all came out at a spur of a moment..Haha..

Hmm beginning to feel this entry's a bit diff..Well experiences are diff everyday wat..Suddenly feel like visiting the blue hse soon..At nite..Kinda feel an affinity towards it? Haha siao liao..

Argh...So much crap this time round..Dunno wat i'm typing liao..Guess it's all the stress from cts..

Haha i'm living up to the aim i wrote in the first entry!!!

Okay la, dun think it's wise to continue..Will seriously burn the ears, ermm i mean the eyes of anyone reading this..

Pardon me kay?
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Pretty pls?
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Can roughly guess how bored i am liao rite?
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Haiya ok la, signing out now..
Till next time we meet..

"Jue2 Bu4 Neng2 Shi1 Qu4 Ni3" by F4!!!
(Not a fan, but the song's realy nice!!!)