InItIaTiOn..

A fulfilling week.. N a fitting way to end e week..

Demolition's e word for e week man.. Theory n practical lessons all packed in three days.. n tt's only e basic.. Nvr imagined act having notes n sitting in e auditorium listening to my CSM, juz like in JC lecture hall.. (Dozing off was another common thing too haha..)

Field training at e soccer field turened into a disaster due to our lack of seriousness.. Crawled up n down e field, plus all e static pts.. Sheesh.. E sandcans in our SBOs did little to help too..

5 km soc in green fatigue yesterday morning.. Damn shagged man.. Wonder how i'm gonna pass it in skeleton battle oreder.. Not to mention e possibility of carrying e much heavier SAR21..

N e finale today.. "Initiation" as e instructors call it.. But another term would be major turnout i guessed.. Rude awakening at 3am, den had to change to FBO in 5 min.. With e bunk already turned upside down, inside out.. Had to layout all e equipment in e parade square, n at anytime we were moving slow, static pt came.. Lot's of teamwork n sweat came into play though, which was quite encouraging..

Tt was only stage one.. Stage 2 required us to fire lift our buddies ard e soccer field, den it was leopard crawling up n down e field again.. Luckily time constrains did not allow e instructors to play with us more, n we proceeded to e 3rd stage.. Taken to some unfamiliar place, given casualities,(in e form of jerry cans), n we were required to fast march back to camp.. this wasn't so bad, as everyone were basically fighting to carry e stretchers act..

N e ending point? Commando jetty.. N e reward for our efforts? our jungle hats, finally.. Though i can't really say tt we went thru alot to earn it, judging from wat our instructors went thru during their turnout, but well, no one's complaining rite? Haha..

"Ai4" ---Karen Mok..

11.4.2004

Back in camp after long weekedn.. Wel, on paper it's long, but when's a break ever long for us? Live range tmr again, SAR21 familiarisation shoot..Some sg manufactured rifle, heavy n bulky, but pretty accurate.. Think will be carrying it for soc.. Sheesh..

$14.40..n everyone juz "pao3 lu4".. sheesh.. haha not tt i mind la, it's e gameplay tt's more impt, not e cash involve ya? though it does inject more excitement in e game..n hey, we're banning mums from e game le, it's like a cheat code of sorts..

Didn't do anything much for e past week, save for e 1st day.. Live firing of LAW n M203.. their firepower ain't all tt spectacular like those saw in movies, thoug they still pack quite a punch.. Turnout came next, to set e tone for BCT.. Change parade n PT, all in full battle order.. Not to mention leopard crawling ard e company line.. "shiok man".. Didn't even had appetitie for night snack after tt..

Think i act accomplished quite a few things during e weekend.. Watched 2 movies, swam, shopped n.. Eh.. Juz enjoyed myself la.. Been so long since i've act enjoyed myself with frens, or relaxed so much.. Hehe..

Can't remember much le.. Army makes ur memory short-termed man..

*updated on 17/04/04..*

"Shen2 Hai3" ---Zhao Chuan..

PoP lOh..

Private!!

Yes, tt's wat i am gonna be in another 2 hrs' time.. Passed out juz a few hrs ago, now sitting in e comfort of my house, finally after 2 whole days of rehearsal for e parade.. At last it's all over.. Not juz e parade but e whole bmt period.. Though private isn't really a rank, it's still an achievement ya? But being one means more responsibilities.. N more training as well.. Sheesh..

It's been a slack week though.. Save for e physical tests like soc n ippt in e mornings.. After tt it's juz idling e ime away in e bunk.. So bored we got tt my section act made a chinese chess set to play with.. Another section got another idea n made a ball out of masking tapes n paper.. Thus starting e 2-on-2 tournament.. Ppl took turn doing "sentry duties" too, to allow e other to sleep in peace.. Haha..

Company's nite out on thurs at Igor's.. Boy was it exciting man.. Think some tv show covered it in its program b4.. It's a spook-themed restaurant near indoor stadium where e dinners are first led thru a trail filled with horrors, den to e dining hall where performances are held at e stage in front.. practically everything can be done there.. dance on e bench, squeeze each other's butt, whistle at e waitresses, throw up.. u get e pic? e show's very professional too.. Haha sounds like i'm advertising for dem ya? Though e food can be much better, but i guess it was a nite of fun n relaxation for all of us.. After all, u dun get to party so much in camp rite? Haha..

Getting sleepy after e hectic day.. Gotta get some rest now.. Zzzz...

"深海" ---赵传..

OnE mOrE wEeK..

Yeah finally back home le.. After one hectic week filled with tests n route march.. Guess i'll have a easier time updating den.. Hehe coz i passed everything!!! Not spectacularly, but it'll do for now.. Ok tat's abt everything tt happened during e week le.. Haha..

Next week gonna pop le.. So it's gonna be prep work all e way till sat.. N after tt's bct.. No rest in b/w.. Sigh.. When everyone's out there enjoying life, i'll be in camp getting turnouts.. Haha wat a life man.. Not to forget e 5km soc.. Woohoo..

Class juz set up a new website.. Or shud i say chap did another one for us, for old times' sake.. So more n more ppl will be reading this le.. Hi to everyone out there visiting this od for e first time ya? haha..

Shall continue this tmr.. If i can tt is.. Brain's not functioning properly.. Hehe..

"Too Lost In You" ---Sugarbabes..

RuShInG fOr TiMe..

Juz like always.. rushing for time again.. So pardon me if everything's kinda jumbled ya?

1st day: Went woodlands for, eh, a bit of tuition first b4 heading to marina square to meet up with e brothers.. Had dinner at kenny rogers, which was pretty worth e money.. Poulet became breathless after e dinner though, maybe eatin chicken didn't agree with him too well.. Next stop was at chijmes, where we saw man u defeating tottenham 3-0.. didn't really had e mood to enjoy it though, lost sth precious along e way, sobs..

2nd day: Woke up all sore n tired, slept late e nite b4 ya? Still went ahead with soccer in ri, been so long since i last sweat it out on e court le.. Down on luck again though, deflecting e last shot in.. Sheesh.. Had karaoke session with chap n pung too.. Memories of e times started flooding in.. Those days.. Sigh.. Saw a sectionmate in e next room too, such a pleasnt surprise..
Had some catching up with chap after tt too.. Realise tt it's been a pretty long time since i entered army le.. Haiz getting older day by day..

3rd day: Caught up with sleep, den went down to jec.. Was preached for almost an hr b4 finally able to settle down for a proper meal.. Den it was movie at westmal.. "Butterfly effect" it's called.. Some weird show abt twisted mind n memories n changing of lifes.. Pretty good storyline though..

N now it's time to book in again.. Too serious too soon i guess, juz like e song.. Sheesh.. Guess it'll be next week(i hope) tt i can update on last week's events..

Once again sorry for e ramblings.. Time's precious ya? Haha.. As long as i can get my points across..

"轨迹" ---周杰伦

GrAdUaTiOn...

Sometimes some songs juz kinda capture everything tt u've exp at a point of time in life, n here's one good example.. To all those who're still schooling, remember, time waits for no man.. So treasure all e moments, no matter how insignificant it may be..

Graduation (Friends Forever)

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And we got so blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

FaMiLy..

An email from a fren.. Guess many wud have seen it, but juz to spread e msg ard.. To all those who're mad, or have been mad with their family members for one thing or another, do remember tt no matter wat, they're still ur closest kins ard..

FAMILY
Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company
that we are working for could easily replace us in
a matter of days.
But the family we left behind will feel the loss
for the rest of their lives.

And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more
into work than into our own family,
an unwise investment indeed,
don't you think?
So what is behind the story?

Do you know what the word FAMILY means?
FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU

OvErDuE..

Hehe typing this after like 2 weeks passed by? Told ya army's restrictive le..

15/3 - First day of live firing.. First day w/o rain in tekong too.. Haha finish firing already den slack ard, waiting for e sky to turn dark to commence night firing.. Hopefully everything goes smoothly, breaking e "outfield curse" of mine..

Rudely awakened in e middle of e nite coz someone forgot to do sentry duty.. Not blaming him though, everyone makes mistakes ya?

16/3 - 2nd day.. Same as always.. Slight drizzle in e morning, thnk we're really raingods man.. CSM act provided us with can drinks? Wat luxuries during outfield.. Though we had to pay for dem, but tt's juz a small price to pay for a whole lot of morale boosting..

18/3 - Unforseen circumstances forced us back into camp.. Armed robbers in tekong, terminating all activities on e island..

Another bdae bash.. Sheesh.. Dreading e day when it comes.. 6 more days? haha..

19/3 - Soreness all over e body.. All impromptu activities today coz no one expected to come back to camp anyway.. Area clean, pt n peer appraisal will fill up e time i guess..

Guess tt's abt it.. Basic skeleton of e things done in camp? Haha..

OuTfIeLd..

At long last i'm finally out of tekong.. for 2 plus days at least haha.. going back soon for live firing there.. Sheesh..

Been quite an eventful outfield exp for me.. Though trying hard not to remember e forgettable incidents.. it'd really have been an enjoyable exp if not for those silly mistakes which i'll rather not mention..

Let's see.. Rain rain n rain.. Combat rations everyday, though i dun really mind dem.. Cold cold nite with sentry duties.. Sleeping on e cold hard cement floor.. 16 km route march with full battle order, plus lots of civilian songs along e way.. Haha doesn't sound really fun ya? it's act all e little things done durin free time tt made things more bearable la..

Well, kinda hard to recall back on all e exp.. all shud i say, i rather not try.. Sigh..

Life's getting boring.. Watch e days pass by w/o doing anything meaningful.. Book outs are such blessings..

Went nus open hse yesterday, saw lots of familiar faces.. Guess it was more of a social trip den a scouting for course trip.. Still dunno whether to register for nus or ntu, or for which course in any case.. Prob gonna ask ard for opinions lor..

Time passes by.. so quickly..

When will happy days be here to stay?

"Someday we'll know" ---Mandy Moore, Jonathan Foreman

GrOwInG uP..

The first day of school, our professor introduced himself and challenged us to get to know someone we didn't already know. I stood up to look around when a gentle hand touched my shoulder. I turned around to find wrinkled, little old lady beaming up at me with a smile that lit up her entire being.

She said, "Hi handsome. My name is Rose. I'm eighty-seven years old. Can I give you a hug?"

I laughed and enthusiastically responded, "Of course you may!" and she gave me a giant squeeze. "Why are you in college at such a young, innocent age?" I asked.

She jokingly replied, "I'm here to meet a rich husband, get
married, have a couple of kids..."

"No seriously," I asked. I was curious what may have motivated her to be taking on this challenge at her age.

"I always dreamed of having a college education and now I'm
getting one!" she told me.

After class, we walked to the student union building and shared a chocolate milkshake. We became instant friends. Every day for the next three months we would leave, class together and talk nonstop. I was always mesmerized listening to this "time machine" as she shared her wisdom and experience with me.

Over the course of the year, Rose became a campus icon and she easily made friends wherever she went. She loved to dress up and she reveled in the attention bestowed upon her from the other students. She was living it up.

At the end of the semester, we invited Rose to speak at our
football banquet. I'll never forget what she taught us. She was introduced and stepped up to the podium. As she began to deliver her prepared speech, she dropped her three by five cards on the floor.

Frustrated and a little embarrassed she leaned into the
microphone and simply said, "I'm sorry. I'm so jittery. I gave up beer for lent and this whiskey is killing me! I'll never get my speech back in order so let me just tell you what I know."

As we laughed, she cleared her throat and began, "We do not stop playing because we are old; we grow old because we stop playing. There are only four secrets to staying young, being happy, and achieving success."

"You have to laugh and find humor every day." "You've got to have a dream. When you lose your dreams, you die. We have so many people walking around who are dead and don't even know it!"

"There is a huge difference between growing older and growing up. If you are nineteen years old, lie in bed for one full year, and don't do one productive thing, you will turn twenty years old."

"If I am eighty-seven years old and stay in bed for a year and never do anything I will turn eighty-eight. Anybody can grow older. That doesn't take any talent or ability. The idea is to grow up by always finding the opportunity in change."

"Have no regrets. The elderly usually don't have regrets for what we did, but rather for things we did not do. The only people who fear death are those with regrets."

She concluded her speech by courageously singing "The Rose."

She challenged each of us to study the lyrics and live them out in our daily lives.

At the year's end Rose finished the college degree she had begun all those years ago.

One week after graduation, Rose died peacefully in her sleep. Over two thousand college students attended her funeral in tribute to the wonderful woman who taught by example that it's never too late to be all you can possibly be.

UpDaTe..

Been a mth or so?

Haha.. Od's so empty.. Not many ppl coming to read anyway.. Muz be feeling neglected ya? Nvm shall let u feel useful once again..

Wat am i saying? Oh well..

Gonna cramp everything into one day, otherwise a bit troublesome to flip thru everyday haha..

Let's see..

16/02/04 - Book in day.. Had bee trouble though.. Lots of honey bees visited our bunk at nite, forcing us to vacate e place n gather at e parade square for e pest busters to do their job.. Starry nite though, everyone was admiring e stars n relaxing..

17/02/04 - No morning pt coz of yesterday's episode resulting in us sleepin late.. Haha this is army welfare for u.. Impromptu baths for ppl who lost to e Z monster during lecture haha..

"anyone make it on V-day?"

"Piezo - electricity induced due to mechanical action.. haha.."

"not urgent dun go, urgent use rubber band.."

18/02/04 - No pt again.. Fats beginning to exert their presence though haha.. Hehe weird dream, collages of images.. U're in it though.. haha.. Swimming lesson again, free bath to all..

"u got a cute face.. next time i shall call u 可爱.."

19/02/04 - Parade square became a battlefield for e bees which they all died valiantly, their attacks against our bunks in vain.. Should hold a grand funeral for them man.. ROD parade for dunno which company, meaning they finished their reservice n al.. to think we're stil at recruit stage.. Quite touching though..

"can hear me, then show me e middle finger.."

"tattoo e meaning of life..no matter e inside or outside.."

Trainers were pissed off after "complain session" with CO though.. Sheesh..

20/02/04 - Days of hell..Or so we tot.. Everyone took extra precaution to do things well.. Haha not enuff time to have lesson so resulted in chatting with PC in bunk plus some impromptu pt.. Got "zhao2 xia1" water parade after tt.. But i guess e whole thing made us too lax le, pissed e Pc off in e end..=(

Nice clouds in e evening though.. Plus this solitary star tt seem to stand out everytime i looked.. 守护星?

Repaid e pt debt today.. Haha training shed living up to its name..

21/02/04 - Think i updated this already haha..

22/02/04 - Live grenade throw was really fun!! Could feel e tremors from as far as a few hundred metres away.. Brought something illegal though, got screwed badly..

23/02/04 - Feeling quite shit.. Thinking of confinement e whole day.. Maybe it's e depres state tt made me think tt army's becoming less meaningful everyday.. 过一天,算一天..

24/02/04 - Haha sang duets with bunkmates while waiting for e rest to finish test.. So fun.. But imagine tt, a room full of guys singing love song to each other.. haha.. another singing session at nite too.. but it's some army song again.. sheesh..

25/02/04 - umpteenth time w/o morning pt le.. no one's complaining though.. 今天的心情特别好..睡眠也特别熟..可能是昨晚的那通电话罢..哈哈..

"我已剪短我的发，剪短了长..eh..短发..haha"

SOC with 4 sandcans on..Really good workout man.. But got screwed by PC again at nite though.. Sigh..

26/02/04 - Use to recite e commando's vision for water parade.. But this sgt wanted us to be more learned i guess, or juz wanted to have fun la.. Wan us all to recite poems.. Here goes today's..

<<怨情>>
美人卷珠帘
深坐蹙蛾眉
但见泪痕湿
不知心恨谁

suppose to be games day today where all will have fun either playing basketball or soccer.. but only 2 balls n 200 plus ppl.. So no soccer for me lor.. sheesh..

Canteen break.. n after tt.. eh.. in e other pieces of paper le haha.. =)

Hehe if this was on a daily basis den wud probably have written more, but i guess this wil have to do for now.. Army training's not as tough as a lot of ppl imagine ya? Well, at least not for now.. Haha..

Till next time i guess.. Tata!!

"定做一个天堂” ---群星..

UpDaTe..

Been a mth or so?

Haha.. Od's so empty.. Not many ppl coming to read anyway.. Muz be feeling neglected ya? Nvm shall let u feel useful once again..

Wat am i saying? Oh well..

Gonna cramp everything into one day, otherwise a bit troublesome to flip thru everyday haha..

Let's see..

16/02/04 - Book in day.. Had bee trouble though.. Lots of honey bees visited our bunk at nite, forcing us to vacate e place n gather at e parade square for e pest busters to do their job.. Starry nite though, everyone was admiring e stars n relaxing..

17/02/04 - No morning pt coz of yesterday's episode resulting in us sleepin late.. Haha this is army welfare for u.. Impromptu baths for ppl who lost to e Z monster during lecture haha..

"anyone make it on V-day?"

"Piezo - electricity induced due to mechanical action.. haha.."

"not urgent dun go, urgent use rubber band.."

18/02/04 - No pt again.. Fats beginning to exert their presence though haha.. Hehe weird dream, collages of images.. U're in it though.. haha.. Swimming lesson again, free bath to all..

"u got a cute face.. next time i shall call u 可爱.."

19/02/04 - Parade square became a battlefield for e bees which they all died valiantly, their attacks against our bunks in vain.. Should hold a grand funeral for them man.. ROD parade for dunno which company, meaning they finished their reservice n al.. to think we're stil at recruit stage.. Quite touching though..

"can hear me, then show me e middle finger.."

"tattoo e meaning of life..no matter e inside or outside.."

Trainers were pissed off after "complain session" with CO though.. Sheesh..

20/02/04 - Days of hell..Or so we tot.. Everyone took extra precaution to do things well.. Haha not enuff time to have lesson so resulted in chatting with PC in bunk plus some impromptu pt.. Got "zhao2 xia1" water parade after tt.. But i guess e whole thing made us too lax le, pissed e Pc off in e end..=(

Nice clouds in e evening though.. Plus this solitary star tt seem to stand out everytime i looked.. 守护星?

Repaid e pt debt today.. Haha training shed living up to its name..

21/02/04 - Think i updated this already haha..

22/02/04 - Live grenade throw was really fun!! Could feel e tremors from as far as a few hundred metres away.. Brought something illegal though, got screwed badly..

23/02/04 - Feeling quite shit.. Thinking of confinement e whole day.. Maybe it's e depres state tt made me think tt army's becoming less meaningful everyday.. 过一天,算一天..

24/02/04 - Haha sang duets with bunkmates while waiting for e rest to finish test.. So fun.. But imagine tt, a room full of guys singing love song to each other.. haha.. another singing session at nite too.. but it's some army song again.. sheesh..

25/02/04 - umpteenth time w/o morning pt le.. no one's complaining though.. 今天的心情特别好..睡眠也特别熟..可能是昨晚的那通电话罢..哈哈..

"我已剪短我的发，剪短了长..eh..短发..haha"

SOC with 4 sandcans on..Really good workout man.. But got screwed by PC again at nite though.. Sigh..

26/02/04 - Use to recite e commando's vision for water parade.. But this sgt wanted us to be more learned i guess, or juz wanted to have fun la.. Wan us all to recite poems.. Here goes today's..

<<怨情>>
美人卷珠帘
深坐蹙蛾眉
但见泪痕湿
不知心恨谁

suppose to be games day today where all will have fun either playing basketball or soccer.. but only 2 balls n 200 plus ppl.. So no soccer for me lor.. sheesh..

Canteen break.. n after tt.. eh.. in e other pieces of paper le haha.. =)

Hehe if this was on a daily basis den wud probably have written more, but i guess this wil have to do for now.. Army training's not as tough as a lot of ppl imagine ya? Well, at least not for now.. Haha..

Till next time i guess.. Tata!!

"定做一个天堂” ---群星..

BoOk OuT..aNd In..

Live hand greneade throw tmr, so gotta book out and in on e same day.. so dumb, burnt off a beautiful sun.. Well at least they returned it last week le.. Oh well..

Let's see.. Slept at home for a while today after coming back ard 830 or so, den went to sch to pass e shoes as well as collect sand.. Track's finally operational le, shall be running on it one of these days.. i hope.. so cushiony haha..

Yr ones were playing at e linkway when i came.. No one took notice, or saw me.. so sad.. haha.. anyway they reminded me of e good old days at e gym, when we play like nobody's business.. Time really flies eh? Beginning to feel old le.. Sheesh..

Suppose to be updating for e last week but no time le.. Guess i'll juz have to do it next week i guess.. Gotta go now, work hard everyone!!!

CaMp..

Woah.. look at how fast time flies..

Will be back in camp on abt, another 8 hrs' time?

Sheesh.. Haven't enjoyed myself enuff outside yet leh.. Sigh..

Met only a few ppl these weekend, guess all e rest of dem are prob busy sleeping at home ya? All shud have booked in le, now left me..

Feel kinda lost.. Lost touch with outside world.. Lost touch with frens.. Brain's now filled with army songs instead.. Haha.. Some of e lyrics quite mean act haha..

Well, at least 2 weeks' gone by in a flash.. left 8 weeks till passing out parade? Haha.. After tt it's another 10 weeks of bct though.. Tt is if i make e cut haha..

To everyone out there, all e best in army ya? Tough time dun last, tough men do..

The more u sweat in peace, the less u bleed in war..

"Johnny" ---eh, army boys? Haha..

ArMy..

舍么都不说，免得他人闲言闲语 ..

哈哈..

Back from camp finally.. After 2 whole weeks.. haha.. Well, at least for 2 days la.. No water parades, no standing on both lates, no rushing ard from point to point, no knock-it-downs for at least 48 hrs ya? haha..

Juz to put e record straight.. Hendon's not exactly hell la.. Well, at least not for now.. Life there's pretty exciting for e first few days act, though it's beginning to turn pretty dull, but trainings still comparable to tt of gym's, if not slightly easier.. Of course, tt's not including e mental stress involved, though i dun really feel it haha..

Army stories galore.. Now i begin to fully comprehend tt.. Hilarious moments splashed all over e place, even when being tekaned.. Haha.. Still remember vividly e first few days, when someone was forced to scold vulgarities when his name was being called, or during one of e night water parades, when e trainer commented, " !@#$% 2 weeks already leh, why are u all still so chubby!!"

Haha..

去年的誓言，终于实现了..

哈哈..

"Tearing up my Heart" ---Nsync..

等...

Back from fren's place.. Haha watched soccer n played this game called "in between" till ard 5 in e morning.. Sheesh lost ard 9 bucks for tt.. Hehe as i put it, 情场得意，赌场失意.. Nvm la, book in le also dun need to use much money.. Juz feel bad to have lost my mum's hard-earned money.. Will strive hard to earn it back in commandos ya? Haha..

Less den 5 hrs b4 i book in le.. Haiya.. Guess this 2 plus yrs gonna be like e countdown years? Juz waiting for my ORD date.. Act as long as life gets more interesting inside den it won't be tt bad la..

Need to know my platoon better first i guess.. Hehe..

回来了..却盼不到天天思念的脸蛋..何时，要等到何时?

等待..原来是那么痛苦的..

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<<爱情证书>>

寂寞当然有一点 你不在我身边 总是特别想念你的脸
距离是一份考卷 测量相爱的誓言 最后会不会实现
我们为爱还在学 学沟通的语言 学着谅解 学着不流泪
等到我们学会飞 飞越黑夜 和考验 日子就要从孤单里毕业
我们用多一点点的辛苦 来交换多一点点的幸福 就算
幸福 还有一段路 等我们学会忍耐和付出
这爱情一定会有张证书 证明 从此 不孤独

BaCk..

不要哭了吗 该哭的人是我吧...

Back..For a while..

A surprise act..So rare tt recruits get to go home after only 3 days in camp..hehe no one's complaining though..for e first time dinner was finished in record time n we "fell in" much earlier than e allocated time hehe..guess everyone can't wait to get home eh?

No hidden meaning behind tt act..Training's pretty slack for now, sort of like an orientation for us newbies, plus all e admin stuff..think once we settled down den e real deal starts..maybe it's not such a good idea to ask how e ppl at tekong are doing haha..coz judging from their exp our few days in camp is already tougher den theirs le..hehe..i'm not complaining though..我是强的!!

本以为可给她一个惊喜..

真是谟事在人，成是在天..

至少还有一通电话..??一通??哈哈..

不知道你现在好不好..一颗渴望见到你的心，深深地想念着你..

好想，好想..让你感到温暖..让你不受伤害..

胸口一震疼痛..好久没这种感觉了..

肋骨..找到了吗?

要用功读书..要勇敢..要坚强..

想哭就到我怀里哭..

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<<想哭就到我怀里哭>>

一个人逃避寂寞 两个人渴望自由
到底该不该奔向你 怀里的温柔
还是就让你失望的走 我没有太多承诺
能让你一夜好梦 担心从今后你心痛
会不知所措 太多的惶恐 又让我们无法承受
想哭就到我怀里哭 喔 就像一切都不会结束
那彼此感觉 不那么孤独 想哭就到我怀里哭
喔 别把未来想的太清楚 那只会让我越来越无助
想哭就到我怀里哭

SaY bYe..

2nd last day out in e society..

At least..till 3 weeks of bmt is over?

*Sobs*

Say bye..

Bye to freedom..to society..to town..to sch..to home..

To my frens, my buddies..My hair, my looks..?? Wat looks?? haha..

Well if training's gona be tough..Bye to my wit n sanity too hehe..

Act it's possible to be out of course for me la..But will prob try to stay in i guess..

Planned to write alot act..But kinda at a lost of words now..hmmm.. indescribable feelings? i guess tt's it..Anyway e gist's been captured..Quality, not quantity ya?

等待? 还需等待吗?

"镇守爱情" ---动力火车..

累了...

"雨一直下..气氛不算融洽.."

那就没球踢了..

guess will be meeting u ppl earlier le den? hehe..

yesterday was e most packed day this mth le.. SAT in e morning, tay's hse in e afternoon, den kbox all e way from 3 to 9?? haha ended with a bit of pool till 11 plus? sheesh.. was pretty shagged already after e karaoke session.. well at least my voice was gone la.. now it's pretty husky hehe.. cool..

getting a bit sick le.. maybe it's coz of e weather.. or maybe it's coz of e ppl ard me.. or maybe it's juz me.. hehe juz hope i'm back to tiptop condition by wed lo.. hmmm..

不告诉你..到底是舍么天大的密秘呢?

哈哈..等待,等待..

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<<广岛之恋>>

(张洪量)你早就该拒绝我 不该放任我的追求
给我渴望的故事 留下丢不掉的名字
(莫文蔚)时间难倒回 空间易破碎
二十四小时的爱情 是我一生难忘的美丽回忆
* (张洪量)越过道德的边境我们走过爱的禁区
享受幸福的错觉 误解了快乐的意义
(莫文蔚)是谁太勇敢 说喜欢离别
只要今天不要明天
眼睁睁看着爱从指缝中溜走 还说再见
(张洪量)不够时间好好来爱你
(莫文蔚)早该停止风流的游戏
(合唱)愿被你拋弃 就算了解而分离
不愿爱的没有答案结局
(张洪量)不够时间好好来恨你
(莫文蔚)终于明白恨人不容易
(合唱)爱恨消失前 用手温暖我的脸
为我证明我曾真心爱过你
(合唱)爱过你 爱过你 爱过你 爱过你 *
Repeat *

ArMy MeN..

Back home..

From one full nite of..eh, "illegal" activities?

Haha..

Tay's spot on abt e army talk thingy.. Really, a large part of e conversation last nite was abt army.. How was it, wat's it like...u get the gist..haha guess tt's juz guys n their army talk..sort of like "men's talk?" a bit diff though hehe..

Prob e last gathering till dunno when le..so sad..hehe but at least we sort of relived e sec4 life again..blackjack, or "ba la" as we so affectionately call it, became my 致命伤..lost ard 10 for tt..got thrashed in winning eleven too, though i couldn't really see la..haha dun care la..at least mahjong was a really exciting affair with all e 扛ing n 咬ing hehe..tt lasted us till ard 7 in e morning where we duly retired for e day haha..

Fun's over..well for now la..SAT's tmr..Didn't really study much for it..Juz hope my luck's good lo hehe..Visiting tay later after tt too..haha rushed, but at least time's well-spent..

hmmm..

specs..i need specs..

time..i need more time..

money..can nvr have enuff of it..

hair..it's time to say "buh-bye"..

haha..

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"Tears in Heaven"

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?

I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven.

Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.

Beyond the door,
There's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven.

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.

直觉;天天想你

<<直觉>>

心 是一个容器 不停的累积 关于你的点点滴滴
虽然我 总是守口如瓶 思念却满溢 溅湿了我眼睛 Wo
因为 我太想念你 所以才害怕 这孤独大的不着边际
若此刻能奔向你 我会毫不迟疑
直觉我们应属于彼此 否则我不会每次无法停止
想你想成了心事 等你等成了坚持 眼中渴望来不及掩饰又如此诚实
直觉我们应属于彼此 否则我不会常常若有所失
白天眨眼瞬间里 夜晚呼吸气息里 都写满了我是多么爱你想你的讯息

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<<天天想你>>

当我停立在窗前
你愈走愈远
我的每一次心跳
你是否听见
当我徘徊在深夜
你在我心田
你的每一句誓言
回荡在耳边
隐隐约约闪动的双眼
藏着你的羞怯 加深我的思念
两颗心的交界
你一定会看见 只要你愿意走向前
天天想你 天天问自己
到什么时候才能告诉你
天天想你 天天守住一颗心
把我最好的爱留给你

其实..

甲: 我不要你的承诺,不要你的永远..只要你真真切切爱我一遍..

乙: 咦? 为何唱起歌来呢?

甲: 都说了..夜已深..还有舍么人..哈哈, 废话连篇..

乙: 原来如此..难怪会精神分裂哈哈..

甲: 知道舍么? 精神分裂,也不一定是坏事哦...

乙: 你和你的歪道理..

甲: 道可道,非常道..名可名,非常名

乙: 不知你在说舍么了啦..我要见周公了..晚安咯..

甲: 了解..哈哈..

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"At The Beginning"

We were strangers
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
What we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me
I was going to find you
Unexpected
What you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Live is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers
On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming
How our dreams would come true
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Live is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Live is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep going on....
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road and I wanna going
Love is river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you.

闷...

好闷噢...

Ain't doing anything much these days.. Unless u count running errands as sth interesting.. Well at least they past e time la..

Yesterday.. Went NTU to get digicam from cy.. Haha waited for like 2 hrs b4 she woke up n passed it to me.. Maybe going in early does have its pros ya? At least i won't be idling my life away.. Sheesh i need to do sth constructive!!!

Thinking of getting e figurine we saw at orchard e other day.. Minature SoRa!!! Haha.. Prob gonna do it later.. If i can move my butt from e chair..

朋友啊..你们到哪去了???

Gonna go for prob e last training later.. Last training for dem till CNY celebrations finish, last training for me till i come out from camp? *Sobs*

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"Should I Stay"

Had a drive, driven by ur luv, but when u messed around, I lost the drive I found..
Thought u needed, needed someone true, but u changed ur mind, or had I failed u?
Wish u’d been careful with my heart, but u tore it apart, and broke an angel’s heart..
The kiss was true, has to end somehow, but I’m living proof of wad luv is abt..

It’s hard holding u, loving u, losing u, it’s sad to be true, and be fooled by u, I dun noe, I gotta noe, should I stay or should I go?

U played me on, played me lyk a clown, but I feel for u, even though I’m down..
My heart is heavy, heavy lyk a rock, but I am so amused, u’re still in my thoughts..

It’s hard holding u, loving u, losing u, it’s sad to be true, and be fooled by u, I dun noe, I gotta noe, should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh… should I stay? Should I go?

It’s hard holding u, loving u, losing u, it’s sad to be true, and be fooled by u, I dun noe, I wanna noe, should I stay or should I…?

This time its done, it’ll never feel the same, but we had some good times, guess it’s sad just the same..
I guess the truth, doesn’t matter somehow, but u were living proof of wad luv is abt…

倒数..

九天..

哦..

时间..不停地流逝..

婴孩..是睡眠和喂奶..

童年..是游戏及玩闹..

中学..是上课与运动..

初中..是风流跟快活..

进兵之后..时间,将会是舍?

是喜? 是苦? 是哀? 是乐?

看心喽..嘿嘿..

... ...

..等待..

MeLoDiEs Of LiFe..

"Melodies Of Life"

Alone for a while I've been searching through the dark,
For traces of the love you left inside my lonely heart,
To weave by picking up the pieces that remain,
Melodies of life - love's lost refrain.
Our paths they did cross, though I cannot say just why.
We met, we laughed, we held on fast, and then we said goodbye.
And who'll hear the echoes of stories never told?
Let them ring out loud till they unfold.

In my dearest memories, I see you reaching out to me.
Though you're gone, I still believe that you can call out my name.

A voice from the past, joining yours and mine.
Adding up the layers of harmony.
And so it goes, on and on.
Melodies of life,
To the sky beyond the flying birds - forever and beyond.

So far and away, see the birds as it flies by.
Gliding through the shadows of the clouds up in the sky.
I've laid my memories and dreams upon those wings.
Leave them now and see what tomorrow brings.

In your dearest memories, do you remember loving me?
Was it fate that brought us close and now leaves me behind?

A voice from the past, joining yours and mine.
Adding up the layers of harmony.
And so it goes, on and on.
Melodies of life,
To the sky beyond the flying bird - forever and on.

If I should leave this lonely world behind,
Your voice will still remember our melody.
Now I know we'll carry on.
Melodies of life,
Come circle round and grow deep in our hearts, as long as we remember.

泪海

<<泪海>>

爱已不能动 还有什么值得我心痛
想你的天空 下起雨来 没人心疼的黑夜
脸颊两行咸咸的泪水 是你 哦是你
让我望穿泪水 肝肠寸断 你怎么舍得让我的泪流向海
付出的感情永远 找不回来 你怎么舍得让我的爱流向海
伤心的往事一幕幕就像潮水 将我淹埋 闭上了双眼
还看见和你的缠绵 眼角的泪水 洗不去心中
一遍一遍的誓言

有故事的人

<<有故事的人 >>

走着忍着 醒着想着 看爱情悄悄近了
冷的暖的 甜的苦的 在心里缠绕成河
曲折的心情有人懂 怎么能不感动
几乎忘了昨日的种种 开始又敢做梦
我决定不躲了 你决定不怕了　
我们决定了让爱像绿草原滋长著
天地辽阔相遇多难得
都是有故事的人才听懂心里的歌
我决定不躲了 你决定不怕了　
就算下一秒坎坷这一秒是快乐的
曾经交心就非常值得
我要专注爱你不想别的没有忐忑

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心..好象渐渐找回来了..
实..却不肯罢休,不肯离去..
史..还存有着阴影..
时..也不留人了..

哦..我的天啊..

真想拔光头上的三千烦恼丝..哈哈..

NtU cOm..

Haha..

Life's getting more n more boring these days..

"Kinda sad to see u all leaving for camp.. Leaving juz e few of us goin in in march.."

Told ya life's full of unions n separations?

Haha..

Let's see.. Accompanied candice to see yan dai fu in e afternoon b4 training.. So many ppl tagged along haha, like bringing a bunch of kids to an outing.. He's still e same as always, with e grey shirt n khaki long pants.. Dun really think he remembers me though hehe.. Pity his shop's closed down, now have to do his practice at home.. otherwise think more wud have benefitted from his skills.. Didn't charge us too coz were wearing uniform.. Wat a kind-hearted man..

Training was, well, unprogressive? Think everyone felt kinda, eh, dead? Dun feel like doing anything much, sth like tt.. Stunts were accomplished la, but it's e time wasted tt's worrying.. It's like, do abit, den chat non-stop, den do again.. Juz couldn't feel e enthusiasm le.. Maybe it's juz me la, not giving a tot on whether they're tired or not..

Remember the good old times.. When each group will sweat it all out.. Each member encouraging each other on.. Spotting for other groups when they're done, giving pointers as well..

Guess tt's all in e past le ya? Memories.. To hold on to..

Ntu inter-hall cheerleading com was, pretty done to say e very least.. Though only ard 5 halls had professional help from you-know-who, it was still a show worth watching with all e funny antics n hilarious moments..

Pants split.. Hair ribbons dropped.. Failed tumbles.. Haha e list goes on n on..

Trying to recall e more impressive stunts.. Magnum-coached hall 1 did a 2-2-1 with e 1 being a shredder, den flip down.. hitch cradle with lib on e hitched leg.. Eh can't remember e hall which did e vannesa flip with twist, or e double table top.. Got a "single-ex" too, if u get wat i mean hehe.. Got this shoulder sit with twist dismount haha.. Simple yet nice..

Hmmm hall 5 failed in 2 major stunts, think tt cost dem alot.. But their pair dance's very nice.. E single chair combi was impressive too.. Hehe big improvement from wat we saw initially la.. Good job guys!! There's always next year haha..

"Faint" ---Linkin Park..

1000 WoRdS..

"1000 words"

I know that your hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily
I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You fight your battles far from me
Far too easily

"Save your tears cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
You steal my soul
To hide the pain, when I turn back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I cried my eyes out and begged you not to part
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart

Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though I can't see
I know they are reaching you, suspended on silver wings
Oh a thousand words
A thousand embraces
Will cradel you
Making all of your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever

Oh a thousand words (a thousand words)
Have never been spoken (ohh yeah)
They'll fly to you
They'll carry you home, (carry you home) and into my arms
Suspended on silver wings (on silver wings!)
And a thousand words (ohh)
Call out through the ages (call through the ages!)
They'll cradel you (ohh yeah)
Make all of the loneliest your lonely days (lonely days)
They'll hold you forever.

Ohhhhhhhhhhh a thousand words

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Life's full of unions n separations.. Whether it's for a short term or forever it's always sth tt'll affect us, well at least a little? haha..

To all those leaving for ns in e days to come, take care n all e best.. Haven't been in touch with some ppl for some time le, guess it'll have to be a few more yrs time b4 we'll finally meet.. To all those whom i've been with e past holidays.. Well.. I'm gonna miss u guys.. Hehe.. Do behave urselves ya? Haha..

Hehe, as expected, only abt half of those who signed up act turned up to try out.. Was a pleasant number already though, everyone had their hands full trying to teach each group e very basics.. Hopefully subsequent trainings will be juz as fun, n tt this batch will be able to continue on e legacy tt we left behind..

Haha too late at night le.. Dun feel like typing much.. Juz one last thing.. E song above's really nice, from Final Fantasy X-2 soundtrack, but not many will be able to listen to it though..

A song tt transcends age.. A song with e power to unify millions.. Hehe..

EyEs On Me..

haha back from jog again.. told ya i'm gonna keep to my promise ya? haha..

surprise surprise.. living room's com's revamped!! now running on windows xp n w/o all e rubbish tt was either d/l or installed.. hehe but it ain't gonna be long la.. sigh e younger gen always get e betta stuffs.. n i ain't gonna enjoy using this com for long le, so might as well make full use of it when i can haha..

think i really amazed myself juz now.. first it was one.. den 2.. den all of a sudden, i was msging 6 ppl at e same time, all abt diff stuffs.. was a pretty funny scene i guess, finish typing on one phone, den while in e midst of sending, picked up another phone n started replying to tt msg.. ain't sth cheap though haha..

so many forbidden things these days.. haha can't mention dem here rite? 3 in all.. 3 outings, forbidden to speak of, well, at least to a certain group of ppl.. haha n diff groups too.. n no surprise tt forbidden things taste great, or so to speak.. hehe..

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"Eyes On Me"

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage,on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw your smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy?
You´d always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar.

My last night here for you
Same old songs,just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes,maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh,did you ever know
That I had mine on you?.

Darling,so there your are
With that look on your face
As if you´re never hurt
As if you´re never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
Did your ever know
That I had mine on you?

Darling,so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you´re holding back
Or pain if that´s what it is
How can I let you know
I´m more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you´re not dreaming.

Darling,so there your are
With that look on your face
As if you´re never hurt
As if you´re never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

ShOcK..

haha taking a break from e schizophrenic self..

juz came back from e suppose-to-be-routine jog.. e first of e yr i guess.. man 3 weeks left till i enroll in, have to get into pretty good shape by den.. i mean, really good shape.. haha.. jia you lo..

anyway jogged passed this couple juz now.. think i gave e lady quite a shock coz she suddenly screamed.. haha e guy got to thank me den, for making her jump into his embrace.. hehe wearing black does have its pros ya? haha..

got dragged into e cca carnival routine by tay.. think there's 3 performance tmr? didn't really feel tt good tt day while practising, prob coz not use to being back base most of the time.. yucks..

forgot to mention sth yesterday.. Lord of the Rings was a surprising smash hit at the ps2 box office during e chalet, beating perennial favourite winning eleven.. guess e movie did lots on e popularity of e story ya? haha did a bit of role-play while leaving e chalet for home too.. damn funny.. damn crappy too.. pity such scenes won't occur in prob another yr or 2 le..

if only i could turn back time...

"Truly Madly Deeply" ---Savage Garden...

找不到心.. .

甲: 回来咯..

乙: 回来就会来吗,有舍么大不了..

甲: 回到这里,where i wanna be..

乙: 好了好了,别唱了..

甲: 舍么根舍么吗..

乙: 唱的这么难听,要死啊?

甲: 不理你了啦..
(双眼交叉,伸出舌头)
乙: 话说回来,这几天过得..?

甲: 哦,还不错,就像往常一样,和4F在一起,就只有玩闹,没有烦恼..玩游戏机,打
麻将,晚上踢足球..人生还需要舍么呢?唯一的遗憾,就是这可能是最后几次的
聚会了..大家都已长大,也无法回到以前无忧无虑的生活了..

乙: 原来你也有沮丧的时候啊?哈哈..

甲: 也不是沮丧啦,只是觉得时间真是不等人..在多两年,就不是十几岁的学生,而
是二十几岁的成年人喽..不说以后,下个礼拜就有大多数的人进兵了..嗨..

乙: 别伤心了..又不是世界末日..

甲: 哈哈,有可能哦..

乙: 大笨蛋!再说这种话,我就捏人咯!哈哈..

甲: 烦啊..烦啊..

乙: 烦舍么?

甲: 烦..没东西咯..哈哈..是否我,真的一无所有???王杰的歌哦..

乙: 哈哈,你到底没有舍么?

甲: 我没有钱..

乙: 还以为是舍么大不了的事情呢..钱只是身外物,没有就去赚吗..

甲: 也不只没有钱啦..

甲: 我..没有心..不,是找不到心..

乙: ???

甲: ...

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人不花心,只是感情丰富罢了..哈哈..

"风一样的男子" ---陈晓东..

爱转动

甲: 哈哈,记得前面还有多一个entry哟..

乙: 卑鄙,无耻,下流,下贱,下..

甲: 哟,儿童不依哦..

乙: 知道啦,大笨蛋..

甲: 开始学人家啦?会挨骂的哟..

乙: 哈哈,反正会在度假屋,要骂也只可在拜六骂哈哈..

甲: 哈哈,你嬴咯..

乙: 那当然..谁能斗的过我?哈哈..

甲: 这么有自信?

乙: 哈哈,废话来的,别当真..

乙: (想了想..)

乙: 说真的,其实每个人都有个最大的敌人..

甲: 谁啊?

乙: 自己咯..

甲: 咦?说来听听..

乙: 也不是舍么惊天动地的事..相信我这么一说,大家都会恍然大悟..

甲: 哈哈,我笨吗..

乙: 试想想,有多少事情,我们无法做到,或无法达成,而都是应为自己不能克服自
的内心世界?

甲: 听你这么一说..好象有点道理噢..

乙: 哈哈,孺子可教,真是一点就通啊..

甲: 好象还没进入话题噢..

乙: 哈哈,说的也是..

甲: 好象不行了..节目时间快完了..

乙: (看了看表)哎呀,时间这么快就过去了..还没说到几句话呢..>.<

甲: 又抄人家的,小心她匾你啊..哈哈..

乙: 把她说的那么凶,你自己小心一点才对哈哈..

甲: 别多说了,快跟观众说再见吧..

乙: 哦..

甲,乙: 明天的明天见咯..记得要收看噢!!拜拜!!

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<<爱转动>>

(阿哲)送一束鲜花想很久 不知道她会不会接受
(哈林)猜想女人心思 凭运气不够 追求真爱就要勇敢行对
(阿哲)只有爱让世界不停转动
(哈林)鼓起勇气把爱说出口 却总学不会察言观色
(阿哲)拿捏女人情绪 凭热情不够
(哈林)追求真爱就要勇敢行对 只有爱让世界不停转动
(阿哲)真情流露也要体贴温柔 只有爱让世界不停转动
(阿哲)总是把仅有(的)骄傲 轻易的交在她的手中 凭什么理由 我也说不出口
(哈林)总是对感情(太)沉默 到现在我还是没把握
(合唱)付出 等待 收获
(哈林)爱人或被爱很难抉择 我只想勇敢大步走
(阿哲)面对两人生活 凭爱够不够
(合唱)追求真爱就要勇敢行对 只有爱让世界不停转动
真情流露也要体贴温柔 只有爱让世界不停转动

用情;受罪

<<用情>>

不怨不悔 难有相同的感情给谁 对与不对 由时间体会
谁不是这样以为 骗自己忘了无所谓
却事与愿违 往事轻扣我心扉
花开的美 美不过你笑容的妩媚 午夜梦回 怕景物憔悴
怎能不这样以为 没有你尝遍痛苦的滋味
是我太沉醉 让思念步步相随
我用情付诸流水 爱比不爱可悲
听山盟海誓曾经说的字字都珍贵
想你温柔的双臂 会甜蜜的圈住谁
我用情付诸流水 爱比不爱可悲
听山盟海誓曾经说的字字都珍贵
不见男人的眼泪 停在眼眶里 那样苦苦徘徊

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<<受罪>>

陌生的城市 被恶梦惊醒的黑夜 拉开窗帘 看着无人的街
熟悉的音乐响在耳边 我看着眼前已没有感觉的世界 想起了你
我发现 我在安静无声地掉泪 这才明白被伤得有多重
曾经我以为 事过境迁 走了这么远 总该能把痛给忘却
距离却一再提醒对你的想念 就让我爱里头受罪
疯狂的疲惫 不相信你会走得那么绝
既然没有权利快乐 至少拥有全部伤悲
你让我爱里头受罪 却没有怨言 连折磨自己都无法避免
活在你留下的深渊 我看不见天 开始习惯黑夜

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甲: 嗨..

乙: 叹舍么气吗?

甲: 感情的事,是否真的爱的越深,伤的越痛?

乙: ...

甲: 沉默表示赞同咯..

(寂静)

甲,乙: 嗨

OrIeNtAtIoN..

Start of with a nice quote?

**Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do**


Going for chalet again tmr.. will be e last one b4 entry to ns le, no doubt.. gonna play as much as i can, eat as much as i wan, n do wateva i am limited to.. hehe all this under e constraints of 50 bucks.. sheesh..

It's aranda again, so will be good la.. haha..

Anyway crashed orientation for 2 days le.. this yr's batch ain't very onz.. yet i guess.. given time, i guess they may turn out fine after all.. hmmm.. e opening ceremony today was..well, could be betta carried out? haha who am i to comment man.. nvm, as long as e yr1s have fun..didn't really see e games coz went home to sleep,maybe tt was e really fun part??

but e background n theme's pretty well-done la.. can feel e atmosphere n hype surrounding e 6 clans with their respective gods.. haha keep saying e games are rigged though, coz athens's e capital of greece ya? haha..

haha probably coz of e size, ppl keep saying i look weird in e acs berms.. haha, at least i can squeeze in into something tt belongs to lower sec? haha..hx looks overgrown in e chi high u, tt i have to agree..

got to know this injured gal from anderson.. haha as innocent as can be.. didn't believe i was yr3 man.."i tot jc only has 2 yrs?" haha.. get well soon ya?

failed terribly in my decision to jog everyday le.. haha only done it once.. well at least cycled twice these few days.. okok will start rite after chalet ends ya?

i promise!!!

someone do remind me of my promise ya?

haha..

didn't even say wat i promised haha..

"爱是怀疑" ---Eason Chen..

我不够爱你

<<我不够爱你>>

我想我不够爱你 我不曾忘了自己
没那么全心投入 所以会一败涂地

我想我不够爱你 我忘了你的用情
没办法重来一次 也只好听天由命

不能在没有月亮的夜里
也不能轻易地闭上眼睛
因为你会出现 在天空或心里
没那么全心投入 所以会一败涂地

我想我不够爱你 我忘了你的用情
没办法重来一次 也只好听天由命

不能在没有月亮的夜里
也不能轻易地闭上眼睛
因为你会出现 在天空或心里

不能在一望无尽的地方
也不能钻进那拥挤人群
因为寂不寂寞 都会惊醒我
我失去了我不够爱的你

练习

<<练习>>

如果留下多一秒钟
可以减少明天想你的痛
我会愿意放下所有
交换任何一丝丝可能的占有
幸福只剩一杯沙漏　 眼睁睁看着一幕幕甜蜜
不会再有原来平凡无奇的拥有
到现在竟像是无助的奢求
我已开始练习　开始慢慢着急
着急这世界没有你
已经和眼泪说好不哭泣
但倒数计时的爱该怎么继续
我天天练习　天天都会熟悉
在没有你的城市里
试着删除每个两人世界里
那些曾经共同拥有的一切美好和回忆
爱是一万公顷的森林
迷了路的却是我和你
不是说好一起闯出去
怎能剩我一人回去
回去

会说话的哑巴

<<会说话的哑巴>>

没有了香味的玫瑰花 总觉得缺少了什么
没有了对象绵绵情话 说了有一点傻
自从你离开的那一天 我的心塌下不想再说话
所有间题不想回答 不知不觉早已习惯

对着自己说话

不想被揭开我的疮疤 躲藏在那无人的家
看着那不会响的电话 等你一个回答
我只能彷佛在空气中 闻到一丝丝霉了的牵挂
好久不见你可好吗 在一瞬间心情复杂
泪水骨碌滑下

忘不了你溜溜的长发 忘不了你深深的牵挂
剩下我一个人挣扎 一个人比划
没有你的日子停止说话
听说你真的剪了长发 听说你真的忘了牵挂
难道你感觉不到吗 接收不到吗
在那遥远会说话的哑巴 在对你说话

2004...

2004...

A new yr, a new beginning..

Yeah..

Action packed days leading upto e countdown, and after it as well.. Lets see..

Had another ktv session on tue with a bunch of guys n a girl.. not too bad, juz a bit ex tt's all haha.. felt bad for hogging onto e mike for long periods of time though hehe.. Sorry guys, if i , eh, didn't sound too good?

Rushed straight down to tanah merah for stayover again.. e usual things happened again, alot of playing, alot of bickering, n a bit of sleep haha.. didn't accomplish e nutmeg in winning eleven, but learnt tt with money, u're almost omnigod in ff10.. haha think only i know wat i'm talking abt here..

came home after tt for a bit of nap in e afternoon, den it's off to marche to meet up with e same bunch off ppl haha.. guess it's e last day of e yr so every place's hiking up e prices.. as someone puts it," e demand exceeds e supply.." hehe..

Initial plan was to chjmes for countdown, but e atmosphere and e crowd sort of turned some of us off, so decided to go zouk in e end.. wasn't a very good choice for me coz had to spend every single cent on e entrance fee n long pants to enter it hehe.. everyone was pretty wild inside la, guess tt sort of justified e fee.. but den met up with another fren who brought along a spoiler of e nite.. or shud i say, e spoiler clinged onto him all nite.. some gal with lots of lovehangers (hmm first time i heard of e word..) n e hangten bag was in e way e whole nite too.. yucks!

well, i guess it ain't as good an experience as e first coz of e human jams everywhere(plus e spoilers hehe), but seems like it's really a good place to relieve wateva stress u have, like my frens did..

Shopped alot after e countdown in e afternoon for new yr's clothes.. quite xing teng for my mum act but she juz said, "xi huan jiu mai.." haha thanx mum! even if it's a very small possibility tt u'll chance upon this..

Entry's a bit rushed n scattered hehe..Sorry for tt, but though a guy can multi-task, he can't do it very well haha..

Gonna go back to sch tmr.. wonder wat it'll be like?

"Last Christmas" ---Wham!!2004...

4F LiVeS oN..

Hehe, guess won't have much face to go to sch when it reopens liao.. Hundreds of "door-gifts" will be given out, n ya, everyone of them has my face on it.. Sigh.. Blessing in disguise? Haha certainly hope so..

Feels really bad to have no money.. Been window shopping for so many days, n nth bought.. maybe tt's wat prompted me to look for a job, but den again, there're other reasons for me to not look for a job.. The lazy nature me should be deciding to slack my way till ns haha, n curb my materialistic nature at the same time..

Had fish n co again at glasshouse opp ps.. But this was like, a gang outing of sorts haha.. Think we were like a thunderstorm everywhere we went, with loud, foul language strewn all over our conversation.. But tt's juz normal la.. Been sometime since we had a gathering of this scale, but the 4f spirit's still as strong as ever, if not stronger..
Really glad to have this bunch of frens..

Staying over someone's place usually means bouts of ps2 games, which indirectly results in us playing soccer on the road whilst searching for the place haha.. Guess "winning eleven's" the only thing tt we can agree on, except for maybe "grand theft auto", which was pretty sadistic la haha.. Most fell asleep in the midst of "Italian Job" despite it being a good show, maybe the little bit of vodka's kicking in? haha..

"I'm sorry for spoiling ur night.."

Well, i guess it's act the other way round, we being unable to lessen ur pain n help u out.. Love isn't everything man, there're many other things in life ya? U'll always have us to fall back on..

"U're thinking with ur brain instead of ur heart.."

Guess there's a bit of truth?

"It's only human nature to expect more.."

Very much the case in lots of ppl's situation..

No black or white, no right or wrong..

Theoretically speaking, it's e feeling tt counts, but tt's up to one's belief, n is a pretty extreme case too.. In reality, we usually fall prey to the external factors, which are ever-present..

I'm juz a kid..

"一场游戏一场梦" ---王杰...

男女之间

<<男女之间>>

女人最怕男人是一堆沙猪 男人最怕女人脑袋像浆糊
女人通常都是感情的动物 男人大半都是生活的侏儒
女人可以爱的义无反顾 男人只能爱到相当程度
女人失恋容易另寻出路 男人失恋可就万劫不复
男女之间永远说不清楚 互相厌恶又互相追逐
彼此可以找出千万的错误 却是五十步笑百步
女人对爱要求需索无度 男人总是显得马马虎虎
女人好不容易决定开始 男人却好像刚要结束
女人的泪可以融化冰雪 男人的哭却是山崩地裂
女人的坚强是金石不变 男人的温柔是沧海一粟
女人的胸前是男人的家 男人的肩膀是女人的床
女人希望男人像一棵大树 男人渴望的是精神支柱
男女之间永远说不清楚 互相厌恶又互相追逐
彼此可以找出千万的错误 却是五十步笑百步
女人说谎保证是天衣无缝 男人说谎终究是百密一疏
女人懂得演戏是一种天赋 男人永远败在经验不足
女人认为爱情是一种付出 男人总是把它当作一种征服
女人好不容易决定开始 男人却好像刚要结束
女人好不容易决定开始 男人却好像刚要结束

OuTiNgS...

Lots of outing these days, so lets see, where shall i start?

Gym outing on mon, was suppose to be watching lotr, but it was a bit too long, so we settled with a simple dinner at some soup place with free flow of bread in suntec, den fooled ard at the sky garden..Relived all the old memories at the playground there, where we did all the high bar n some floor moves too.. All rusty liao, muscles aching juz after a while.. Got some pretty good shots after tt too, juz waiting for it to be uploaded now..

B4 tt was yet another ntu training act, but i guess they've got to the point where we'll juz sit and watch n point out the mistakes instead of act doing it.. Guess she can almost handle them all by herself now, so should be going down only if i'm free? Haha which is always the case anyway..

Pulled out of e pilot interview last min yesterday, n i shan't live to regret it.. Wat's so scary abt commandos? Believe in urself, n u can do it.. Haha act quite dramatic too, coz e whole conversation was held in front of many ppl, n i guess they were all pretty shock at this guy choosing commandos over pilot.. Well at least i didn't get rejected by them, i rejected them haha.. yeah!

Finally watched lotr with the guys after tt.. Tay was pretty embarassing, exclaiming "yes!!" at certain parts of the movie, luckily wasn't sitting beside him.. Anyway the movie was great, save for the fact tt maybe the war scene was a bit short, at least it felt shorter den the previous installment.. but all in all it was a good show la, good triumph over evil, peace reign, wat more can u ask for? go watch it if u haven't.. Act hoping for a movie on the Belgariad now, tt'll be an epic man..

Will be going for a session of ktv after this, it's been so long.. Guess after this, i'll have met most of my frens duing the hols liao.. Either going out with them, or meeting them during the outings haha.. Cool rite? Guess tt's an achievement liao hehe..

Wc asked a qn..And i answered.. but is it e truth, or is it denial? *no idea*

"练习" ---刘得华..

ChRiStMaS...

Haha 1st of all, MeRrY cHrIsTmAs!!! ^.^

Spread e joy thru e whole list of ppl in my phonebook.. Guess e bill this mth's not gonna be cheap, but well, when was it ever?

Saw this chiobu on e train on e way to parkway.. Was very much surprised when she met her frens on e next stop.. Haha act think it's e rare moments when u hear profanities strewn all over e gal's speech.. Guess u really can't judge a book by its cover? It had, surprisingly, a bit of spunk hidden though.. Haha i'm pretty sure i didn't get my msg thru..

Only 3 went to ktv in e end, including me.. Felt so dwarfed act haha.. Had to pay at festive price, but fren was kind enuff to take care of e extra so only paid 10.. Think i'm only suited for certain songs in ktv coz of e notes to hit.. Haha but as long as it's juz 清唱 i've no qualms on any song..

Lets see..

Long-distance.. Third party.. Personality.. Maturity.. Get e drift? Haiz.. Tt juz abt covers all? I dunno.. More entries are strictly not welcomed haha..

Wat will u do if u like this gal, n u wan to tell ur very good pal abt it, but b4 u do it, he tells u first tt he likes e gal? Will u 1) Tell him abt ur feelings towards e gal too or 2) Keep ur feelings a secret?

Maybe e qn lacks a bit of info.. E intentions? Are u gonna do tell him so as to win e gal's heart fair n square? Or are u gonna keep it a secret n 成全 e both of dem? Or are u gonna observe situation n act accordingly, with urself in e knowledge of everything..

And e gal? Who will she act choose? And will she change her decision coz of the actions u've taken?

And are u willing to potentially lose this friendship with ur good pal?

There's juz so many things to consider, n e fact tt each decision triggers a chain of events means tt a proper choice muz be made rite from e start..

My qn is, is there a proper way out of it? Is someone bound to be hurt? How to minimise e pain den?

Hmm, maybe, juz maybe, i guess i'll probably keep it a secret n give dem my blessings? There many other "flowers" ard, n a well established friendship is hard to come by as well.. So suffer in silence?

Wah so伟大..

好人难做, 好人难做,好人真的那么难做吗?
说真的, 好人可能有两种噢..
在别人瞩目下的好人, 需承受他人的赞赏与谴责, 是难做得好人..
不受他人眼光的好人, 则任劳任怨, 默默的耕耘, 为群服务..
但这种好人, 没人知, 没人晓, 又有谁肯担任呢?

"海市蜃楼" ---Jolin Tsai..

ViEwS..

Haha..

Kinda cool tt diff ppl will have diff perspectives and view of the same thing, but tt's juz as expected coz there're no 2 minds tt are exactly the same, probably juz similar.. So i have the skeleton, others have the flesh and skin haha.. Dun think many will understand wat i'm saying, but juz refer to the previous entry for a vague idea..

Neutral.. Hmmm is tt the image i portray? Maybe it's a sub-conscious thing.. But den again, it's much clearer for me to sit on the fence coz there's no preference to either sides.. Also it's easy for me to speak to both sides and hear their views.. Though it's kinda like, undecided as to wat i really wan..

Na, tt's too deep to go into.. Dun wanna think like a gal haha.. Tt's the good point abt being a guy i guess.. Not much tots are put on the actions of ppl, rather they're directed somewhere else, usually on how to enjoy life.. Den again, it makes life become kind of superficial, though it does avoid lots of probs and confrontations, which causes lots of headaches.. Hmmm, i think i'll pass tt..

Hols coming to an end soon.. Haven't really set out for proper physical training.. Hopefully can start next week? Haha did i say hope? Wondering wat ns life wud be like.. All work, no play, no gals too.. Tt's a triple yux!!! But it's when boys become men.. A bit out of point for me, coz i dun wanna grow up!!! Haha..

Everyone should always stay in touch with their inner child.. Not to forget remain in contact with their masculine/feminine side as well.. Always feel tt way coz i believe there's a multitude of situations tt we'll face, and it isn't possible to face all of them with the same mentality, so a bit of "division of labour" will do the trick..

Haha this entry feels so weird.. Like blabbering on and on..
Kinda wonder how many ppl i know act visit this od too.. Think only 6 ppl know of it.. Should i go public? Hmm..

On a final note, i like chocolate ice-cream cake, so i guess both applies for me? Haha..

To those who are patient enuff to get to this point:
Enjoy life, and stay happy always..
Tt's wat life's all abt!!!

"Staying Alive" ---Bee Gees..

ChAlEt..

回到家咯..

4 days ain't short, but it ain't long either.. Feels like time passes by so quickly these days, which is a good thing coz it means tt i'm enjoying myself ya? Haha.. Guess everyone, or almost everyone properly tucked in n enjoying e nice weather now.. Me? Haha for the first time i get to sleep on a proper bed so still feeling energetic, yeah!

Anyway, lots of things happened during this chalet, n its impressions rivals e past chalet i had at the same place.. Seems like a good (and expensive) chalet does leave a lasting memory on ppl's mind ya? Hmmm.. Let me try to get thru these day by day..

Day 1:
Meeting time was at 1230, went there early to recce a bit first, in the end only a small bunch trooped together to the chalet, where we duly waited for the keys, which came at 2.. Settled in pretty quickly, den prepearations for the nite's bbq took place.. Everyone helped a bit, making the whole process speedy..

Bbq was pretty enjoyable, the eating and the cooking and the talking.. But feel tt more interaction could have taken place b/w the 2 teams.. Well, it's nvr easy to draw 2 teams really close together..

Och was next, but it didn't turn out as exciting as expected.. The whole place was like a tourist attraction, guess at least 50 ppl visited the place at diff times.. The "yang" energy was so overpowering tt it sent the ants on the floor scurrying away and the dogs barking the whole time.. Ok tt last line's crap.. After tt, it was the usual chalet stuff, talk cock, eat, take a walk..

Day 2:
The main program of the day, 食字路口, wasn't really greeted with much enthusiasim in the first place, but once we set off, everyone became in a hurry to down the food and rush back to the chalet to win.. Well, almost everyone la.. And guess wat? We won!!! Haha, n tt results in a free session of ktv, i guess..? Well, many other things happened in b/w, but guess i'll juz commit tt to memory and save it there instead of bore others with details..

Shan't comment on the meeting after tt..=(

Day 3:
Slept like a pig coz didn't sleep much the previous nite, but was also "lai chuanging" for most period of time, eavesdropping on the conversations taking place.. Hit the beach in the afternoon, and it was the usual again, volleyball, captain's ball and, well, sea-water battle..

Bbq took place again to finish the leftover food..Which we still couldn't finish again in the end haha.. Den it was fun with seniors, on n off the bed..

Day 4:
Packed up and left, need i say anything more?

Points to note:
"Dead or Alive 2" became hugely popular during the chalet..

Tay had another accident with the "new" car..

Someone's mouth will expand when playing games..(Or is it naturally tt big? Hmmm..)

And girls have scary way of thinking..

Left out lots of details, but i guess there's juz abt enuff to relive the moments of the past 4 days so ya, will sign off here..

"爱情多瑙河" ---熊天平...

ArAnDa...

Aranda.. Aranda.. Here i come!!!

Haha think it was last yr during dec hols when i first stayed at aranda chalet, n boy was it good.. Fully air-conditioned, spacious rooms with well-equiped kitchens and mahjong sets for all to use.. This is one chalet tt i didn't even feel like leaving to go out and enjoy e activities outside, juz sit ard and play mahjong and ps2 e whole day.. Haha, but it does come at a price though.. Then again, wat in life doesn't?

Got to go pack now..So juz sign off here..

"You'll be in my Heart" ---Phil Collins

PrI cLaSs GaThErInG..

Initial barriers broken b/w e same sexes/sch..

Next time, it'll be totally gone..

Finally met up with pri sch classmates like after 2 yr plus? Many have changed, looks and style, but they're all basically e same as i remember dem to be.. Though e bond's pretty much gone, at least e friendship still pretty much exist.. Form tr's pretty glad to see us all too, since we're her first batch of students to graduate from pri sch.. She hasn't really changed much though, well, maybe juz looking a bit shorter haha..

A mum tt nvr was.. Yet a true mother she'll always be..

Was reminded of the very first tr i came in contact with in pri sch.. She followed my class up for 4 yrs straight, den retired due to a bad back.. Heard tt i left a lasting impression on her, which set me thinking back on the pri sch days.. Bits and pieces came flooding back, making me realise how much an impact she had on me.. Kinda sad tt we have lost contact though.. Well, tt's life, isn't it?

In life, many ppl leave footprints in ur heart, but the ones tt truely matter are the ones tt remain imprinted and nvr washed away, no matter rain or shine..

"It's Your Duty" ---Lene...

SwIsS fAll..

Yeah!!!

Swiss fall's finally succeeded with everybody's hardwork and determination, and a bit of credit goes towards kazaa too, haha..

Ntu routine's beginning to take shape too.. But attendance prob is popping up as well.. As usual, juz like house cheerleading.. Guess there's not much to do, except to remain optimistic and hope for the best? There can be miracles when u believe..

Think everyone's getting real busy for the hols.. Jobs and everything.. Lost contact with seemingly lots of ppl.. Or maybe it's juz me..

Meeting up with pri sch classmates today, after so many years.. Changes wil definitely occur, wonder whether it's for the better or worse.. But do hope this will not be the last time we meet though.. Let the friendship remain firm in our hearts..

Beginning to feel the importance of money these few days.. Saving up isn't easy, requiring skipping meals or resisting the urge to shop.. No choice, got to repay debts and all.. Sigh.. Hope commandos pay well.. =)

"When U Believe.." ---Mariah Carey, Whitney Houston...
(There can be miracles, when u believe...
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill..
Who knows wat miracles, u can achieve..
When u believe, somehow u will..
U will when u believe..)

ThE pInK dReSs..

The Pink Dress

There was this little girl sitting by herself in the park.

Everyone passed by her and never stopped to see why she looked so sad.

Dressed in a worn pink dress, barefoot and dirty, the girl just sat and
watched the people go by.

She never tried to speak.

She never said a word.

Many people passed by her, but no one would stop.

The next day I decided to go back to the park in curiosity to see if the
little girl would still be there.

Yes, she was there, right in the very spot where she was yesterday, and
still with the same sad look in her eyes.

Today I was to make my own move and walk over to the little girl.

For as we all know, a park full of strange people is not a place for
young children to play alone.

As I got closer I could see the back of the little girl's dress.

It was grotesquely shaped.

I figured that was the reason people just passed by and made no effort to
speak to her.

Deformities are a low blow to our society and, heaven forbid if you make
a step toward assisting someone who is different.

As I got closer, the little girl lowered her eyes slightly to avoid my
intent stare.

As I approached her, I could see the shape of her back more clearly.

She was grotesquely shaped in a humped over form.

I smiled to let her know it was OK; I was there to help, to talk.

I sat down beside her and opened with a simple, "Hello".

The little girl acted shocked, and stammered a "hi"; after a long stare
into my eyes.

I smiled and she shyly smiled back.

We talked until darkness fell and the park was completely empty.

I asked the girl why she was so sad.

The little girl looked at me with a sad face said, "Because, I'm
different".

I immediately said, "That you are!"; and smiled.

The little girl acted even sadder and said, "I know."

"Little girl," I said, "you remind me of an angel, sweet and innocent."

She looked at me and smiled, then slowly she got to her feet and said,
"Really?"

"Yes, you're like a little Guardian Angel sent to watch
over all people walking by."

She nodded her head yes, and smiled.

With that she opened the back of her pink dress and allowed her wings to
spread, then she said "I am."

I'm your Guardian Angel," with a twinkle in her eye.

I was speechless -- sure I was seeing things.

She said, "For once you thought of someone other than yourself.

My job here is done".

I got to my feet and said, "Wait, why did no one stop to help an angel?"


She looked at me, smiled, and said, "You're the only one that could see
me," and then she was gone.

And with that, my life was changed dramatically.

So, when you think you're all you have, remember, your angel is always
watching over you.

ThE dAy...

Another day till e big day..

Or is it really tt huge a magnitude?

Pretty much aching from all the physical activities these few days.. Guess some training will really need to be registered in b4 28 of jan.. Probably do so after e day lor..

Wonder wat i'll look like, or wat the stylist will make me look like..

Sometimes it's juz so weird tt wat some think looks good on u may not be so for others.. Guess it's not possible to please everyone ya? Juz be happy with it urself i guess, tt's the first and most impt stage.. Hmmm...?

So much training these few days.. Ntu plus sch's.. Kinda pity chingyan, who's flying almost like everyday.. Den again, it means she'll be more ready den ever when the time comes for her to show her stuff.. Wish her the best lor..=)

Suddenly tot of sth tt someone's been debating over..

Change: Good or bad?

Well nvr really put much tot on these, but wat i feel is tt for everything, there's bound to be a good and bad side, depending on diff perspective.. The necessicity of the change can mean a lot too.. Juz so happens tt the change's not to ur liking doesn't mean it's totally bad, ya? Change is part and parcel of life, and whether good or bad we'll have to live with it till the day we open our eyes no more..

So juz be satisfied with wat u have, ya? (",)

"Where is the love?" ---Black Eyed Peas..

ChAnCe Or ChOiCe?

Chance or Choice

When we meet the right person to love, when we're at the right place at the right time, that's chance.

When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance.

Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance.

The difference is what happens afterwards. When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level?

That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling.

If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that's not a chance. That's choice.

When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice.

Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice.

Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance.
But true love that lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make.

Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this: Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen.

I do believe that soul mates do exist. That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not. We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mate is still a choice we have to make.

We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love... BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person
perfectly..


do cherish all the ple ard you.. (=

Cheers~

ChRoNo CrOsS..

"What was the start of all this?
When did the cogs of fate begin to turn?

Perhaps it is impossible to grasp that answer now,
From deep within the flow of time...

But, for a certainty, back then,
We loved so many, yet hated so much,
We hurt others and were hurt ourselves...

Yet even then we ran like the wind,
Whilst our laughter echoed,
Under cerulean skies..."
---Chrono Cross

Jc...

It's been 2 years..

Not too long, yet not too short either..

"Time flies when u're happy.."

Still remember this phrase from the june chalet, n it still brings a smile to my face..

Suddenly the big pic seems all so clear..

So has ur jc life been short or long?

Lalala..

So much has passed by during these 2 years.. Nvr really liked nj for its admin stuff, but the ppl there have certainly given me a wonderful time.. Esp the cl ppl, the crazy bunch of buddies who toss ppl ard like nobody's business, sing and dance the house down,and lots of other stuff tt "pandemonium" wud be a good word to describe.. Not to forget the soccer khakis who's brotherhood was forged on the basketball courts of nj.. Seriously, thanx for everything..

W flew back home to sarawak today.. And stupid me almost didn't make it to the flight.. Missed 4 trains coz tot the train bound for changi still operates from je.. So it was a dramatic 5 min dash thru e arrival hall to bk and another 5 min of photo taking b4 she left, with tears in her eyes.. I guess life juz won't be the same w/o her ya? Not gonna see her anytime soon in the near future, all of us have our own commitments.. At least i was able to bade her goodbye.. Juz in time..

深深的相信, 有那么一天, 阳光普照的这么一天, 我们将会再次重逢.. 离别随痛苦, 但没有离别, 那来得欢聚?

We're missing u already.. Everyone of us.. And if u're reading this at home, dun forget tt there's still this bunch of ppl back here waiting for u to come back one day.. In the meantime, take care, god bless, n may the goddess of luck, fortune, happiness and everything good shine upon u.. Always..

"朋友" ---周华健

ClUbBiNg..

Yeah it's over!!!

Came home early in e morning coz it was too noisy to sleep in the room.. Guess induz3 was really a tiring place to go ya? Everyone went keesiao inside there, think it was act much more fun den at mandarin hotel floor 5, which was juz food and a bit of entertainment from e host.. Lost both my money n my voice, though it was one heck of an experience..=)

Anyway saw this girl in red top who took a 2nd look at me when i was walkin into the pub( haha coz i took a 2nd look at her too => ) Kinda think she's a kindergarden fren, but not so sure so didn't ask..

Haha now i know wat kind of lifestyle really suits me.. It ain't those formal dinner where strict dress codes are imposed, it's those activities tt i can do anything i wan, wear anything i wan.. Guess tt's kinda like wat most ppl wan?

"My Heart will go on.." ---Celine Dion
(Timeless classic..)

回来..

<<回来>>

喜欢一个人去冒险
自由自在飞
闭上眼闯入天空
梦想跟着变大

世界究竟舍么样
不是我想象
那样清楚 那么简单
容易 找不到自己

回到这里 where I want to be
一个熟悉声音向我召唤
这里有我的记忆
给我 补充了温暖

回来 the feeling's so right
给我一个夏天经过伤痕
时间会变成坚强
再次微笑 出发

FiNiShInG..

Last paper tmr.. Yet the lifting of a huge burden is not felt..

Why?

Isn't it good?

Well on one hand not being stressed abt the paper shows a certain level of maturity, though in my case it's a lack of it.. On the other hand it means a lack of seriousness in life.. Hmmm maybe tt ain't tt bad after all..

Haiya rubbish..

So many things to do after the a's..

Soccer..

Socialising..

Playing games..

Eh.. Tt's all??? Sigh there's really nothing much to do here in our small island man.. Or did i left anything out?

Should be going down for ntu training next week.. Ppl's been spreading word abt me, quite paiseh if i dun live up to their expectations.. so need to get back in shape!!

An old fren called last nite.. At cmpb now doing clerical work.. Hehe was quite pleasantly surprised by the call, den
again, got the info tt training in hendon's gonna be hell.. 3 times the normal bmt, 5 times tt of gym training.. Hmmm, seriously speaking, i'm kinda looking forward to seeing wat it's like.. guess i'll go keesiao when i finally come out of the "cage"..

Should go study now, but, u know..

"I will survive" ---Gloria Gaynor..
(Haha i'll keep this song in mind in camp!)

OvEr...SoOn...

3 subs over liao.. Now left with physics only.. Sigh guess prob can aim for (AB)^2 only.. Didn't perform to expectation for econs and fm.. Pia physics liao i guess, but den again, been slacking for so long.. Sigh, think this is easily one of the slackest, if not the slackest, exams i've ever taken.. Well it's gonna be over soon, so havoc Should reign supreme when it ends..=)

Been getting more and more in touch with soccer, both on and off the field.. Was watching this nike freestyle tournament at youth park, and boy were the ppl impressive with their ball tricks..Haha, 人外有人 i guess..Winning 11 and vs2 are pretty addictive too.. Guess tt's gonna be my life liao, soccer soccer and more soccer.. Well at least i've stopped betting on matches.. Well, at least for now.. Hehe..

Cl com's not gonna be held.. Cheers pulled out in the end.. Sigh juz as well, dun think the squad's act will be ready for the com, judging from wat i hear.. Seriously speaking, i think he does things all for the sake of the team, juz tt the way he goes abt it may not agree with ppl.. And he thinks big, really big.. C'mon man, 每个人都有自己的梦想，所有的伟人都是梦想家。。Den again, it's a harsh world we're living in, so maybe..hmm, a tea session? But how many has gone by w/o seeing much improvement.. Haiz..

A point to note:同一屋檐下was damn nice, the song as well.. Pity it was short though.. I guess any show tt's close to the heart will be nice, ya? Haha..

One final note:寻找，寻找，寻找。。
“回来” －－－Jeff Wang, theme song of 同一屋檐下。。

IdEnTiTy...

When I walked up the stairs,

I saw a man who wasn't there...

He wasn't there the next day,

I wish, I wish,

He was never there...

--Identity...

At ThE bEgInNiNg..

A single message...

A simple greeting...

That's all it took to bring us back to the start...

Guess we've finally grown up, ya?

Forgive and forget...

If only we knew that right from the start...

A new start...

A new beginning...

But it'll never be the same again...

...

...

...

Fly high for a's people!!!

Chun Zhen --- Mayday...

爱...?

“我爱上让我奋不顾身的一个人。。。

我以为这就是我所追求的世界。。。”

情不自禁。。。

却开不了口。。。

爱－简单？

哈 哈 哈。。。

。。。

。。。

。。。

“受罪” －－－张信哲。。。

I'vE gOt A qN...

好久以前就想问你这个问题了。。。

却没有这份勇气。。。

也没有这个机会。。。

时间不多了。。。

不知以后的我们是否会再碰面。。。

好吧，那我就问了。。。

。。。

。。。

你喜不喜欢。。。

。。。

。。。

。。。

“布拉格广场” －－－蔡依林

天使..

难忘的一天。。

天使般的脸孔。。

尽然从身边擦身而过。。

上天真是会戏弄人。。

这就叫“有缘无分？”

“缘分只能让你们相遇，恋爱还是需要实际的行动。。”

啊。。好心痛啊。。

“Lovely" ---Michelle Tumes..

cHiLdReN's DaY..

A new month..

A new beginning..

Well not really la, every month's turnover will only see one thing new.. Msg count..

Ar rubbish..

Haven't been updating od for so long.. Heck, haven't even been online for the same period of time.. Either there's connection prob, or too tired, or too lazy.. Hehe prelim period does have 1 thing +ve in it, tt is the time to sleep every afternoon after the morning papers..

Well, didn't fare really well in prelims, guess i really shud start studying soon..Juz kinda pissed at getting screwed of marks for case study.. Next time i'll juz phrase it such tt the examiners are 心服口服..

Ain't really involve in any sensible conversation these few days.. At least not really going in depth.. Guess tt's wat the exam period does to ppl.. Soccer was at an alltime high, almost every single break at the court.. Maybe a bit exaggerate, but ya.. Haha dun care la..

Self-proclaim break's gonna end soon..Hopefully can get back to the gear when starting study again.. In the meantime helping out the needy now.. Hey, it's not all tt hard to pass promos kay? Juz remember the concepts and know how to apply them.. Easier said den done.. Anyway, other den tt can always start having prayer sessions and hope tt they're answered..

Hehe, no life, so not much to crap now.. Dun worry though, it's only a passing period...=)

To all those who're still very much in touch with their inner child, happy children's day!!!

"晴天" ---周杰伦!!!

喜欢..

"我看,改次还是跟班的人一起坐吧..."

"噢,随你的意..."

呵呵,真的发生了..

惨喽,在这个时候又再度陷入情网..而且上一段才刚过去不久呢..

男人真的经不起诱惑吗?真是的,女人的吸引力真的那么大?能使模范丈夫出跬?这可能就是所谓的"七年之痒"..

当然,也不能全全怪到女人头上..相信在许许多多的恋情里,女性所付出的感情是最多地,分离时也是最痛苦的..

问世间情为何物?只叫人生死想许..

意中的对象,难如登天..

不速之客,永追不舍..
Guess tat's wat makes life so full of interest and zest, eh?

小时候..
"哟,有人喜欢某某人噢.."
无忧无虑,根本不知爱情真正的意义何在..
你喜欢我,我喜欢你,但没人真正去试着了解对方..

中学时..
很不/有幸的,在个和尚中学..
不守规矩的和尚多之又多,也不之门路从何找出..
但还是存有着一个小小的"小狗"恋情..
被嘲笑得好残噢..

高中时..
回想起来,可能是太冲动了,或是思考被迷惑了..
嗨,也别提了,往事不堪回首..
学了一件事,女人不好惹..

以后..
以后的道路模糊一片,不知未来会带来舍么..
相信..深信.."她"一定在灯火岚山处..
等待..守候..那一天的到来..
该会是..将会是..美丽故事的起头..
一次就好..不用太多..因为破碎的心是很难弥补的..

但..
如上帝把你遗忘了..
月老的红线刚好用完了..
邱比特也休假去了..
哎哟,糟糕咯..

别气馁,别沮丧..
自己的幸福,要自己去争取..
早回自己..
红线自己拉..
..
..
..
但可别乱射噢!!!

哈哈,神经咯..

"向左走，向右走" ---梁咏琪..

PaRaNoRmAl..

Hehe juz came back from admiralty..Gonna slack a while online b4 starting work again..Sigh..

Anyway was surfing the sfogs website a few days ago, den came acros the topic on marbles in the forum..One such article kinda summarizes the discussion, or at least touch a bit on it..

"Never gave any serious thoughts about all those rolling marbles coming from upstairs late in the nite until I come onto this forum.

I have always thought it must be some kids doing it and quietly curse the parents for not disciplining them. There were occassions where it sounded almost like a bowling ball dropping and rolling across the room upstairs and I came so close to confronting them but as usual, being late in the nite and already half asleep in bed, I just put up with it as it usually last only a few minutes.

Now it seems that this is not a simple case of kids playing with marbles/bowling balls, not the usual kids at least. It's definitely not sheer coincidence that we have some many children living in HDB flats that like to play marbles in the middle of the nite. I have children of my own but they don't play with marbles. Come to think of it, most of my friends kids also don't have marbles in their inventory of toys becos it is a dangerous item as toddlers may swallow it by accident.

So who or what is making that noise?"

Well, i personally dun feel tt little kids will be playing marbles in the dead of the nite, when everyone's sleeping..Some other reasons were given too..

One practical explanation..
"the only time i have experienced this marble thingy before is when i sleep over at my uncles place at marine crescent....it does not create any creepy feelings but rather of curiosity...i always wonder who the hell would play marble at 2/3 am in the morning..i know i won't...but never put much thought to it...
i guess if u think about it logically, it could be the sound made by the contraction of metals...as u know, the concrete used in the building of walls and ceilings are bonded together with steel rods(reinforcement bars) these bars contracts and expand like all metals / it could even be the water pipes in the ceiling...the sound of the marbles could actually be the sound of metals contracting.....u might ask ..that the sound of metals contracting could never sound like marbles dropping ..it would definitely be more like creaking sound...but if u watched war movies where submarines are involved u will realise that this is quite possible...the submarines creaked and a metal hittin sound were made as the thing submerged in to water where pressure drop drastically...well this is just a theory anyway..i could not vouch for it's total truth either but it's worth thinkin about.."

Reasonable enuff, but seriously speaking, does the contraction and expansion of metal sounds like marbles rolling? Maybe..But wat abt the case of furnitures?

Less practical explanation..
"hello. First time here. Browsing and browsing and came across this topic. It sort of freaked me out, because I was chatting with a buddy once. He's a Malay and had attended some courses on natural healing or something with some holy religious teacher. This teacher told him that Djinns or genies still live among humans here, even in HDB flats, but they live in-between levels. Says if u keep hearing 'marble' sounds, it means the floor above is occpied. Donno how true. Scary huh? "

Hehe, scary, but possibly the truth..

Another possibility..
"i have been talking to this architect friend of mine. I told him about the marble issues. And here is his exlaination.

Its like they too are a bunch of superstitious fellow. So everytime they pile the metal pieces into the ground, they will cement a few marbles with it. So this will go on till the last piece of metal is pile it. by doing this, they are actually hoping the when at nite, the young spirits will play with the marbles instead of the people staying in the building, thats why u often hear sounds and stuff liddat at nite, even if u are living in a one story building.

But after hearing my explaination, do try to hear those sounds again....it seems that people who finally know the reasons....stop hearing these sounds....... "

So which one do u believe..?

Hehe, dun get nightmares hor...=)

"Shen Ah Jiu Jiu Wo!" --Chen Xiao Chun..
(Haha appropriate song?)

WaLk LeFt, WaLk RiGhT..

Sheesh..

Feeling unwell today so stayed at home all day..Slept for most of the time, now online a while trying to get back to daily life routine..Can't seem to start studying too..Even if i start, dun think i'll absorb much in this state..Sigh..Time running out liao..How? How? How?!?

Taking solace in the fact tt 'a's the one tt really matters, not prelims..Hmmm..Still..Haiya..

Watched "向左走,向右走" last nite, courtesy of the promotions gig by 933..Nice wud be an understatement..Tt show was awesome! Well for me anyway..Some cried coz of the misfortune of the cast, being unable to meet each other though they're always only a short distance apart from each other, yet others laughed at the various humorous dialogues and comments made by the cast..Well, at least it ended on a happy note, typical of most movies..Go watch the show ppl!! Even if it means sacrificing 2hrs of ur time..

Jac juz msged, telling me to take care and all tt..Funny thing is, i only told 1 person tt i'm not feeling well..Hmmm..

May be witnessing another union of the hearts within the class..Someone's been getting real close with another, studying together, sharing food and all the stuff..Haha, 南洋的女生真的有那么多魅力吗? We shall see..

Ok shall slack a while more, den try to start on revision..
Try..

"Song 2" ---Blur...

ReViSiOn..

Yeah..

Finally started on revision..Well not much, but it's a start..Hopefully can muster the strength to continue later, otherwise will continue to slack in front of com and tv..Sheesh..

Class's pretty "hot" this past week..Went out with them to eat pizza hut on tue, den on thurs went ktv..Haha sang till our throats were dry and voices hoarse..6 whole hrs, and only $50+! Wat a deal..

Was part of the crowd on the overbridge on thur, before going down "cha xuan"..Got the tic in the end, but it was from a female classmate who didn't wanna go..Left the queue halfway coz of the rampant queue-cutting..良心发现..Read the papers the next day, saw the whole report of the incident, which isn't really very +ve..Fren was telling me while i was leaving tt everyone was doing the same thing, so why care so much? Realised tt in the end it is this kinda attitude tt made ppl act the way they do..I stick to the belief tt one shud remain true to oneself, and stick to his principles..

Anyway, kinda screwed my exams so far..Hopefully can recover during the hols, or at least b4 the A's..The phrase "social conditioning" comes into mind again..In any society, the tots and actions of ppl are usually closely related to their surroundings..Witnessing all these now..Everyone's either busy revising or consulting tutors, asking them for advice..I mean, if there was no need for good grades to get a good job, abt how many ppl will be left in the library? C'mon, not everyone's born to study..Who act enjoys spending time slogging at work? Reality is cruel though, and forces ppl to be practical in their approaches towards life..

Well, tt's the sad fact..Sad, but true..Guess tt's part of the reason why games and novels are so popular among the enthusiasts..They kinda allow u to take on an entirely diff role from life, and lets u experience things otherwise unavailable in the real world..Some ppl say it's only a temporary escape, there's no point avoiding..*shrug* On the other hand, there are others who are able to learn and appreciate the complexity of the characters they assume, and hence derive new tots and feelings..

"情网" --张学友

ScH..

Haven't really been updating the od, been busy and all the stuff..

Prelims coming real soon..Haven't started on any revision though..Dun know wat i'm thinking la, juz dun feel like studying at all..

Interesting to realise how my life has turned out to be w/o cl..Juz whole days of lazing ard..Tt is, once my study momentum has broken..Sigh..Once fm mock's over, it's juz slacking and slacking and slacking..Btw got a d for it..Sheesh..

Passion for soccer's been stirred up again..Played on fri and sat, did cip for soccermania too..(Was on tv btw, haha..)Running thru comics too..Now look a bit like black pepper crab, a bit red and a bit black..

Hair's getting too long for comfort..Prob cut it during the hols..

Sch's coming to an end..So soon..12 yrs in all..Wonder wat's life like w/o sch..W/o uniforms..teachers..students..innocent joy and laughter..

Weird huh? Tt sometimes u hate to get up in the morning to go to sch, and yet at times u can't wait to meet ur frens..Haha guess this is really "失去了才懂得珍惜"..

18 yrs..Gonna be 19 in 6 mths' time..and 20 in 18 mths' time..Tt's 1/4 of my life gone..Wonder wat's it gonna be like in say 20 yrs' time? 40?

Ah..

"我吃的起苦"--动力火车..